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sjf posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, May 6, 2018
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hi netzai, happy heaven date anniversary. i miss you everyday and even though i miss you i still love you. my love did not go away after all theses years. its still there and it feels like a fire that has not gone out. lol corny huh don't laugh at me i tried. my heart just grow for you and that what make me smile and that a part that alive inside of me. I'm always with you yeah
love sjf i love you netzai as i always do. i still love your memories
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sjf posted a symbolic gesture
Monday, April 30, 2018
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Hi Netzai, i love and miss you always. i am doing good and i hope you are too. things happened unexpected nothing that we cant deal with. as long as we have God and we keep moving everything will be fine, even when it does not look that way. faith keep us moving and keep us hoping. it give us something to look forward to even when we lose things. i realize we have not really lost anything we just gain something else. i know everything will be fine. everything will be okay. i miss you so much but i know your okay netzai.
love sjf i love you netzai and i still hold a big space for you inside of my heart.
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sjf posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, March 30, 2018
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Hi Netzai, i miss and love you always. i hope your doing fine and i hope your filled with love and healing as well. I'm doing great and moving along and I'm trying to find out the best parts of me. God ways are the most wonderful yet the most complicated times bare with me I'm all over the place
love sjf i love you netzai forever
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sjf posted a symbolic gesture
Tuesday, January 30, 2018
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Hi netzai i love and miss you so much. i hope your doing well. i hope your at peace. i miss you. i am doing great. i am moving forward and trying to finish this this well you know lolololol
love sfj i love you netzai i always love you. i am still here
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sjf posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, December 31, 2017
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Hi netzai i miss and love you always. i hope you had a wonderful christmas and new years. i hope your well!!! i hope your laughing and smiling as you always did. today is an okay day still umm thinking about going. there are days well you know those days i am okay. tell jesus i said happy birthday sorry for writing late.
love sjf i love you netzai always and forever
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sjf posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, November 11, 2017
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Hi Netzai, I want to say that i love and miss you very much. i hope your birthday in heaven is very special and that your at peace. i hope your heart is filled with love and laughter. i miss you very much and i think about you all the time. you are and will forever be the most amazing man i have ever met and my heart will always be yours and my heart will always have be a big space for you. i love you so much and that is for all time. i know god is taking care of you
and thank you
love sjf happy birthday netzai i will forever love you and will always be in love with you
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sjf posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, October 29, 2017
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hi netzai i miss and love you always. i think about you a lot. i am doing well and still moving forward on the path god tell me to go. i just know by feeling. i love you so much
love sjf i always love you netzai always and forever like our pinky promises lolol and thank you thank you
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sjf posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, September 30, 2017
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hi netzai i miss and love you so much. i hope things are fine in Heaven. i am doing fine and well. god knows right
love sjf i love you netzai my soul only know how much i do
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sjf posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, August 31, 2017
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Hi netzai, i love and miss you. i hope your doing okay in heaven. i am doing okay moving forward.i miss you
love sjf i love you netzai always from my soul
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sjf posted a symbolic gesture
Monday, July 31, 2017
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hi netzai, i want to tell you that i love and miss you so much. i hope your doing well and enjoying Heaven. earth down here is moving quickly but I'm still the same just learning more and growing. i just miss you so much
love sjf i will always love you with all my soul netzai no matter what
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sjf posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, June 30, 2017
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hi netzai, i love and miss you so much did not forget to write been busy but i did not forget. i am doing fine and well. write soon lol mailbox is waiting
love sjf i love you forever netzai
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sjf posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, May 6, 2017
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Hi netzai happy heaven date anniversary. i want to tell you i always love you and that i alway miss you so much. i know God is watching over you and taking care of you. my heart holds a big space for you no matter what. i will always love you in life time after life time. you will always have my heart and i will stay with you forever even in spirit.
A million years from now netzai i will still love you still no matter what. and only in love with you.
meant to be
sjf i love you netzai so much happy anniversary. i miss you soon much forever in love with you
And no matter what it will always be us together
thank you
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sjf posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, April 28, 2017
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hI netzai i love and miss you so much. i hope your doing well in Heaven . I have not forgot to write you and thanks you so much for the dream visit they are as beautiful as you are. its always great to see your beautiful face and yes i understand thanks you and thanks you to GOD
im working on things but i am doing well, well i still and will always love you no matter what
love sjf i always love you so much netzai my heart always will and forever more have a big space for you as it always did
i have my faith
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Sjf posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, March 18, 2017
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Hiiii netzai I love and miss you so much but time is indefinte right and so is my love for you I am doing fine I am moving forward god is helping me in ways that he helps everyone . god taught me that rebuilding is great and something better is developing into something so great than I he help me rebuild I'm moving forward and I made so much progress and I am proud of myself cause I had faith and trusted him and look netzai what is transping I love you netzai so much always and forever
Love sjf I am forever in love with you
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Sjf posted a symbolic gesture
Tuesday, February 14, 2017
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Hi netzai I love and miss you always. I want to wish you a happy valentines day with so much love from my heart and I want you to know that I will and do love you always please tell god and my uncle I wish them a beautiful valentine day as well and tell god thank you I send you netzai so much kisses and hugs. netzai I miss you but I know right I want you to know I'm moving forward and making progress god is leading my way so I just follow and their is progress in his step but im just fine time is an illusion lololoolol
Love Sjf I always love you
Netzai I found a song you could listen to in heaven its by elvis Presley I feel in my heart you remember this memory right lollololol
Elvis Presley
"Can't Help Falling In Love"
Wise men say
Only fools rush in
But I can't help falling in love with you
Shall I stay?
Would it be a sin
If I can't help falling in love with you?
Like a river flows
Surely to the sea
Darling, so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand,
Take my whole life, too
For I can't help falling in love with you
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Sjf posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, January 13, 2017
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Hi netzai i love and miss you so much sorry for not writing i been busy with stuff but i have not forgot to write you how are netzai i know your fine and that god is taking care of you netzai i am fine i doing well guess what i saw Jesus in my dreams netzai he came to visit me twice in my dreams they were so calm and beautiful the color were so amazing nothing compare to earth colors netzai he tell me he got me and its okay to take the risk and dont mind what others say. But im doing great and moving forward you will be proud of me and what i am going to accomplishe
Love sjf i love you netzai always and forever even in spirit
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, December 24, 2016
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Hi Netzai, I miss and love you always. i want to wish you a happy christmas and christmas eve and a beautiful New years. tell God happy birthday and that i love him and jesus . i hope netzai your New Years is filled with beautiful thoughts and loving memories and good laughs and that your spirit and soul be filled with joy and lots of love. tell my uncle i wish him a wonderful new years and christmas with lots of love as well. i am doing fine netzai i miss you more than a lot i do not think that is even the right word that fits. always know that i will stay with you forever even in flesh my heart stay with you in spirit. i will always love you always
love sharisse i love netzai Happy christmas with peace and many hug and kiss from my heart to yours
Only in love
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, December 11, 2016
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hi netzai, i love and miss you always. sorry for not writing i been working on things but i did not forget to write to you. school is almost over next week is the last week. i know i passed all my classes so that is a good thing with the help of God i am thankful cause he help me out a lot. i miss you and i always think about you everyday and that i love you netzai forever i will write soon but i know right i know you and God both believe me i know i know lololol
love sharisse i love you netzai ps mail me no letters yet
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, November 24, 2016
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Hi Netzai, I miss and love you always. i think about you everyday and even though i miss you i know your still around and that God is taking care of you. i want you know i will always love you in my heart and my soul through this life and even in death. oh by the way i was watching this movie and heard this poem and it remain me of my love for you netzai here you could read it in Heaven the movie is called Cora Unashamed watch it netzai
Joe's Poem for Cora
Many viewers have asked us for the text of this poem, and its variations, as heard in Cora Unashamed. All were written by Cora Unashamed screenwriter, Anne Peacock.
About 18 minutes into the film, we hear Joe's voice ...
I will see you in the cornfields. I will see you where the bluegrass grows.
I will hear you when I listen as the soft wind blows.
I will see you in the moonlight. I will see you in every star.
I will see you wherever I wander, no matter how far.
And I will keep looking. And I will keep listening.
And I will keep remembering long after the days have gone...
That our love, my dearest, will always live on.
Later, at Jessie's deathbed, Cora says:
When you love someone they're never far away, because they're always with you. That's because love has no time or space. It just continues on forever.
I will see you in the cornfields. I will see you where the green grass grows.
I will hear you when I listen, wherever the soft wind blows.
I will see you in the moonlight. I will see you in every star.
I will see you wherever I wander... no matter how far.
And I will keep listening and I will keep looking
And I will keep remembering, long after the days are gone.
For our love, my dearest, will always live on
i love you ever so deeply netzai
I am doing fine little pitt stop along the way but nothing i can't handle and i am happy for those stops God made me realize many things along the way that i myself with a little help from the good people God surrounded me with could change. God gives me sign netzai that i am on the right path and i know i am soul wise. i did a lot of thinking along the way and i realize he always with me even in dark times funny how God just works. spiritual i struggle a bit but one day netzai God and my higher self told me that i would never feel what i felt again they told i am healed and guess what netzai i do not feel the way i use too anymore it is like one day i woke up and felt healed different changed. in my eyes i believe God said i could not take those old emotional ways of thinking with me on the journey he sending me so he change me now lolololololollolollololololololool i could not complained i thank God for it cause i wanted those emotion gone from me and now they are so i can be in a clear state to finish what God called me to do and i will and God transform me in a way that i could not explain but i know he did it for a good reason and i am fine with that. when they say God heal you its different like there is no addiction to whatever you be attache too weather it be food or clothes shopping are left over emotion inside of you it just gone like gone that what happened to me and i feel stronger and i know he telling me i got you. i wish i could show you what i am working on and the other project God wants me to do which i am so excited about netzai theses are mind blowing i cant believe it sometime. i have to work on things one at a time and God he guilds me if i get stuck and i can hear it and things come naturally for me and that is something i tell him thank you for. your going to see netzai watch you always told me you just know right guess what i am going to show you it going to get done. he pushes me God even though i push myself to work on the project but there are times he tells me to rest cause i over think a lot of things. i trust God netzai and i trust myself and i trust my process i am going to change the world in some profound way for God i could feel it and i just know it but i have to finish this project first. GUESSES WHATTTT today is Thanksgiving lololol i want to wish you netzai and everyone in Heaven including God and Jesus and everyone in Heaven everyone earth wise a Happy thanksgiving and even to the ones who are down below in the flames area Happy Thanksgiving. i wish many blessing and love and to show love to other and i wish good health and peace and to be thankful for a heart and a soul.
love sharisse i love you netzai so much always have but i know you know that and i am thankful for God allowing me to meet you i could not do it without God most importantly are without his love and support i love you God and i love you netzai always and forever deeply.
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, November 11, 2016
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Hi Netzai, I wanted to tell you that I love and miss you always. Today is your Birthday and I want to wish you a very special birthday with love and I wish you so much love and comfort and healing. I hope in heaven they are throwing you a big party with lots of sparkles lolol and gold white fireworks. I am sure God is planning a big celebration for you. I know your going to enjoy the sight it must be so beautiful up in heaven. I know you will be surrounded with love and joy and your spirit be filled. I miss you I think about you everyday and I want you to know I will always love you and I have not left kept my promise no matter what. You are still handsome to me and you will always be my true love and I am glad I got to be and spend time with a beautiful soul like you and that I will never forget. too God I will always be thankful because you changed me netzai and helped me realized strength and courage I did not think I had in me you saw something more than I did not see. And for all those happy funny smiling enjoyable laughter we shared together those memories stay locked inside of my heart where a space for you remains I still love you so much and even in death I still do its like we never separated at all. I miss you but most of all I miss our conversations and corny jokes. I miss your hugs and kiss I miss you teaching me things and I miss you sucking your teeth I miss your questions and answers. I miss us holding hands.
Love Sharisse happy birthday netzai be surrounded with loving thoughts and happiness and nothing but good vibes and angelic wishes with singing I hope you they tell jokes in heaven so you can laugh until you stomach hurts. I love you Happy Birthday
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Tuesday, November 1, 2016
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hi netzai i love and miss you always. I wanted to tell you happy all souls day and st day. i miss you everyday. i wish you peace and so much love and joy in your spirit and your heart. we knew, said we always knew.
love sharisse always and forever in love with you and only in love. i love you netzai in this life and beyond you will alway be the love of my life. And no matter what it will always be us together.
Always
Meant to be
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Wednesday, October 19, 2016
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Hi netzai i love and miss you so much. sorry for not writing i been working on stuff well i guess you know that all to well. i just wanted you to know i am okay and that i will always love you from my heart and soul. God is gilding me and working on the stuff i know its going to make a difference I guarantee it. but i can't complain i enjoy it and its passion i love it and i am so consume by it can't help but say God called me to it and i am GLAD i listened. when other say its not going to work netzai they don't know what i know and i know it will i just know i put my faith and my faith is very strong and I'm being guided and i know what i must do i feel it in my soul and that feeling is something you can't describe because when God calls you for your purpose and they say you just know trust me netzai its true its true its the most exciting loving feeling you can feel word can't describe cause it joy there unlimited joy its a feeling of freedom and not being held down i feel free when work on this project i know you see it in heaven netzai trust I'm going to build an empire watch and see i promise our little secrete
i just know
when you are called to your purpose netzai it does not feel like a job and that is the truth cause i feel like its not it really don't wait and see
school is good school is good
love sharisse i love you netzai more and more i fall in love even if your in spirit form my heart still love you and will always love you
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, October 1, 2016
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Hi netzai i miss and love you always and forever. I am doing good and still writing i love you netzai thank you for the beautiful dream visit you always looks so handsome even in spirit i understand netzai thank you love you so much will write soon promise.
Love sharisse always in love and only in love with you. Netzai sooon im still working on it more years of joyful counting im loving it so much. I know your watching i just wish i could show you you would be so proud of me and say i always knew i remember. You always told me that i would always ask and you would. Say i just know
I love you netzai always have and always will even in spirit we are not seperated we always togther like before
Ment to be through. Life and death i will always love you and i still do we always have a bond that is unbreakable and a love that last for eternity you will always be my love
Im gettinh it done netzai i promisr i will get it done. Im working on it watch me netzai my name is going to be all over the world and written in the sky
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Monday, September 12, 2016
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Hi netzai i want to tell you that i love and miss you so much. I will always love you no matter what
Love sharisse i love you netzai always in love with you and only in love
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Monday, September 5, 2016
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Hi Netzai, i love and miss you always. I wanted to say sorry for not writing been at school and working on myself lately trying to figure things out. i miss you so much. How are you ? Heaven is treating you wonderfully huh lolol. i know i know beautiful view compare to down here you got the super cool front row seat going on up there lololol. i know your around netzai i know. soo let me tell you i applied for graduation and i am taking Spanish 2 class i just audit the Spanish class because i did not enroll but i asked my Spanish professor if i can still come to her class to learn Spanish she says yes so i attend. which i am happy to and grateful for. i been writing and trying to finish the book and i been doing a lot of thinking a lot of thinking and i realize how much things i have to let go starting with my family it pain me to say that in God time i will be leaving them but i learned that i have to love them from a distance they are unhealthy to be around including my mother and her step dude who i would never consider to be my father ever it such a shame that age or growth cannot shape a person way of thinking 44 year old she be and she still acts like a child not to mention her step dude acts the same both full of negative energy. i love them but in a different way a different way
you want to know how unstable she is emotion wise she was thinking of putting a lock on on the kitchen door netzai she didn't do it the fact that she even thought of it i have no words for my mom live in denial i like to think denial is people ways of locking their own thoughts such as a recipe in a safety box but i always wonder what her mother did to her and her mother before her and so on yet those might the reason why people are the way they are. my mom is just full of regret netzai when will she learn to let go and live and heal
44 years she be and 43 years he be and both act the same yet i am glad in every aspect of my flawed life i did not turn out like her that is what i am thankful for that I have good heart that God protected i realize more and more i am nothing like her or my sibling. i realize i am becoming something more different something i feel i was always meant to be or ready becoming but the best part about living is you learn to love people different ways and that you have option come on its gets better when you figure out how to deal with people and know that the situation is just illusion of a lesson that was meant to change our way of thinking now as for me i have flaws not huge one but the ones that i hold on to that hurt so my depression i had to talk to God and he showed me things that i realize is my reason of why thsese little things are miner he show me how to deal how small they were i never took the time to see that they never matter in the first place and for me to dwell on something of that makes no sense so i had to rearrange some things in my life little things that bother me i pay no mind too again it shouldn't matter your aspect is yourself and the things that are important not the unimportant God is love and love only netzai things are going to work out for me i know i can feel it so strongly and when they do i will be leaving this place and find peace in a place of solitude where people are not there and i can stay there by myself just in peace and joey will be coming along with donna even though she has her ways in a good way
but i seek alone time more than i do people time if that makes sense i can think when i am not around people
sorry if this is negative just needed to vent a bit but i feel so much better now
love sharisse i love you netzai and will always love you from my heart and soul things only get better but i do not mind the heard times they are shaping me into a strong women tell God thank you and i have not given up not yet. i feel like i am close to unlocking the greatest version of myself your going to see netzai i am going to be successful period
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, September 4, 2016
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Hi Netzai, i love and miss you always. I wanted to say sorry for not writing been at school and working on myself lately trying to figure things out. i miss you so much. How are you ? Heaven is treating you wonderfully huh lolol. i know i know beautiful view compare to down here you got the super cool front row seat going on up there lololol. i know your around netzai i know. soo let me tell you i applied for graduation and i am taking Spanish 2 class i just audit the Spanish class because i did not enroll but i asked my Spanish professor if i can still come to her class to learn Spanish she says yes so i attend. which i am happy to and grateful for. i been writing and trying to finish the book and i been doing a lot of thinking a lot of thinking and i realize how much things i have to let go starting with my family it pain me to say that in God time i will be leaving them but i learned that i have to love them from a distance they are unhealthy to be around including my mother and her step dude who i would never consider to be my father ever it such a shame that age or growth cannot shape a person way of thinking 44 year old she be and she still acts like a child not to mention her step dude acts the same both full of negative being i dislike to say why was i even born to her it hurts to say i have no parents i do not want to even think or feel the fact that i even did my emotion for them are fading i feel nothing for them is that bad don't get me wrong i love them but in a different way
you want to know how unstable she emotion wise she put a lock netzai a lock on the kitchen door because her kids messed up the kitchen or happened to break something and this step dude goes with it . 44 years she be and 43 years he be and both act the same both and yet i am glad in every aspect of my flawed life i did not turn out like her that is what i am thankful for that I have good heart that God protected i love the fact that i realize more and more i am nothing like her or my sibling. i realize i am becoming something more different something i feel i was always meant to be or ready becoming but the best part about living is you learn to love people different ways and that you have option come on its gets better when you figure out how to deal with people and know that the situation is just illusion of a lesson that was meant to change our way of thinking now as for me i have flaws not huge one but the ones that i hold on to that hurt so my depression i had to talk to God and he showed my things that i realize is my reason of why thsese little things are miner he show me how to deal how small they were i never took the time to see that they never matter in the first place and for me to dwell on something of that makes no sense so i had to rearrange some things in my life little things that bother me i pay no mind too again it shouldn't matter your aspect is yourself and the things that are important not the unimportant God is love and love only netzai things are going to work out for me i know i can feel it so strongly and when they do i will be leaving this place and find peace in a place of solitude where people are not there and i can stay there by myself just in peace and joey will be coming along with donna even though she has her ways in a good way
but i seek alone time more than i do people time if that makes sense i can think when i am not around people
sorry if this is negative just needed to vent a bit but i feel so much better now
love sharisse i love you netzai and will always love you from my heart and soul things only get better but i do not mind the heard times they are shaping me into a strong women tell God thank you and i have not given up not yet. i feel like i am close to locking the greatest version of myself
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, August 28, 2016
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Hi Netzai I miss and love you always and forever . i wanted to say thank you for being with me at school in spirit. so i am excited because I am taking Spanish 2 for free no netzai i did not pay for it my Spanish professor who is the awesome told me i could still come to her class to learn Spanish. and she teaches spanish 3 i am planning on taking that in the spring. i applied for graduation and everything is good still dealing with issues that are miner but i figured it out. i miss you and i miss everything our talk our conversation our future i wish you was here joey takes care of me and he understand its out of devine love and he is an angel he help me a lot but he always tell me he understand most men would have left by now . but i feel like God knew who he was giving me and i am grateful because joey still allows me to talk about you with out getting mad and i could tell it bothers him but he still talks to me and i am happy cause he did not leave me and he understand he always say netzai will always be apart of your life and he not going anyway i said he's not i told him you are staying exactly where you always stay as i told you when i met you netzai i said you fit in my heart and that i remember when i i took your hand and place it right by my heart netzai and that is where you always stay
but i know your in spirit around and i know God is taking care of you i know your well. yes i know.. everything is falling into place slowly and i know i will get to where i need to be but i need to fix something here least for my sake before i can move on God wants me to take care of myself and get rid of these issues. but everything is going to be okay right i know it will be
love sharisse i always love you netzai more and more everyday all the time i fall in love with you as if i first met you netzai i found a song that i love hear it it remind me of you and how we always be together even in death is just as equal to reknewal of life seek it and you will find that life is just a play ground of Devine learning how awesome is that i love you soooooooo much always here
tell God i am doing okay and that i am a fighter
"Meant To Be" - by TLC
This goes out to forever
Through the sunshine, or the rainiest weather
And no matter what, it'll always be us together
TLC
I said If I got nothing else
I got memories of what we felt
I sit up laughing to myself, sometimes, about it
Those silly reasons we would fight
But no matter who was wrong or right
We were always right there
Sharing this love, sharing this life
'Cause we knew, said we always know
And no matter what would occur
That we were, meant to be
And it ain't gonna be easy
No matter what, baby we're meant to be
And we ain't never not know that we were always meant to be
Meant to be
And though it'll get dark sometimes we know
Every now and then it's got to rain
But when that rain starts to pound all you gotta do is turn around
And you'll find me right there, holding you up, holding you down
'Cause we knew, said we always knew
That no matter what would occur
That we were, meant to be
And it ain't gonna be easy
No matter what, baby, we're meant to be
And we ain't never not know that we were always meant to be
Meant to be
From the moment we met,
Meant to be through the sorrow, through the stress
Meant to be through life and through death
Hey, we built a love that nothing can test
Meant to be
And it ain't gonna be easy (said it won't be easy no)
That no matter what, baby we're meant to be (meant to be yeah)
And we ain't never not know that we were always meant to be (we were al-)
Meant to be (meant to be yeah)
And it ain't gonna be easy (said it ain't gonna be easy)
That no matter what, baby we're meant to be (we were, we were)
And we ain't never not know that we were always meant to be
(always meant to be yeah)
Meant to be (yeah yeah yeah yeah)
Meant to be
And it ain't gonna be easy (said it ain't gonna be easy)
That no matter what, baby we're meant to be (oh we were, we were)
And we ain't never not know that we were always meant to be (always)
Meant to be
Always meant to be
Yeah, ha ha - TLC
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, August 21, 2016
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Hi Netzai I love and miss you always please forgive me for not writing. school is starting again in 5 more days or 4 i need to look at the calendar. please be with me on my first day. so i have something to tell you i had a dream i believe in my heart it was a demonic dream. satan tried to get me to sign a contract to buy my soul okay okay you know I'm not crazy and i do not care what people say when they say the devil himself do not exit because he does. i seen hell and demons God showed me them i know for sure they are real i know how they look i do not care what people think. okay so i am going to be honest i fell into depression not a full one but it coms and goes i can manage it but there are times if i do not pray or talk to God that it comes. i know you know and i need not say more on that situation but it was not so good one night i forgot to pray and i fell asleep i had a dream where i was outside and there is a red carpet on the floor spread out and i see like you know the poles on both side of the you know the pole that block people from coming in or to keep people in a line i saw them their was two poles on both side on me and a red carpet and I'm looking at the carpet and i happened to look up and see a door a door netzai a door in the middle of the street like appearing out of thin air like no structure are supporting this door its standing their on its own but let me tell you what was odd about this door it had a dark aura glowing on the outside of it and the door itself looked old broken down not a good door and i am looking at this door mind you i am not on the red carpet i am just looking at it my feet for some reason netzai could not go on the carpet like something was preventing me from stepping on to the carpet. okay so i am looking at this door and i heard clearly a voice saying he going to get you a demonic voice sounded like a women and i am still hearing the voice but i am still staring at this door and i remember before i woke up the demonic voice saying don't forget to sign. and i woke up. it was the devil netzai he wanted me to go step on the red carpet and sign a contract through the door. but like i was saying something was preventing me from stepping on the carpet and going near the door. i felt like God was showing me a warning sign about the depression thing again hints right
i had to tell you and i apologize to God for easy way out thinking i think you know what i mean i am deeply sorry for that cause i know he wouldn't want that most of all
i do not want to say but i will its Donna now do not get me wrong i love Donna she is a good person very supportive and have good intention but their are times i feel like she could be a bit negative and we all goes through those times in life but when it comes to self believe are knowing something will happened without knowing donna is bad at this one like she thinks nothing good could come to people if they just believe but she says maybe i should get people to read my book and see if they would buy it i told her no no no no i know in my heart know this book will be big why would God tell me to write it or help me i know and she like my book but i feel like she thinks i am having to much self belief or faith and donna is not big on self belief . please do not take this the wrong way netzai but i think for now i will just do my book on my own and read it to joey i feel like people do not understand and again a disconnect with the world and my family i feel like i have no support like i am by myself doing this my family is doing their own things and do not seem interested in the things i like to do only on what is going on with their lives. that i can not seem to relate either i feel like a resident with my family and that i never really belong to them i felt like that since i was little and i see feel like that now . i feel like God gave me the book to work on because he knew it would take me somewhere i know soul wise it will but i know that everything will be okay. i just can't wait to leave when everything fall into place and i know it will but i just can't wait to leave and go somewhere far. the only one i feel that supports me God joey and you netzai donna is maybe i love donna but when it comes to believing wise she not there i just have a lot of self belief i just know things will happens i can feel it even if there is not explanation or f when or where something will happen but they do and i know in my heart without a doubt its going to happen for me i just know even joey knows
love sharisse i love you netzai so much and will always love you forever sometimes i do wish you was here so i could talk to you you will always make me feel better with a hug and a word of encouragement sometimes i think i have gone crazy tell God i love him and jesus and tell him i will finish my promise
because the ones who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do.”
Steve Jobs i remember this -
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Tuesday, August 2, 2016
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HI Netzai i wanted to say that i love and miss you so much. I have not forgot to write please forgive me balancing well in the mist of it all but i think about you everyday well all the time. i know your good and God is taking care of you must be beautiful to look at thanks for everything
ps please write soon mail is slow here lolol
love sharisse always love you netzai from the depth of my soul
oh and by the way lol i thought of a joke to tell you so like why did the chicken cross the road well it wasn't to find the other side i thought more of he didn't want to get fried get it popeyes chicken lololololololool i know corny say no more lolo this is a joke netzai gosh
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, July 17, 2016
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hola netzai, te amo y extraño todos los días. se estoy bien y dios es Cuidame a tu. estoy bien netzai algùn dìa son bien otros difícil por yo no de un mal. Yo veo mejor amiga Donna ella visitar yo. nosotros pasan mucho. ella es bien netzai Donna es un bien amiga. how is my spanish good still working on it i been slacking a bit to be honest there are words i have forgotten. Donna is my only good friend there are days i see her and she surprises me she is very strong and have a good heart i am glad i have met her she makes me laugh one day i am going to give her something more like she gave me. she encourages me to do my best i always be thankful God gave me one good friend besides joey and you netzai and i like the sound of one
i wonder what its like up there in heaven but i know it is beautiful the same way i have always saw you i miss you netzai and even though i see you in dream i still miss you very much there are times my depression come in and i just feel alone donna is my only real friend that i have i don't mined and i do not find it to be a bad thing joey tell me not everyone coming along with you in your future most people i encounter i feel a disconnect there like they just don't fit maybe my soul sense more . you know what i let donna read my book i was working on i ask her for her honest opinion even if it hurts i wanted the truth of what she though. i was nervous but you know what she said i have something like i should not stop writing she told me that i should keep on writing and finish what i had started she said that she was very impressed she wanted to know how i wrote all that i told her God told me to write and i write what i hear or see she kind of laugh a bit cause i told her that when i finish the book when i published it its going to be huge she laughed but i was serious she wanted to know why i did not enter it in the book writing competition i told her about i told her something told me not to and i did just that i know it was going to be huge and i always knew writing make me happy so i give it my all even if i do have to go into a dark place at times. i realized that i am happy being in solitude and that i do not enjoy being around people not to say i do not like people i do but i like my alone time more i guess because i can block out the chatter of the world and get to know me more. inside netzai between you and me i am scared to be successful there are times i don't write and i get distracted i guess i fear not succeeding but there is this part of me soul wise Devine wise that do not feel that its like there is a knowing like i know i will be but am i prepared i feel like God is trying to prepare me but i just am not there yet i hope i make him proud when i am done you want to know a secrete if i become successful i want to be by myself i want to be alone i what to build a house far away and just go there and spend time by myself cause that what i like most of all. i hope that is not bad but i am going to visit you too netzai i promise i will be back and forth even when things change for the future i still am coming to see you and have a house not near you but somewhere in the city we will see how things work out in God time we will see
love sharisse i love you netzai forever in love with you and only in love tell God i said hi and i love him and jesus sorry for late writing been thinking a lot
ps please write back soon mailbox is still empty i think heaven mail is equivalent to air mail lolololol like our mail maybe across the seas
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Monday, July 4, 2016
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hola Netzai, te extrano y amo para siempre. Pienso en ti todos los días. Discúlpeme no no escribir Happy Fourth of July Netzai . i miss you so much i promise to write soon sorry for the lateness been busy but i did not forget. tell God and Jesus and my uncle and everyone in Heaven Happy fourth of july with love
love sharisse i love you netzai will write soon just wanted to tell you i am okay and that i miss you and love you always
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, June 19, 2016
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hola Netzai, te extrano y amo para siempre. Pienso en ti todos los días. Discúlpeme no no escribir. Sabes yo te amo siempre. y contar dios yo dije y Jesus Happy Fathers Day in Heaven including everyone on earth and in spirit may you all be loved and only loved tell my uncle i said happy fathers day as well tell everyone i said i love them very much
love sharisse i love netzai everyday more more in love with you everyday big kiss and hug
ps write sometime no mail must be slow delivery here on earth and i am good netzai writing tell God i will finished what i promise him
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, June 9, 2016
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hola Netzai, te extrano y amo para siempre siempre. Pienso en ti todos los días y estoy bueno netzai Dios es tomando Cuidar de mi.
i found a song for you to listen to in heaven i hope you like it its by Prince it reminds me of you i know i will see you again
Two sevens together like time, indefinite
Trying to catch the glass before it falls
Without a frown can you turn up the stereo?
I wanna play you this old song about love
Can eye do that?
Did we remember to water the plants today?
Eye forgot to look up at the moon because
Eye was too busy, said eye was too busy
Eye was too busy Looking at you, babe
Still it's nice to know that uh, when bodies wear out
We can get another
What does that one thing have to do with the other one?
Eye don't know
Eye was just thinking about my mother
You know what?
Turn the stereo back down
Ain't nothing worse than an old worn out love song
Tell me do you like my hair this way?
Remember all the way back in the day
When we would compare whose afro was the roundest
Mirrored tiles above the bed
Fishing nets and posters all over the walls, oh yeah
Sometimes eye just wanna go sit out on the stool
And uh, play my guitar
Just watch all the, all the cars go by
love sharisse i love you netzai forever
big heart ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Monday, May 30, 2016
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HIIIIIIIII netzai guesssssssssssss whatttttttttttt i passssssssssssssssssssssed my math exam ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my professor text me and told my i passed netzai i was so scared i thought i did not passed but i did ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh so excited i am so happy
in my heart i believed God blessed me with Mr fullerton he is am amazing math professor. with other math professors i failed but when God gave me that feeling to pick Mr Fullerton netzai i did for some reason before i found out i passed i knew in the back of my mind with him i was going too. Mr fullerton gave me a free math text book at the beginning of the school year netzai i did not have to buy one the math text book is hundred and something. it was odd he looked at me and ask sharisse do you have a math text book and i looked at him and said no but you know right before class had started i prayed to God and ask him for help in math i struggled and then Mr fullerton ask me in the middle of the class if i had one i thought that was odd the next day Mr fullerton came to class he gave me a free math text book i was shocked cause i did not understand he gave only me a free text book i am sure he probably did not know why he was giving me this math book or maybe he did just by the look on his face but I know in my heart God probably told him too. i was very thankful and appreciated it so much i would never forget him a part of me and i feel that he though i was odd in some way i could just tell that what he thought.
lov sharisse i love you netzai and thanks you so much tell God i love him and thanks as well
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, May 29, 2016
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hola Netzai, te externo y amor mucho. discúlpame para no no escribiendo. estado ocupado toda la semana". la escuela mucho mucho examen y estudiar. estoy te externo todos los dias, pero se me olvido. quiero a contar tu yo soy nervioso para mi notas. how is my spanish netzai bueno i practice talking in spanish to the bus driver but no full jist yet
i am still learning i am not as good but i am getting there i pretty much understand spainsh or what people talk about because i am filmilar with most of the words. i can write in spanish which is pretty cool but still learning. i am scared netzai i guess I'm mostly scared about math i get my grade tomorrow apart of me says i passed but i guess the other half says no i study real hard i guess I'm doubting myself. i shouldn't be hold my hand will you when i get my results I'm scared but i know your always there school is over i would like to take my last summer class before i apply for graduation. Elevley drop spanish class but she probably had thing to work on. i tried to help amogie with spanish even though we do not like each other but I'm over well been over it. i still have spiritual dreams i been medtating spending more time with myself by my self cause i need that most of all. i am trying to find where i fit cause i feel like i don't fit or that people just don't get me maybe I'm weird or could there be something wrong with me why am i not like others. i have not been working on writing the book i felt a little lost not in the book but myself. i just trying to figure me out so i so spend lots of time alone cause i feel like some part of me is changing for good i know for good maybe God wants me to stick to my life path which is writing and helping other cause its a healing there in my heart that i can feel. maybe one day right how does one stop living life when life never stop living right. maybe i need to be lost so i can find back my center
love sharisse i love you netzai forever you will always fit in my heart there is a big space for you there since the time God has created us both. my spirit loves you forever i always have
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, May 6, 2016
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Hi netzai, i miss and love you always and forever. Happy anniversary. i miss you so much and i think about you all the time. i know in my heart as well as my soul that your alive and well in spirit. I have so many memories of us being together seem like yesterday huh. i guess i wanted to say thank you very much for everything and even though i cannoy list everything. i know in my heart you know what they are. we are still connected huh. i miss you i don't know how many times in a day are months or years i can say but i do everyday. i am just thankful that God had let me meet you and spend time with you. i miss everything our conversation i miss you hugging me i miss you laughing at my corny jokes i miss you saying i was not weird i miss you talking to me about the future and miss your kisses and i miss you sucking your teeth when you got mad i use to tell you netzai if you keep sucking your teeth they are going to fall out and then i am going to help you glue them back in lololololololool and i miss your facial expression i miss seeing you smile and i miss your hands i miss seeing your hands because i remember they would hold mines i miss you saying I'm not embrassed to be with you. i miss you waiting for me. i miss you being on your phone and i miss you waiting outside because somehow you knew i was coming lolololololol well i could say we both knew didn't we.i remember when you would hold my hand when we had to cross the street. or the embarrassing talk we use to have which was not even embarrassing because we felt so comfortable to talk about. i miss everything i have so many memories and all of them i keep close to my heart and care for it with love and passion because i still love you i always will i said i am staying and you said your staying and even though we are apart we not really i know i will see you again and i know your in Heaven and God taking care of you i miss you saying the amo to me i miss it all and hugging me i always knew inside netzai you was never good showing emotion but you showed when you could and you did and for me you did i will always remember that i love you so much and you will always be the love of my life and i know you love me and i was yours i love you so much i miss you your corny jokes and sense of humor i miss your intelligence and your smart words and i miss your encouragement and your charm and your surprise look you would give me i miss you and i miss you helping me on math and i miss you teaching me something everyday. i miss you giving me little drawing of pictures and saying this reminds me of you. i miss our notes i miss drawing for you hopefully you still have the first drawing i did for you hanging in your room somewhere with your name in graffiti netzai i member i though you throw it away and you told me no sharisse i did not i hanged it in my room hopefully its still there i was scared to give you that drawing but you took it and hopefully you have a copy of it in Heaven i know you do.
you netzai are amazing and still is and you are beautiful to me and had the most beautifulest smile i ever saw and i miss your nose and your eyes and i miss your stares and i miss your crazy so fun and outgoing conversation and i miss you being quiet and just starring
love sharisse Happy anniversary my love I'm always here i love you for all eternity i remember when i used to sing this to you. I wish you peace and nothing but love and kisses and hugs and most importantly i wish you happiness with all the love my heart can give to you you will always be my best friend friend my heart
Lovelier Than You Lyrics by BOB - listen to this in Heaven
maybe one day we can go
hand in hand down a golden road
and if i get there before you go ill be waiting at the door
in the future hopefully
well be together you and me
dont you worry baby please 'cause honestly
[chorus]
if i could rewind
Both the hands of time
still i would never find
a lovelier design
than you
nothings lovelier than you x4
maybe one day girl i pray
we could float off to space
hold my hand ill lead the way
i wont let go or fall a stray
aint no ifs buts and maybes
your my baby my lady
dont you worry baby please 'cause honestly
[chorus]
if i could rewind
Both the hands of time
still i would never find
a lovelier design
than you
im dangerously, dangerously, dangerously in love
i love her more than i love myself and still that aint enough
if this is a dream i dont want to wake up
we go together like the tub and the shower head above
not even thousands and thousands of miles
could amount to my love id have countless sky miles
climb up a mountain and climb right back down
run across the world and jog back round
noun and a verb is just a sound
and a word is not profound enough to show my urge for her smile
I'd shout on a curb with a loud speaker
til the entire town heard how i felt and im out
nothings lovelier than you x3
maybe one day we can go
hand in hand down a golden road
and if i get there before you go ill be waiting at the door
in the future hopefully
well be together you and me
dont you worry baby please 'cause honestly
[chorus]
if i could rewind
Both the hands of time
still i would never find
a lovelier design
than you
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Wednesday, April 27, 2016
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Hola netzai, te amo y te extrano mucho. yo voy a escribir pronto
love sharisse i love you netzai forever. i wish you was here teaching me
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, April 15, 2016
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Hola Netzai, yo quiero a decir te externo y amor mucho. pensando en ti todos el día. pero yo amor todos el día mas estoy disculpeme para escribe llegas tarde. pero escribo Ahorita. mucho tiene que paso estemos mudarse de nuevo casa. me gusta comodo y contento para mi familia y yo. yo vivo por Saw Mill. mucho de casa y Silencio. La escuela es bien pero dificil. aprender español es difícil para mi. empezar con conjugaciones y their ending including stem changing en español dificil. yo fallé cinco examen en español. no no estoy era desalentar yo se la próxima voy a hacer mejor.
excuse the mistake netzai if made any in Spanish i know some of the words are missing the accent on them but i know you know what they mean yes i did fail 5 test in Spanish it was not until i started studying more that i began to pass i passed my Spanish midterm and the small exam it was diffculit but I manage. God is good isn't he netzai he there all the time tell him I said thank you and that i love him and jesus. just a minor thing amogie she does not like me i know it i can feel her without her saying it. she is negative and so is elealyn i can't be around them they might as well go hand in hand together i have to change my seat in Spanish class my feeling for them never changed because what i felt was right about them they are not real friends of mines i don't think i need to say anymore. i saw Vanessa on the train i said hi and she talk to me . i felt nothing is that bad to say she and i just don't fit together anymore and i am happy to go my way by myself no hand feeling cause i will make it i know i will i know i don't doubt and beside im growing up into a totally different women and i know what i don't want in my life and i don't want them i love myself enough to know when to say hey its over and i am fine i am fine i am doing just fine i am just fine i am doing just fine and i can breath netzai i can breath i am free i wake up everyday i know deep down inside that one day i am going to be in a have already been the whole time and i am going to successful i know i just know that i just have to finish working on minor things on my self im growing everyday but i did not give up some parts of me are broken and im still healing but i am better and i am getting better each day and i am learning to breathe and let go and just live and enjoy my simple mistake and not be so hard on myself because i am but i did not give up and that is something i proud of i love simple things like walking ahhhhhhh look netzai i got Frida Kahlo book both of them i am reading about her her painting are so beautiful and yet painful she is imaginative and yet you see her heart in every piece everything in her painting represented her or a piece of her broken fragile yet soft as a child and sarcastic like a sparky cactus you know what painting i like of hers the one where is in the bed and there is a picture of a baby and the body parts and all attach to her insides the other painting is the one with the African american women beautiful feeding life or absorbing everything the women had said to her maybe it help her as if she had been nuatured fruits of life is what i like to call that painting and i love the dream God know how much i felt like that or even came close. i am still reading about her i have not seen all her painting but one day i will
i am doing well in math and art i love drawing i love my art history class we learned a lot about the Egypt ,Greece, Rome, Mesopotamia, Neolithic, paleolithic ages very interesting facts and information about how they painted and what each painted and what each painting meant how they could predict cycle of animals when they were going to eat and how they used caves as ritual for magic and that they used them for telling stories and cave painting looked like animation because of how the cave people draw many feet or hands on the animals which gave them movement and i learned that they use to make small statue that hunter would take with them to they move around a lot but the little statue meant something like there was statue with big bodies and no eyes no hands more craved usually these statue was painted there was a statue i learned about it was called the lady of willendof she is the statue i was referring to had no hands and no eyes very curvy but the fun fact to know is that she represented a statue of health and fertility and she represent all women the ideal women how they should look more fuller curvy but she had no eyes no hands just a small statue of a women without feature she was always used in ritual same as Egyptian did you know they stuck to the same routine for many years except when the period of akhenaton he was the ruler of Egypt he was the one who change there style to monotheistic and he also change the way the Egyptian draw themselves akhenaton drawing was more feminine he had craves netzai and almond shape eyes and bigger lips because he co rule with his wife Nefertiti basically he was saying me and my wife are one hints for the drawing did you know netzai that Egyptian kings was all about youth and death like that really how they lived and they wanted to look younger and that way when you see the pharaoh in paintings they look bigger then there subject which meant power and they had people come in and draw what they enjoy in life hints why the pharaohs panting had many objects so they can carried those object in the afterlife by the way did you know Egyptian was hooked on youth that why they look young in the statue also the statue meant seeing into the afterlife did you know netzai that the Egyptian draw there body very box like and stiff they draw that way because they wanted people to know that is a body lololol how simple is that here are the arms and here is the leg simple i learned so much about history and greece and how they used counter postal for the body and humanism and how they were trading with Egypt you know what is my favorite about greece is the hellenistic age so dark and yet beautiful its full of life they are statue in high relief and yet so dramatic just by the sturcture and you can see that the statue tells a story of Gods and Goddress in battle intricate yet detailed also they is the classical age of greece and high classical check out the cannon and kouros look at how much they changed it was amazing to see and learn about this in art history class its so mysterious how much civilization just from the borrowing of cultures
i moved to a new house by the saw mill with my family its nice and quiet have a lot of houses and its a beautiful neighborhood
love sharisse i love you netzai more and more everyday you will always be my heart and my love and i know your around sorry for writing late but i did not forget
by the way how is my Spanish im still learning but i will become fluent i am sure of that
i love you so much only in love and forever in love with you
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, April 3, 2016
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Hola netzai amor y te extrano mucho
Yo promesa a escribir tu saques yo
Promesa
Love sharisse te am mucho para siempre
Pero la escuela es excelente
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, March 18, 2016
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Hola Netzai, te, extrano y te amo mi amor mucho . Yo siempre te amare Netzai. te lo prometo mi escribo tu later.
Me querido a decir te amo mi amor y me no no lo no se olvidó a escribir
love sharisse
oh and by the way i know that certain words i uses have accents over the top of them please forgive i know if you do not use the accents they mean something else please forgive me i don't have the accents on my laptop
pero me amor forforever y ever
hey i like this song listen to it in Heaven i love you so much its by Roy Orbison
Every time I look into your lovely eyes,
I see a love that money just can't buy.
One look from you, I drift away.
I pray that you are here to stay.
Anything you want, you got it.
Anything you need, you got it.
Anything at all, you got it.
Baby!
Every time I hold you I begin to understand,
Everything about you tells me I'm your man.
I live my life to be with you.
No one can do the things you do.
Anything you want, you got it.
Anything you need, you got it.
Anything at all, you got it.
Baby!
Anything you want
Anything you need
Anything at all
I'm glad to give my love to you.
I know you feel the way I do.
Anything you want, you got it.
Anything you need, you got it.
Anything at all, you got it.
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, March 5, 2016
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Hola Netzai, te, extraÑo y te amo mi amor mucho mucho mucho mucho . Yo siempre te amarÈ Netzai. me práctica español contigo.
excuse me if i mess up i am still learning netzai and excuse the cap lock on the end of the word i tried to put the accent over the word
love sharisse mi amor para siempre
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Wednesday, February 24, 2016
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Hiiiiii Netzai i love and miss you so much. I did not forget to write to you school busy but I did not forget to write. I wanted to say thank you to God for allowing me to see you again in a dream visit you always look so beautiful and you always glow when i saw you I saw your beautiful eye as you were sitting at the table and you smiled at me and gave me a hug i saw your white shirt turn black when you gave me a hug and said i miss you and i replied i miss you too. i must of sense you were there cause i stated smiling in the dream visit and when i saw you it was you i know you are fine and i know your in Heaven and you come back and fourth thank you again for telling me. my spiritual side is becoming stronger i had a premonition that came true but i know on that day you were near me i had absorb so much negativity from people i guess it was pilling cause i did not know what to do with it i do take responsibility for my own actions and I did forgive myself and talk to God about it when i saw you netzai in the dream visit when you hug me your shirt had turn black and then when we stop hugging it turn back to white i told joey my dream about you he said to me the reason why your shirt netzai had turn black was because netzai had healing you and joey said i probably had negative angry inside of me and netzai healed you which i believe because when woke up in the morning from the dream visit i was energized and happy and in peace i thank you so much netzai for watching over me and everyone else i miss and love you so much. i told joey i gave you a big kiss in the dream lololololol i was so happy too see you so much i missed you. i know in my heart you will always be the one i loved eternity and we are in this together like we were before i made a promise to you and i will keep it forever and ever. but thank you so much for everything and tell God thank you as well he working behind the scene i will always be in love and only in love. school is going great i will pass this time and i can feel it math class is going great as well i have a professor name Mr Fuller he is wonderful he is funny but he looks mean but he is really nice i come to school early and he helps me with my math he a good teacher he wants everyone to pass i understand math better then before i guess the other professor do not know how to teach well the ones i had before as for Spanish class i love it i do my homework and its online homework my professor name is Ms Pulles she is funny professor but she is strict she wants you to learn as well and study we are learning verbs so like el, los, las and la, and una, un, unos,unas, vs masculine and feminine nouns and we learn greetings and time in Spanish i had to buy a book called Spanish 101 introductory Spanish by Maria Amores its an accent over her name Maria the i has it we also know the usted form an the Tu and changing the ending of the words to letter o or es to fit the subject the subject the nouns and verb its fun class but i pay attention a lot to remember but i am fine and take it one day at a time but i do make sure i study i met a girl name Amogee she is okay but i do not like being around her i am a spiritual women and i sense things on people i told joey the first time i met her there is something odd about her but i ignored it turn out she is negative and she is a energy vampire when i am with her i feel drained and she is in my Spanish class i am not saying she is a bad person i just can't be around her so i separate my self
i do not fine being by myself a bad thing i enjoy it i completely trust God and he is guilding and directing me on to the path i am suppose to be on i look back at all the people i met and were not friends with i notice why God had separated me form them so I would not be affected with what is going on in there life i feel like a different person like something is going inside of me something like hungry for greatness like i know in my soul i will be the greatest its growing netzai i can feel it i am going to be great and one day the world will know my name that i DONT DOUBT God is building that inside me so i am not lonely he walks beside of me my lonely times in the best times cause thats when i can hear spiritual more and not be affected by others one day you will see i will get there cause i am already there i will best the biggest author in the world i know
love sharisse i love you netzai from my heart and i will be with you forever and tell God i said thanks for everything and tell him i am sorry but I understand now on my way up
i know what all that time was for but i am still learning and growing
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, February 14, 2016
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HIIIIIIII Netzai I wanted to tell you that I love and miss you so much. I wanted to say HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY Valentine's Day to you and your family and my Uncle and everyone in Heaven including all the angels and God and Jesus and everyone on earth and in spirit even the ones down below. I hope you all have an unforgettable and lovable and huggable and smile and laughter and peace and healing Valentine's Day and I hope all is well and all is loved
love sharisse I love you Netzai I always have and always will foreverrrrrrrrrrrrrr lololololol write to me soon my mailbox is empty I'm sure yours in Heaven is full please tell the post office many more is on the way lololuolololololololol IIIIII love you soooooooo much Happy Valentines' Day
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Wednesday, February 3, 2016
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HiIIIIII Netzai I wanted to say that I miss you and love you very much. I know you are doing fine and enjoying Heaven. It must be a beautiful to look at everyday well all the time. I wanted to say thank you for being with me on the first day of school. i know you was there. i sense your presence sorry if I was a little well not even a good amount distracted there was too much thing going on to grasp but I believe I handle it well. I have Art History class at first I did not understand why I was taking it but I felt like God wanted me to learn something about the history behind Art i love the class is that too soon to say but I do even though I love Art i found out more about the type of art i like to express I should be be a little more expressive maybe I hold back cause Im not sure but somehow this class make me want to express more then I do without worrying if i am not i guess you can say it help me fit more and more into my weirdness there is a profound peace there that I need to seek out for some reason God had wanted to there so i kept the class even though I had wanted to drop it i have to learn something when i find out what it is i will tell you about it Netzai. I have Spanish class it is soo fun and you learn a lot in one day i have a test on Thursday so I am studying for it as i write to you I know I will pass we have to learn how to speck and write so i am making sure i write every word in Spanish correctly and applying where all the accents go but I remember it well still studying i miss you but I will learn Spanish i will i wish we spent time going over Spanish like you did with me Netzai I remember you would take your time to teach me Spanish and I remember when you spoke in Spanish to someone else you always made sure you would translated in english to me so i would know what you were saying i miss that a lot i miss you but I still love you still do so i will make sure that I study hard and learned the language. Joey got his nursing job he is a Charge Nurse will training to become one. he on three months probation for the job and he is also training so he really happy but stressed he wants to do good and not mess up. I told him to just take his time and make sure he recheck things and make he follow instruction and if he do not understand d to asks. I know he would be fine he will be fine one of his Professor said to joey she is not happy for him because he got a big job considering the fact he just graduated from nursing program usually it takes a while for someone to get that type of position but joey works hard and he like what he does I do not like the fact that she said that she should keep her own negativity to herself and stop having thorns up her behind and be happy for him. rolling my eyes on this one everyone has there own perspective what can you do about it just when you think just think you heard the last of it all wait more come in By the way Donald Trump he need to be escorted out of the united States like by Helicopter I do not believe one moment this ignorant, selfish unreliant probably for his self reliant 100 upon 100 thorns up his behind and and in the mouth is really trying it the answer hell no that is the answer that is the only answer hell no no i do not know how much no are in the word no but the answer will remain hell nooooooooooooooooo no no no no no no no i can keep writing no because that is the only answer for the ding bat no he will not become president no you know what i heard lololololo, a good amount of people said not all but if the ding bat becomes president they are moving out of the country lololololoolololo how funny is that lolololololol but i do not think he would become I am hoping for Hilary or Bernie a race to the white house to make americans suffer for the sake of voting and greed
love sharisseI love you Netzai very much more like Trillions forever sorry for the ending part just my thoughts I miss you I will come and visit you next week Friday since I am off school on Fridays or Thursdays I will see i love you soon much please tell God I said that you for everything for everything and that I love him and Jesus every much
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, January 29, 2016
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Hi Netzai, I miss you and love you always and still do
love sharisse I always love you forever and ever for all eternity
ps school start Monday I am really excited I have Spanish class and art class as well I added in extra classes just for me to learn something more
i love you so much and i miss you
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, January 21, 2016
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Hi Netzai, I wanted to to let you know that I love and miss you so much. I still am and will always be in love with you. I always loved you and still do. I am happy that I got to tell you that every time I always made sure I told you that and gave you a big hug and kiss. I miss you but I know your here i KNOW.
love sharisse I love you more and more each day i start school soon lolol be there with me first day huh please write no mail from you yet lololololol tell God I said hi and that I love him and Jesus very much
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Monday, January 11, 2016
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Hi Netzai, I wanted to say that I miss you and that I love you so much. I am sorry for not writing earlier I did not forget too write you. I wanted to say thank you for the dream visit and the coins I am sorry if I did not say it before. I know that you know that I am thankful for them. How are you netzai? I know your good and I know Heaven is treating you beyond amazing it must be really beautiful are there. I have not seen Donna she been busy with work but I still talk to her. I have to catch up with her and Cindy is okay she been sick for a few days now I emailed her to see if she okay and gave her a few home health remedy to get her to feel better. She has a cold and her body is stuffy. I told her to relax and have a warm bath maybe a nice movie would do. Get what she is Asian and Hawaiian she ask me what I was but I did not tell her yet. I am mixed but I would tell her I am black instead it makes thing a lot easier then to say I am mixed with chineses and West Indian and black and a bit Hispanic and exc.. To much to say and I don't want to say so black is more of what I perfer well that what I tell people anyway but they say I have something else in me I do but I can't hide the fact that my eyes are slanted. But I hoped she get bettered. She tell me storeies but I will tell you next time. I been doing good netzai school is starting back on the 29 i have to take this math class in order to graduate cause I failed it but I am not discourage one bit I know I will pass this time I can feel it. I talk to God everyday all the time he give me so many dreams and I seen angel In my dream they come and give me messages but sometime they say unforeseen spirit god you can't see but he there I believe he there I have faith I just feel more at peace I do go through negative time but I do not let that bother me for some reason I feel more relaxed then worried I believe my faith in God eases me. I still write the book is taking me a while to finish I believe I will be done is 4 years I know a long time but I put my heart In it my love my everything my faith God talks to me and I feel him pushing me to finish even if it took that long it would be worth it and I don't mind I am relaxed so I enjoy the experience of it all. I know I would be finished I know I just know. My mom I don't think we are moving I kept on praying to God that we did not my mom put a offer down and the accepted it on the house the first one but the owner did not want to fixes. The problem that the house had and my mom did not want to buy and the second house is across Yonkers but I don't want to move there it far so far I heard nothing I pray and pray we don't move and she finds a house close to Yonkers I pray all the time and I. Have faith I brought a new cross chain I am excited waiting for it to come I have a black one just like the one you had In high school netzai I wear it all the time. I still remember how you would let me wear the black cross one around my neck are the time you passed a note to me in class saying the words did you miss me ? Or you holding my hand in class while you wrote notes with the other I miss memories so much but I love that I got to experience that with you. Okay oaky shhhhhh let me tell you something I went over Joey house for Christmas Eve I know his family still don't like me but it don't bother me because I don't let it i guess I I just don't care I am relax I am good I just don't have time for the negativity of his family so when I see them I am not bother by them nor do I get mad I am actually happy to know they don't like me becuse a least I knew I am a good person and they will not get to experience that part of me and I am glad to that I am still respectful though Joey mom and dad went to church you know I had to sit next to Joey dad and between us was a big gap I mean big gap I did not care I do not consider Joey family my family at all not even a. Bit the brother tried to act nice to me but I don't trust him at all he dark his heart no good he think about money he talks bad about me they have a negative aura around them I don't trust his family but again I am repectful To them but but to tell you the funny part Joey has a toilet that has a spray inside of it like it spray water I don't know what they are called but I was inside the bathroom and I wanted to see how it worked so I turned the knob and bam sprayed right in my face and I started laughing and laugh cause I found it funny. I was on the hover broad and my first I did not fall but Joey and his family fell right on there butts but I did not fall my first time but I will tell you this when I was on the broad I got distracted almost crashed into the table with Jesus I jump back off the broad and fell to the floor shhhhhh don't tell nobody Lololol that was the inky time I fell but I am good I spend Christmas with my family and Joey mom invited me to go meet the other family I said no I don't want to spend no time with this family the mom brought a condo two to name and ask Joey to invest in it Joey said no they wondering why he not the mom is going to give it to the brother instead I don't care Joey got his nursing license in the mail so he going to start working soon to be honest the mom ask him if he want her to hold his money they think that when Joey get his job that he going to pay for my school are you kidding me like seriously my school is paid off already I graduate as soon as I pass math i don't need his help paying anything his dad had the nerve to call me spoiled I am nowhere near that they want to be in the business no it's our business what ? And the mom want to know what he doing with the money me and Joey is saving to buy a house and no his mom don't know and no she wont know cause Joey is not telling them anything they are materialis tic and money money money with them I want no part of that it's awkward very indeed sorry for this part of being negative but i am not I am at peace it I guess I am changing more and more for the good and that feels amazing cause I feel like it's all, God that where I get my strength from. Him and that is why I am the way I am cause I allowed the change to take place I am more spirituality connected to him and I love God and Jesus and I love love and me and everything is positive I learned and I am continuing to learned and be myself and love myself and be weird cause that who I am and know that i deserve better for myself and my life and I'm learning and opend
Love Sharisse can't believe but. Can we are in2016 and I know I know you know that I love you more and more everyday and that you will alway be my love and my heart and I will always be with you forever Tell God I said thank you from my heart and soul and that I love him and Jesus
Write to me soon
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, January 1, 2016
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Happy happy happy happy New years Netzai too you and your family and God and all the Angels in Heaven and even the ones that are not Happy News years to all that are living and all that are in spirit . I love you and miss you so much and I miss you then again I know you are always here. much peace and love and positive thoughts and a lot of smiles
love sharisse I love you soooooooo much SOOOOOOO much you are still my heart no matter what
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, December 25, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I love you and miss you I wanted
to say merry Christmas to you and your family. Tell god and Jesus I said happy birthday and that I love them. I wanted to wish everyone in the world spirit and living a merry Christmas and a happy New Years many smiles and love and joyful times. Tell my uncle I said merry Christmas and that I love him very much
Love Sharisse I love you netzai always
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, December 24, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I wanted to say that I love you and miss you every much. I wanted to tell you Happy Merry Christmas Eve to you and your family. I wish you the most joyous most loving Christmas eve in Heaven and I wish you happiness and to be comfortable and lots lot s of love and peace which I know you are.Tell God and Jesus Have a Happy Christmas Eve along with the Angels in the Heavens. I love you Netzai so much and I miss you and I will always love you your still my heart and my love
love sharisse I love you Netzai your still beautiful
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Monday, December 14, 2015
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Hi netzai, i wanted to tell you that I miss and love you so much but I guess you already know that but I will continue to say all the time
Love Sharisse I love you soooooooooo much soooooo much I love you for all eternity I will see you on Christmas Eve netzai
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, December 5, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I miss you and love you always!!! I know that you are doing fine and God is taking care of you.I know that your around also I am more at ease knowing internally as well as spiritually. I just miss you a lot but I never stop thinking about you because I am so in love with you still and I know you still love me as well so no worries there my heart always belong to you in my eyes you will always be my one and only true love and my heart forever. So let me catch you huh there are things in my life that I realized is bad not for me but the people around me let me start of my explaining this might be negative but try to understand I am not negative only the people around me so you know that I do not talk to Diamond and Vanessa anymore but I do have them as acquaintances on Facebook I can not say they are my friends cause we are far from that aren't we anyway Diamond has posted up a message on her wall that clearly said how she hate giving patients insulin shot I have seen the post and responded to her post and told her even though you may not like giving patients insulin shot you are saving a life and I also told her to not use the word hate use dislike and to not write that kind of stuff on her wall cause people can see that mind you Netzai Diamond works in the nursing field why would you write something like that, that make people question your motives and then they looking at you as if your careless how would she feel if God forbid someone in her family had diabetes and had to get insulin shot how would you feel if someone you knew was taking care of your family member and you saw that person post would you like it no why write it people have feeling sometime you have to pause a bit and take a second to think just think about what it is your saying it can offend others anyway i went on to message her privacy and told her to not put things up like that because people can see that she went on to say she don't have people at her job as friends on Facebook see this simple minded and ignorant thinking It don't matter if you do not have friends that don't work with you on you Facebook you ever heard the words small world people know people that know people duhhhhhh hello hello what again dumness in the air and out the mouth I don't understand anyway she took what I said as offenses but she took the post down shaking my head incident one incident two my mom Netzai my mom and step father is negative and I mean negative people to be around toxic to the point of suffocation and I always told myself that I don't ever want to be are grow up like my mother over the years of growing up me and my mother even though I do love her never got along i tied my best to fix things but she never want to change she is unhappy and miserably like her husband which is my stepdad when I talk to her its like talking to at 15 year old in high school her and my stepdad. i NOTICE THAT SHE has so much grudges and she is consumed with negativity you know what she dislike people telling her the truth and if you tell her what she done wrong she refuse to accept it or try to fix it she doesn't want to fix herself at all its sad to see her and my stepdad like that because she be like that all eternality most of her life and she even lies to herself and creates this picture that she this perfect person and cannot do any wrong she lives in her negativity you can tell she unhappy and my stepdad evil as can be evil in his heart and well as my mom he is the worst the things he do in the house is ridiculous and mom just goes along with it cause why she don't want to here is voice its crazy and sad for them both and there relationship its not loving at all and when I go out with them to store or be in there bedroom its this awkward weird feeling from the both of them it makes me not want to be around them at all I am not the only in my house that senses this even my sibling its negative energy coming from them its nasty feeling guess what my mom went to a white witch because she felt that a women at her job practices black magic and is out to get her when she told me this I look at her and said to her I don't think you should be messing with that my mom went on too tell me that she brought 3 necklace from the witch see this Netzai what a damn shame I told her why didn't she get a cross and she said that the cross does not work against these time of people. I was shocked that she said that my head started hurting because I COULD FEEL HER NEGATIVE energy I walk out of the room I am a firm believer in God and only God I believe wicca is not good and for my mom to sit there and say that prayer or the cross cannot protect her I felt the devil had already taken her what a shame what a shame she turned away from God and even after I told her that I went to hell from an out of body experience that was real real, hell is real I seen it myself with my own eyes God had gave me vision of Hell and the pit of flames I even seen Demons from Hell they are Gray bluish looking look nothing like the demon you see i horror movies theses demon look much worse Heaven is real God is real people believe what they can't see in the physical world doesn't exits in the spiritual world but it does she don't listen her heart is black netzai and so is my stepdad God is always stronger than anything in this world and I always believe that my heart I stay with God i don't sway guess what my mom never let me see my real father I have never met him netzai he passed away before i could have met him my mom still holds grudges from him I told you netzai her heart is black and so is my stepdad she told my sister that if her other father was too be on life-support she would have pulled the plug and laugh about it i did not find that funny cause why would you wish bad on someone and she proceeded to say she will see him my sister other father in hell I told Joey what my mom said about my sister father and Joey said that cold blooded what she said but joey also went on to say least she knows where she is going I said yup she does I told her she choose wicca over God he said to me don't be like her and continue to pray thank God out of everyone in my family I have a Good heart God blessed me with a Good heart don't get me wrong I did make mistakes in the past but I learned from them and grown up and became a way better person then I was in my youth years I had to make mistake to be the women God had wanted me to be and i am still becoming its just pain me to see that my mom have not learned from any of them so I love her and most of my family from a distance I have to protect my own happiness and I pray to God and talk to him everyday all the time my love for him stay pure because my heart i keep pure I do struggle with a bit of negativity because i absorb it I learn that I am an empath so I have to ground myself a lot more then usually and i am still learning spiritually how to control my emotion and separate it from others so I mediatate and talk to God his love is so Devine so pure so love he help me with my depression I don't stuffer from it anymore though I did slip one time and I believe in my heart the devil tried to take my soul it was weird the day it happened i have a ball from uncle that passed up to Heaven and it sit on top of my shelf with book and its in the back so it can't fall when i was thinking back to my depression the ball fell on the floor and I looked at it I said that is impossible but I felt that my uncle and YOU netzai was there trying to stop me from doing it so i prayed to God for strength and forgiveness and I also knew one of you guys was there cause I smelled a fruit scent of cantaloupe and we do not have cantaloupe in our house I kept smelling it in my bedroom and joey was with me and and i ask him if he smelled that he said no but I smelled it the fruit I can smell spirit scent I do not know which one of you like cantaloupe or smelled of it
sorry for the negative letter I had to vent my apologies on to lighter new but sad I do not know if you remember him Netzai but Wellington passed away he went up to Heaven I do not know him but he went to our school I remember seeing him around he graduated with us Wellington my sister said he passed away when she told me I knew who he was even though I never met him I just me remember I had this weird feeling to attend his funeral I did not know when it was going got to be but I remember saying the day my sister told me I said to myself that I have to go to his funeral but I felt like it was my spirit talking anyway I went to Maryland to drop off my sibling to my aunts house because they were going down south we left Saturday and did not come back until Sunday I kept thinking I missed Wellington funeral but turn out when we made it back on time I just happened to check my Facebook and found out this funeral was Sunday the day we returned home it started at 4 and ended at 9 it was at flynn memorial home so my sister drop me off there it was a long line to see Wellington but it moved fast I felt all the people emotion in the room and I stated to cry and then i felt at peace for some odd reason i saw Wellington it was an open casket I am in line so I see him and I felt his spirit at the funeral I kept saying to myself he here he here but where so I seen Nelson Netzai i do not know if you remember him but I seen him for some odd reason I kept looking at Nelson I couldn't stop looking at Nelson direction and I kept saying to myself why am I looking at Nelson then i came up to wellington casket he looked so peaceful and they had so many pictures of him I smile at him and his pictures I turned around and I saw Nelson I whisper to him Nelson he look at me and smiled and I approach him i FELT NOT LIKE MYSELF it was weird nelson look at me and I looked at nelson and i said how are you he look at me and said I'm good I'm strong I'm strong I looked at him and said i KNOW YOU ARE but behind his eyes I felt pain there and i lean in and gave him a hug and said to him he always with you Wellington and nelson a gave me a shocked look and I told him Goood luck and Nelson look at me and said it was good to see you again and I said it was good to see you too then I left it was strange because as I walked out I text Mia to see if she was coming to Wellington service and Mia said she was on her way I did not stay fro the whole service by the time I got home I was tired and i TEXT Mia and said give Nelson a big hug and that was that was that mia letter text me and said Nelson was one of the speaker at Wellington service I was like now I understood why I HAD WENT to Wellington service and why had look at nelson and why I told him Good luck. I never knew Nelson was going to speck at Wellington service they never handed out papers the reason I kept looking in Nelson direction was because Wellington spirit was standing next to Nelson remember Netzai I said when I walked into the room I said to myself Wellington spirit is here he here he here regarding to Wellington spirit and i ask him but where are you and he was showing me I am standing next to Nelson so that why I kept looking at Nelson and the reason why I told Nelson Good luck was because I felt like Wellington wanted me to say that to Nelson who say Good luck to someone at a funeral Netzai who says that I did not know why I was telling him that It just came out of my mouth the same as when I told Nelson that Wellington is always with him he looked at me shocked from the expression on the face and I left I think Wellington wanted me to come to the funeral as weird as that sound to tell nelson that and when mia said he spoke at the funeral I said that explain why I said to him Good luck I told mia I am not crazy and this might sound weird but Wellington spirit was at the funeral and Mia said I hope so I said no mia he was I felt him he was standing next to Nelson he was next to nelson out of everyone in Wellington funeral I kept on looking at Nelson and believe me it was a lot of people but he was standing next to Nelson then mia said that explain it nelson spoke at the funeral and it sounded like Wellington was telling him everything to say cause some of the things Nelson said I laugh at it mia said to me I said yup he was next to Nelson alright i FELT LIKE Wellington wanted me there to tell nelson that because I only spoke to nelson there and left i believe that was my job to do and God wanted me there to learn something about death that the spirit is eternally whether you know it or not that death is not suppose to be heartbreak though it is but its a celebration of a physical body metamorphosis into the spiritual light of God AS IN IT GOES BACK TO the source in which it came. in order to understand death you most understand the being of God and Heaven and internally life you must believe that God created you to exist for life lesson in flesh in order to seek his internal love and life in death as saying a gift from God return to sender return to source only to increase our faith and love in him and to believe that life goes on past the physical realm But That what I filmily believe in my soul I bear witness to that
love sharisse I love you soooooooooo much Netzai that just my experience lolol I miss you sooooo much and I will always love you from my heart and soul forever
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, November 26, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I love and miss you always. Happy Thanksgiving Netzai I can't believe how fast the year is almost over. We are almost in the year 2016 can you believe it. So let me catch you up on things but first I would like to say the things I am thankful for and the things i have learned. Over this past years I learned a lot about myself. I learn about things I did not like and things I could deal with I learn about thing that made me sad and lonely i learned about forgiveness and hope I learn about faith and the unseen I learned about God most importantly I learn about hardship and money I learn about happiness and to never take encounter for granted cause there are lesson too learned. I learned that crying was okay that your not weak and never alone cause God is always there and other too even if you don't know. I learned about support and having a strong foundation to stand on. I learned to be a women a beautiful women that weird and funny and sweet and nice and don't fit in with other but I learned thats that is okay its okay. I learned to laugh and smile and observed I learned to connect with my spirit and feel God I learned to step away from negativity in order to protect my own happiness I learned to be happy and at peace I learned to pray everyday and read the bible and trust in God I learned to accept my flaws and work with them I learned to not get caught up with other people personal drama its not mines to hold i learned to let go and let God I learned to be creative and be myself and love love myself I learned to accept thing i learned to grow and still be a kid at times I learned me I learned about death and rebirth I learned to do things that make me happy and its okay to take a risk I learned to communicate and be alone by myself oh the joy of solitude i learned to love oh love Netzai love love and be connected to God i learned to be my own best friend i learned to love my own family even from a distance including joey family hmmmm. i learned that I am different and its okay I am not like everyone else. I learned to accept but still working on criticism I still learning to take it all in all in hmmmm. I learned and still working on trusting myself and my intuition. I things I learned is also the things I am grateful for if I have not learned them I probably would not understand what how to deal with things in life as I do now i am still learning I like it that way i am also grateful for you Netzai because you brought me happiness and the love we share is something i treasure close to my heart and i keep safe because the love we had for each other come once every life and God blessed me when i met such a wonderful special men like yourself. and I thank God for blessing me with things that I never felt before spiritually with you with each other even though we did not have the life we wanted to have i know we will have it again in another life I always feel that because we are still connected and are never apart. I love you Netzai and God made you with great Love and I am sure he's he proud of you like everyone else is. I am thankful for joey too I don't know what I would do without him he is the most understand loyal and wonderful caring men i have never met I do believe God blessed me with him because he knew that joey could understand me and help me grow Netzai when you went up to Heaven I did not know what to do i just keep thinking about you I thought a lot about thing and what I said too you and the premonition I had about you and talking too you about it i was upset I did not blame God i didn't I blamed myself I thought if i did not leave it would not have happened but it did and the night it happened I knew something was wrong i knew something was wrong I just knew i knew at 2 in the morning something was wrong i finally understood that that was you specking to me to come to you and i am sorry joey was there he help me with grieving for you and especially my uncle he is so strong and he does not leave me and he tries his best to help me out especially when I don't understand something when I want to talk about you joey let me talk he does not quiet me or says things to let me hear what I want to here he allow me to speck joey tell me its not my fault but i known it was going to happened joey says I could not have changed it that I could not have stop it but i wish sometimes i did joey told me God just wanted me to tell you netzai I just wish I was there but I understood he strong for me he knows i still love you very much and he know about our relationship he accept it he thinks sometime I love you more than him but joey tell me he always by my side no matter what. If i did not have him i feel that other guys could not have handled me and would have left especially when i still talk about you Netzai. they probably could not have accept it and leave me but joey stays with me he is a good man he is nothing like his family he is his own person he is smart and funny and caring and he do different things but he loves what he does and he filled with so much passion he does not care about money and cars and he cares for me and for us he treat me good and he always there to pick me up when i fall especially when I had my depression which is gone now since I found healing with God and Love from him. Joey is a wonderful man Netzai someone times joey jokes around and say thing like I know Netzai does not like me and I laugh he goes above and beyond he even cooks for me and brings me food when I don't have any or don't feel like going out he goes out in cold weather too bring me something doesn't matter if its raining or snow he still comes to me and still talk to me. he is a great guy netzai and he love me and I love him he sacrifice things without a care and he tell me he does it because he love me and he want me happy God gave me a great man even though the I was suppose to be with you Netzia I finally understood why. Joey has a good heart and even though he may not understand me he makes an effort to do so. i am thankful for him for being with me and supporting me in whatever I do in life as i would do the same thing without hesitation to him. I am grateful for him very much. Guess what my good friend Donna is doing great she told me her contract in up in January I hope they keep her she is a good women and have a great heart she is still living with Nick. She works a lot so its hard to make time but I email her to make sure she is okay. She is still looking for a good man around. I hope she finds him and find a best friend in him. she deserve love and peace and I hope she finds it so much and God bless her. Cindy is doing good as well she watching her housemate kids and cooking for thanksgiving. She tells me her house mates have two kids both boys one have autism but he slowly communicates and whats to go everyone where with her but he just love her that all she says that the kids are off from school and she has to watch them they have so much energy but i told her to give them activity to do that are fun. I still don't talk to vanessa and Dimonad and others but i am okay with that I don't care or worried about it we grow apart and it happened in life and i am okay with that we have different goal in life and i feel that i grow up spiritual and emotionally that I matured I don't know where she is in her life but I do wish her the best no hard feeling just love and peace as for me i am still writing and working on this book i am happy enough to say I love it and its going to be big one day when i finished it. sometime its lonely the feeling but its not if that makes sense and other times its reflective on me because i see how hard i worked but i am grateful for it all my thanksgiving will be just me and my mom and sis Joey invited me to his parents house for thanksgiving but I refused still don't trust them still and thats that no hard feeling either i wish them love and peace as well my family went down to South Carolina for Thanksgiving and i did not go but i like my alone time just me and my mom and my sister until they comeback. I still have spiritual experience from God and I still talk to him in the morning as well as night and I am still at peace that I am. I pray my mom not in a bad way do not get the house she wants to move to the other side of Yonkers but I know God will do something about it sometime i think my mom does it on purpose if you know what I mean Netzai........
love sharisse I love you netzai so much and I wanted to say Happy Thanksgiving to you netzai and your family and i wish everyone in spirit and living even the ones who don't have family a Happy Thanksgiving from my heart I wish you happiness and lots of laughter and joy in your heart and warm food to remember the meaning of being alive. Lots of love to all to love and share
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, November 21, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I miss you and love you always!!!! I wanted to tell you that but I know you already know that. I am always thinking of you. i miss you more then imagined and I wish we could be together as we hoped in our heart but in another lifetime. I am still with you as you are with me
ps Netzai, I know in another lifetime we could get married too like we wanted before sometime i wish that when you had ask me to married you and i ask you as well vise vera I wish I didn't go and I wish we would have done it at that moment but I do remember the time we married spiritually even if its wasn't a real wedding it felt real to us even though we didn't know what we were doing and I didn't know all the wedding words I still remember you saying yes I will take you as my wife and I remember you smiling at me even though I didn't know all the words its was our pretend marriage i will always remember that in my heart i smile saying this
love sharisse I love you and wish you peace and happiness and love always love
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Wednesday, November 11, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I miss you and love you so much. I wanted to say Happy Birthday my love. I smile because you are and still is so beautiful to me. There are so many things I could say that could describe such a beautiful man both physically and spiritually. you are and still is my best friend my heart my love you are my everything. You was so intelligent and beyond smart and always showed manners. you always laugh at my corny jokes even though they was not funny and you had the most beautifulest smile in the planet i miss that you was always patient with me and our conversation was the most honest and heartfelt conversation we shared with each other. The passion we shared the love the amount of time we spent together even the kissing I cherished it all because I love every second we had spent together because it meant so much to us. We had a strong bond we still do and I have not given up that ever not ever because I believe I know I just do. i DO NOT CARE IF YOUR IN ANOTHER WORLD OR FAR FROM ME i STILL LOVE YOU AND i AM STILL HERE NO MATTER WHAT I TOLD YOU IM NOT LEAVING YOU IM NOT I AM STILL HERE WE MADE A PROMISE TO EACH OTHER AND i KEPT IT AND I WILL CONTINUE TO KEEP IT i KNOW YOUR AROUND NETZAI i KNOW i KNOW IN MY HEART MY SOUL i KNOW THAT i DONT DOUBT . I KNOW YOUR IN HEAVEN WITH GOD AND I SURE THEY ARE THROWING YOOU A BIG PARTY. I KNOW LAUGHING AND ENJOYING YOURSELF. I KNOW GOD HAS YOU AND YOUR IN HEAVEN BEAUTIFUL HEAVEN TELL GOD I SAID HI AND THAT I LOVE HIM AND TELL HIM THANK YOU AND THANK YOU TOO NETZAI FOR EVERYTHING FOR EVERYTHING .you had so much courage and passion for your goals that you wanted to accomplish in your life. I remember how you would light up just talking about your goals and your plan your dream for your big future. Deep down inside I always knew in my heart that you would accomplish so much life. I just knew and I never doubted you. I aways told you that Netzai I always said that. I always said you would be something in life and I meant every word because I believe in you I always did. I knew you had the drive the motivation to get far that I never doubted that why I always made sure I told you that. you still have good soul and a good heart and I love you
you know what I remember I remember when I was sick you still kissed me even though I look a hot mess and I was sick my nose was running and I was coughing I remember you saying to me sharisse I do not care that meant a lot to me because it showed me that you love me a lot even on my sick days that is something that I remember
love sharisse Happy Birthday Netzai I send thousand upon thousand of love and many kisses and warm hugs and lots of peace and love and flowers and butterfly and all my love to you because I just love you soon much. I will alway be in love with you and you are still the love of my life.
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Monday, November 9, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I wanted to tell you that I miss you and always love you.
Love sharisse Netzai you will always be the love of my life my heart and we always have a strong spiritual bond like we had together in this life.
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, November 1, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I love you and miss you very much! I wanted to say happy all souls day I will be praying for you and my uncle and others spirits as well.
Happy all soul day everyone with love
love sharisse I love you so much Netzai
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, October 31, 2015
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Hi Netzai I miss you and love you. I wanted to wish you a Happy Halloween! I am still writing my book so much work and sometime discouragement and sometime loneliness. I am still at peace and God always gives me strength and he encourages me to finished the book. I need to finish this I got too I feel like deep down inside this book is a big opportunity for me to have door open to something big like i feel so. its inside my soul I pray everyday God know I do for strength and then exhale I just believe like I believe God show me I am just enjoying the process of it all
love sharisse I love you Netzai you are still my heart
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Wednesday, October 28, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I wanted to tell you that I love you and miss you always. Guess what got some exciting news to tell you Joey passed his test and got his nursing license. AHHH so excited I knew he passed and I also knew God was with him. I am happy for him. Guess what my good friend Donna found a good office Job she works all day of the week. She like it not bad I hope she stay there. she told me that the job is temporary but I know in my heart they will keep her. I also made a another good friend with a women name Cindy she is so great Netzai she love God and she is so positive attended church a lot. I am glad I met her she live in Arkanses but we speck through email. She even gave me a free tape glider its pink I got it in the mail. I was so thankful cause I needed one and God lead me too Cindy in fact she gave me to two tape gilder a purple one and a pink one. The purple one I paid for but the pink one she sent me for free we both like art and making cards we have a good relationship she is a very good friend like Donna . she paints and her painting are beautiful I am interested in painting as well even though i have not done any she gave me some tips so when i get the time I will start painting as well. AS for me I m growing spiritual with the lord and experiencing vision and dreams he gave me I am so honored netzai I am at so much peace in my life that I cannot explain and its an amazing feeling like nothing bother me like its God peace like peace. Guess what my mom brought a new house its so big and have a lot of room we will be moving soon not far in a really nice neighborhood. I know you will come by and visit like you always do. Guess what God gave me a vision of hell with the demons and he always tested my faith in him. I close my eyes and I was in a room very small with a furnase and there was what look like people bowing to something in the furnace it had fire and the flames were high they were all wearing black and bowing but I could not see what they were bowing too Then i was shown a picture of Jesus in mind it was locked in the room in the closet that was inside of the room the people who was bowing look up now netzai i KNOW in the spirit world that you communicate with me telepathically even my guardian angel communicates with me telepathically you communicate with me netzai telepathically. The person got up and heard my thought the one wearing black it was a demon netzai a real life demon it heard my thoughts it got up and look at me netzai the site of her I could not believe she look like dead crops skin was pale blue gray the demon had big eyes like big i mean big and wore black she came towards me and started the demon said you know where the painting of Jesus is give it to us I look at it and screamed no I am not giving you anything of Jesus and they stated to circle me a group of demons but the other demon was still bowing to something in the fire the demon was hissing and screaming at me to give them what they ask for but I did not I kept shouting no I am not giving you anything of Gods. SO the demon with the big eyes put its hand in front of my face and its hand were long and skinny and gray looking it look like they tried to cover up there hands with bandages so they look human but they did not look human so i ran out of the room and they ran after me i ran into a bathroom and look the door they banged on the door boom boom boom give us the painting of Jesus i kept yelling no I am not going to give you the painting after that they left but in the spiritual world Netzai like I said you can hear though so I heard theirs even though I was in the bathroom the demon was saying we got Jesus in a jar so i opened the door and look out and the demon with the big eyes appeared and yelled at me saying give us the jar of Jesus you have the jar I said nooooooooo and the demon got mad and started throwing water at me and specking in tongue Netzai i have never heard this language in my life it sounded ancient demonic and I through myself out of the window but I was okay God gave me this vision / dream twice because I forgot it the first time. What I did notice is that even though the demon was mad they could not touch me at all I remember asking God to send me to hell a second time so I could really experience but I said I would go only if he came with me he gave me this vision of demons but he wanted to to see that in Hell this worshipped Satan he controlled them that why I saw people bowing to the fire satan was in the fire place second they could not touch me cause God was with me Third when the demon through what appeared to be water i think it was acid but i didi not get burned I know if it was water the demon would have drinker it in hell there is no water why waste it cause it was not water fourth they do speck in tongue and fifth the demon created illusion for people to do bad thing they really do cast spell on people the demon tried to cast a spell on me but God was with me and it did not work and my faith in God is strong Netzai the demon tried to cover themselves like human to me this is what the lord was showing me the deceive people they were the most unpleasant looking demons I ever saw they were scary looking in bad makeup God also gave me a vision of his place where he was laid to rest to be reborn again Netzai it was so beautiful and I SAW ANGELs lots of them and I always saw the angel that protects me i MET THEM both netzai they are beautiful oh so pretty i am happy I get to tell you everything I experience God is so Good to me Netzai
Netzai please tell God that I love him so much and thank you for the experience and help so in peace
Love sharisse I love you netzai I know your Birthday is coming ahhhhh I am soo in love with you as you was with me and still is I love you for all eternity sorry for the sloppy writing and grammar
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, October 25, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I wanted to tell you that I love and miss you always. I hope everything is fine with you in Heaven. I hope your having wonderful time in Heaven you are probably laughing a lot, and enjoying yourself lolo i know i know. I don't know what to tell you Joey had taken his test to get his nursing license. I know he passed his test .He is waiting on his results. He has to wait three weeks. Can you believe that? Three long weeks foolishness lol but I am sure he did great. He been studying a lot. He felt confident when taking his test. I have faith he pass. as for me I am stilll good still in peace and still writing on and off but I AM GOOD. i GOT SPIRITUALLY attack my devil or his followers Netzai I don't know what is going on I talk to God a lot but lately the devil he is something else. I was sleeping in my bed when i became aware that something or someone spiritually was in my room now i am not crazy far from it but i sense spirits especially dark ones this was a dark one and he stood by my bed Netzai believe me when i said that my chest from my throat became inflamed like burning i never knew i was coughing it was sick feeling i kept scraching at my thoat and i heard a whisper it said the chain the chain take off the chain I though I was tripping i was like I am i hearing thing and then it said again the chain the chain take off the chain. It said to me the chain is what causing the irrition Netzai I wear a cross around my neck I did not take the my cross off but i PRAYED to God the the irritation had disappeared and the voice vanished Netzai that was the devil he wanted me to take off the chain of God who says that who says that nothing but an evil spirit netzai I pray I pray many people do not think hell is real but i seen it its real and so is the devil
On other note Mexico I hope all will be safe and well I know about the storm but God will protect everyone including your family Netzai I know you will be there as well to protect them God will be with them and everyone peace for all I will pray for your family as well as everyone else for safety and peace and protection
love sharisse i love you Netzai I will love you for eternity. I know your around I know I know
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, October 16, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I wanted to tell you that I love and miss you so much. I know that God is taking care of you. I know that your okay and that your happy. I wanted to say it was good seeing you in my dreams always looking good and healthy and your glowing is so beautiful and the peace you leave me is such an amazing feeling. I wanted to say tell God thank you for allowing me to see you spiritually with my own eyes even if it was for a few seconds sitting next to me and feeling you kiss. i know i was not seeing things i know it was you I am good still moving along and climbing for the top place where I belong i know netzai i know I will make it like make it I don't question it i just know deep down inside i know. still at peace but a little off not bad though tell God i SAID HI AND THAT i love him and I love you netzai
love sharisse I love you Netzai forever thanks for the coin again LOL i KNEW IT WAS YOU i know
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, October 10, 2015
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Hiiiiiii Netzai, I love you and miss you always. I know your, doing great but I still wish you more happiness and peace.I am doing wonderful and a lot more better then ever before. Please tell God I said thank you for everything. Netzai I talk to God everyday and thank him every morning I am so in love with him. He is amazing i felt a little lost with writing the book and I ask God for a clear sign. Guess what Netzai he gave it to me clear alright. I was sleeping and a car happened to pass by my house and it said loud and clear do not give up and i woke up lol isn't that funny . I said okay lord okay and thank you . Netzai I wanted to thank you for visiting me yesterday I believe that is you. I seen you like I really saw you I was half asleep and half awake but i could have swore i saw you sitting on my bed and you lean over and kiss me and the last thing that i remember saying before i fell asleep was your name. I said netzai and knock out after that. I remember it when i woke up this morning. I know you are around and i am happy i feel better Netzai like real happy like I do not feel my depression anymore like its magical Gone no traces of it God took it all away i AM IN inner peace i cannot explain i have inner peace that is unexplainable but i KNOW God had something too do with that
love sharisse i love you Netzai always and forever each moment you look you got me singing the song lolololololololol something i CANT Explain lolololololololo love you soooooooooooooooooo muchhhhhhhh
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, October 3, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I just wanted to say thank you so much for visiting me in a dream. Thank you for telling me about Heaven and making me laugh. Netzai, you still look the same except your glowing and health looking. I am glad you are having fun in Heaven and most importantly I want you to tell God I said thank you and that I love him. God answered my prayer about you and you came it was so real and it was the most beautiful dream visit I got so funny and detailed.
love sharisse I love you netzai and i miss you as well. I see you got all my letters in Heaven and I am thankful that you are still around tell God I said Hi and that I love him and thank you and tell God thank you for the inner peace he gave me i am in a good place Netzai a good place like everything is going to be okay and i believe it
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, October 1, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I miss you and I love you alway. I do not think that words would be enough to say how much I do really love you unconditional or express the amount of i miss you i have said over and over again. I do hope that you are okay and comfortable in Heaven I am sure that God provides that and many more lol. You probably wondering what is going on with me since last letter.I am good still working on the best part of me. I been spiritually getting closer to God and I pray every night and thank God every morning. I feel like he is healing me a lot most of my changes came from the strength that he gave to me. I guess me experience hell was a wake up call. I do not think God want me in hell like i said i did not say there long enough to experience hell but i seen it. I felt like god wanted me to see both hell and Heaven and I have change my ways when it come to my depression. God is good Netzai and I am sure you experience his unconditional love as well. How amazing is that! i been working on my goal board and envisioning good thing to begin with how I love this this feeling of faith and positivity. I know things will change for the good i have faith I have faith strong faith. Netzai i want you to know as i got more spiritually connected with God I started to experience things I could not explain i am being attack my evil spirit. now i am not crazy netzai but i experience things i could not explain last night i believe the devil himself came and attack me when i almost astral projected out of my body he held me down and try to corrupt my mind but i could feel him kneeing me in my side inflicting pain. I could feel pain when you astral project and leave your body you can feel pain that other spirits inflict on you but only people who experience these kind of experience understand what I mean. The devil knee me in my side and I knew it was him because he felt different and demonic. The devil try to talk to me but i could hear nothing but static like static from a radio like the louder he spoke the louder the static ringed in my ears but i could hear my own thoughts and i started praying to God and the devil knee me more and I said our father prayer and he left and vanished. ever since God let me see hell which is real like real as real can get i been spiritually feeling attack by negative spirits even though they are not strong as I am because I believe in God its like they still try to bring you to the dark side. I can feel spirits its crazy. I told joey what happened and joey explained to me the reason why I heard the static sound in my ears was because God was protecting me from the devils words. Joey said that God did not want me to get corrupted so he protected my hearing. i know Netzai that I am not crazy I know that the devil is real and Heaven is real and I experienced both and I know in my heart of heart that I am not crazy Netzai and I am sure you know what I am talking about and seen it yourself since you is with God. my soul my loyalty and life my everything is with God everything and I know that the next time the devil or his follows attack me again when i astral project and leave my body i will personal fight them and the devil got a behind whooping from me personally from me to him for kneeing me in my side and trying to speck lies i will be fight him personally in the spiritually room with God behind me I will mess him up. netzai like i can't explain i just can't
love sharisse I love you netzai more and more and more every day all the time. you will always be the love of my life
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, September 26, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I wanted to tell you that I miss you and love you everyday. I hope your doing well in heaven. I alway love you so much and I think about you, a lot well all the time. I can not help it. Where do I begin let me start off by saying I had my outer body experience. I ask God for one because I pray to him every night before bed. I felt more spirtaul and connected with God. Netzai believe when I said I saw hell like it exist it exist. I could not believe it i knew like the devil himself was real but when you experience your self you you just do not know. I was in the process of getting better with my depression but I ended up slipping back into It I pray everyday that God give me the strength and will and he did. But I do not know what happened I remember sitting on my bed and it was hot in my room and all of sudden when I started slipping back into my old habits with depression I started to feel cold like a spirit was standing next to me but it was not good. I sense it. I felt tired for some reason my energy was drained and I pray to God to forgive before I fell sleep because it was not something I meant to do. I really sincerely sincerely meant what I said as I apologize to God for going backward instead of forwards. I felt my body go numb I felt my soul leaving my body and I saw myself as a soul and I was doing the things I did not like it show me and my depression but something had grab me and was rubbing my side real hard like trying to wake me up it finally let me go and I finally tried to get back into my body but I ended up being grab by my feet and drag of my bed when I got up I saw a spirit a angry spirit he was pale white and wore blue clothes and his eyes were angry and dark and filled with red he was not a good spirit and I sense it I got so mad netzai that he grab me by my feet that I just ran Towards him the spirit and started beating him up I felt like I had no fear inside of me and I sense that he knew that because I believe in God. I don't know what happened after that but I ended up asking God to take me to heaven see him I ended up flowing in the air pass the clouds but where I ended up was not in a place I wanted to go I ended up flowing into hell itself but I did not stay there long enough to experience what hell was like but it was dark and filled with fire and the wall were dark and there was no light coming into hell itself except the light from the fire it had gravel and was not a good place to be but like I said I did not stay long enough to to see the demons and people in pain or the devil it was like God wanted me to see hell to tell me one it exist and two that if I do not move forward and forgive myself of my depression he was not saying that I am a bad person he was telling me that I need to change certain habit that prevent me from moving forward I do not Beleive I will be In hell but I Sure know that he do not want me in hell reliving my past hurt I got scared cause I believe that God wanted to show me that the devil himself and the wrong doer do reside here. This only made me closer to God and to Beleive that he was my source of strength that I do not have to go backward God is good God is good he just want me to live a life with knowing him and trusting him and believing that I could over Come anything with his help
Love Sharisse I love you Netzai from my heart and soul there is always a space for you well a big space for you I am always her write me someday huh write
Very scary experience
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Monday, September 21, 2015
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I just have faith Netzai that things are going to work out in my favor. Somehow I just know i can't settled for a average life cause a big part of know that something great is heading my way. I will keep writing my book you will see someday. someday i will change the world
i always miss you more than ever and my love for you never changed only grows
love sharisse
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, September 13, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I wanted to tell you that I love you so much and that I miss you!!!!!!!!!!!
love sharisse write to me Netzai write please tell the mail people in Heaven I am truly sorry for the mail overload I love you alway Netzai
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, September 6, 2015
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I notice I have not caught you up Netzai on everything do not be mad and I hope your not but I do apologize. So I wanted to tell you that I miss you and love you everyday and that I think about all the time everyday excuses that last later i was upset but i could not be that long I remember how i would get mad at you but i could never stay mad at you for long as you could never stay mad at me either. My uncle Ivan WHO IS 40 and Uncle Orvel who is 70 and my Grandma Ellen who is 65 years old celebrated there birthday in the bronx my God Netzai there was so many people that were my family that I have not seen in many years including my cousin Jamie you know Netzai Jamie had remember me after all theses years i have seen him 5 to 6 years He had a brain anersim he survived they had to put him in a coma because the blood was in his brain Jamie had to be in psychical therapy and under many surgery i had not seen him since it happened our family is not close but I did pray that God takes care of him and God did Jamie is still here He can walk and Talk and he even play a Guitar H e is so happy Netzai I smile writing this cause I was glad he was alive and well he always smiling and dancing it shocked me cause when i got to the party Jamie had came up to me and said I remember you I nearly pass out I have not seen Jamie in years Netzai he look different He just hug me and I hug him back I could not believe he had said that to me i was shocked but needless to say He is as healthy as can be and i am happy for that I really am In that little moment Jamie taught me so much about life and living and why God was truly good in many way I could have not explained A lot of people were drunk and happy it was one of those bitter sweet moment because Uncle I van was not physical there but spiritual i felt he and you Netzai was at the party enjoying yourselves but I know he is in a better place in Heaven with God it reminded of the time i was sitting at my uncle funeral Netzai and I felt my uncle touching my arm telling me it was okay same way I seen him in a photograph standing behind of me he still had the same white suit and pink shirt he had on in the funeral but he was standing behind me in his spiritual form
For the first time in years I seen my cousin Chulo since the incident i never thought i would be sitting in a courtroom seeing my own cousin in an orange jumpsuit and in cuffs. I wanted to cry because nobody want their own family member going to jail Netzai I had forgave my cousin for what he did but I know it won't bring my Uncle Ivan back and i tell myself that from time and time again he would not even look at me or the family even though the last world that had came out of my mouth was we love you Chulo as the police officer took him back through the door i just broke down and cried it hurt it hurt like hell because i have to live with the thought of not seeing my uncle anymore and not seeing my cousin as well because Chulo he will be going to jail for a long time God has his reasons my uncle lvan always said he wanted to be everywhere guess what Netzai now he can be everywhere helping because that what he did he always helped people that make me happy to say I just wish that two of you would have met each other I am sure my Uncle would have love you Netzai that I am sure of but something tell me you guys met in Heaven already
As far as my hair it is growing still curly and short but I LOVE IT CAN COMPLAIN i am still writing my book I talk to God every night before bed I ask him if he would give me a sign to finish my book I had made promise to finish the book if he send a sign but i did get one I ask him to send me a scarecrow don't ask why just did for a theme but sure enough joey had went to 242 st unexpectaly he never goes there and came back with a newspapers guess what it said on it Netzai it said the world Write and it had a scarecrow theme if you know what I mean with tree leaves i THOUGHT it was a sign I said okay God I will finish the book
As for my birthday joey did something small which i LOVe so much it was just between us and that what i enjoy the most and greatly appreciated like a lot he really thought about it and i am so happy and thankful he is a great guy Netzai I do not know what I would have done if i did not have him he is a blessing even though he is nothing like his racist, ignorant, shady drama filled family I am glad he is his own person and nothing like them he is good to me and he even accept that your apart of my life Netzai he is still bother a little by it but he doesn't mind he just amazing he does so many thing for me and he does it because he love me and i love him but he know that I love you too Netzai
Guess what he got me more crafting supplies so happy Netzai I am happy someday day I will be NewYork times best selling authors list I feel it in my soul Netzai I know that I will I know I just know I did my goal board on the goals I wanted to reach in three years i also started learning Spanish i am getting there introduction of it and I started manifesting my house in Mexico cause for some reason i know in my heart of heart I am coming to Mexico and I an buying a house so I could visit you and or if the house thing does not work I am hoping to buy land and build a house close to you i like Chinantla but I also like Tecomatlán I am looking into the houses are land down there I know about the redzone areas still doing research still planning
Love sharisse I miss you netzai so much I just wish i could have a part of you with me everyday but a m glad you come to visit me in dreams and spend time with me that is the best feeling in the world to know your still around I always love you your apart of my me and you will always be the love of my life and my heart and thanks for visiting me on my birthday i know you came you made it very clear lolollololl
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, September 3, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I love you and miss you always but I guess you know that already. so I will write how I feel today i miss you more than anything i guess it hurts cause i think about the things we had planned lol so many things so many places so much laughter you will always be apart of me and you were the one i cherished the most greatest friendship with and internal love it blossom everyday my love for you always grows that is something you get out of a lifetime. one of God many beautiful life filled blessing you can say they do come in many forms. i am upset Netzai at you because you did not listen to me when I told you about the dream I had about you. I can say i am scared for life sometime when you dream you think that it just a dream but i never realized that it would be a premonition that would have came true. sometime i wish on that last day i saw you i wish i never told you cause i think it would have never happened but it did ..........................................................................................................................................c
love sharisse i love you Netzai you will always be my heart i am still healing but God is in control.
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, August 27, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I wanted to say sorry for not writing. I been just been doing a lot of thinking lately. I guess you can say I am finding inner peace for myself. I feel like I think to much and worried about things that are small maybe too small. I miss you everyday and I still always from the bottom of heart love you. I never stopped loving you even if you are in another form. Guess what my good friend Donna got a job interview. I pray that she gets it. She is a hard worker and a very good friend to me as I am to her. I have not spoken to Vanessa lately well more than I could say. I feel like we or she drafted apart you know. I guess God has other plans for me. Do I feel bad about it? I don't know. She is still friends with Jen and Diamond I mean she still talks to them and party with them. again I feel like I am by myself and I am not sure if that is good but I do not find it bad either. I enjoy my alone time to me that is the best feeling for me. I learned you only have three good friends this includes yourself and who you believe you are. The second is people who you surround yourself with. and third your Faith in God. Joey had cooked for me. He treat me well even though I am distance with his family. He is a great guy takes care of me and he goes beyond limits to do it sometime he gets upset because he feel that i care about you more than i do him. sometimes he does not understand at all. Its not that I don't not care or love him. I just gave me heart away a long time ago and I just never got it back at all. I can't help the way I feel there just days i just want to be myself and be left alone like on a private island where nobody find you and you can just relax and breath and have pieces of mind and not have to worry about what this corrupt world have to offer. Can you believe Netzai that Donald Trump decided to run for President lol this is a joke like i am laughing and George Bush brother too oh no this is Joke are serious this is a joke Donald trump know nothing about running a country he need to take his behind back to real-estate are you kidding me and american have no right to air this wannabe attention seeking ass president on TV talking foolishness and pure nonsense. He talking about building a wall over the Mexican border and make them pay for it are you kidding me shut up shut up you sound stupid they need to take his ass and lock him up and build a border fence around his ass are you kidding me shaking me head just dumbness in the air and out the mouth make no sense ... no sense i am mad that they give him air time on TV like cut him off and Geroge Bush brother too while your at it. sorry Netzai for the vent part I am just mad people are just dumb and dumb and dumb and dumb as hell .
love sharisse I love you Netzai from my deep internal soul that is made from God love please write soon oh and thank you for the dream visit you are always handsome and healthy looking
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Tuesday, August 11, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I miss you and love you always. I just wanted to tell you that I still think about you and that i love you so much. I hope your fine and well and I hope your happy and comfortable.
love sharisse I always love you from my heart Netzai
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Monday, August 3, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I love you and miss you always! I hope all is well and that your fine and happy! I have not forgot to write to you. I been busy working on myself getting to know who I am and what I want in my life. I have been thinking a lot most of the time they are good thoughts but I do slip up and think negative. I am glad to say a-least I do not put them out in in-front of people. I just keep them to myself. Joey and I are on little break I needed to be by myself for a while to think and really think. I feel like he do not understand me and that is okay but I do not bother to explain to him why I feel the way I do. Sometime i wish i was in a place where it was just me and God. Maybe I ask him what is wrong what am I doing wrong. and if he could guild me because I am not sure anymore. I feel different my depression come and goes I am trying to manage it joey can't help me. I feel like I am by myself. I am strong and I know i am but sometimes i feel like i just want to give up i really do. school is starting and I have to retake math over i do not mind it cause i know i can always do better and improve I lol decided to take Spanish class so we will see how that goes i know it will be fun i took a break on writing i have not finished my book yet i have decided to make a list of goals to reach and make sure i reach them and make sure they are realitic as well i know that this is temporory for me and things get better i learned that someone always has it worse than others i am just improving for my future slowly i will get there and no still do not talk to joey family they are still the same why bother. lol why bother I am thinking positively moving forward struggling a bit for balance but i meditated yesterday i had a dream about God he showed me a chruch he was inside the church he was telling me to reach for him he showed me that there are obsticles but you can get around them and he showed me I did just that
love sharisse i love you Netzai I still do i just miss you a lot
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, July 24, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I miss and love you always! I hope your doing well and I hope your happy and smiling in Heaven. I hope you have peace and love always and is comfortable most importantly.So I went and did Netzai I cut off all my hair. I know I know I grow it long and bam cut off. I tried to hold on to my hair and care for it but since the salon lady messed my hair up i had to cut it off yup all off so now i have a short hair cut joey help me cut it even though he did not want to. He felt that I should just grow it out but i had to many straight pieces of hair and I missed my curly hair so I cut it. lol I am not mad at all just a new chance to start over again. i will just put my hair in braids and let it grow out again. Guess what I got two new breaded dragons one name is sandy and the other is rocky they are so cute and friendly. Rocky love me and so do sandy but rocky more he is too cute Netzai he is something else still working on writing my book who knows one day I get the feeling its going to be big is that weird to say. i am hoping because I really would love to start my very own bag line who knows Netzai a lot of people will wear it . i just believe someday someday it will be and should be. I m going to let go and let it flow everything will work out fine. i miss you so much i hope you will be there but than again i know you are thank you for the coins and the beautiful dream visits i know your around and will always be lol I love you so much still do
love sharisse I always love you Netzai always will and still do no matter what I will still be here. one day I will see you again and we can continue were we left off by telling each other i love and corny joke lolollol how fun is that smiling
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, July 16, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I love you and miss you always!!!!!!
I just wanted to tell you that I love you so much and I really miss you. my heart will always belong to you and have a big space for you.
love sharisse
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, July 11, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I miss you and love always. I hope you, are well and I hope your safe and happy. I am sorry for not writing. I been busy but I have not forgot to write you. I miss you so much and I think about you everyday all the time! I know that love can do that to a person. I am in love with you always. You are always my heart and the love of my life and my best friend. You will always be that forever and ever and many more lifetime. I know I said I will fill you in on my horror salon story. I grew my hair to mid back length Netzai. I kept my hair in braids or twist and its usually pinned up. I take very good care of my hair to make a long story short. The lady that does my hair went on vacation. I decided to try another hair salon while she was gone. On my behalf not the smartest thing to do. I went to this hair salon met a women who says she does natural hair. my hair is natural and I have curly hair that thick. Something told me to run out of that salon but I did not listen. long story short she completely damage my hair Netzai like burned it I had heat damage hair my hair did not curl back or revert back it stayed straight. She lied to me and said she use a heat protector in my hair Netzai she did not my hair smell like burned hair and something kept telling me sharisse ask that women if that is a heat protector I did not listen once again even though she said it was Netzai it did not look like it and I went home to wash my hair out using no shampoo or conditioner and my hair started falling out in the shower clumps of it in my hand. i was shocked because I worked hard to care for my hair and now its ruined i was thinking of completely cutting it off and starting over but my grandma said no just treat it so I did half of my curls came back I do have some straight pieces in my hair that did not curl back. I was upset but it was a lesson learned no more hair salon for me that it so I am waiting until my hair is recovers. I am not bold I still have hair its just that I have some short pieces in my hair but it will grow back. As for internship its over finally and I am happy to get out of there Ellen was something else but people are who they are can't change that at all. I just learn that you have to handle yourself with respect and not let minor things get to you. I also learned that people with try to break you and take you down with them but never follow where they have fallen. always look ahead and be ahead. I also learned to breath just breath breathing just takes you to a place where you are just human breath just breath and let go find your inner peace I fill that Netzai. I am still writing I find my joy in that I really do I will let you know how the writing contest goes it does not completely end until September 30 2015 the deadline for the July 29 if i remember deadline ended but it continues until September 30 2015. I have a whole bunch of craft stuff so I can't wait to use it and make you more birthday card and holiday cards now I can make them better since I have better supply I can't wait. mostly I buy blank cards and than hand draw inside of them sometime joey help me but now I can do it with other supplies. more cards for you and your family soooo excited!!!!!!! Oh and thank you for the sign me and joey met a man who lives an hour from where you are located he told me how to get to you I thought it was odd cause he started talking to us out of the blue and he going to Mexico next week well for two weeks he said. He was thinking that me and joey was going to cancun I told him no he was wondering why we was going to real Mexico I told him we was visiting my best friend he look shocked he ask if my friend had move to Mexico this made me feel uneasy to me it was too personal Joey said no he is in Heaven. the man said to us you are going to visit your friend down there wow wow that is far. I told him i do not mind the trip. to make long story short Netzai the man told us how to get there we never ask he just gave direction the funny thing is he said that he live an hour away from you Netzai when he said that it had reminded me that the place he was talking about where he live I was planing on buying a house in that area so I can visit you Netzai weird to say but I have decided to see if I can buy a house that is I think 18 minutes away if not that that hour one will have to do another weird story. I ask joey why do people seem shocked when you tell them you are going visiting someone. Joey said maybe he is surprised that you are going all the way down there for your best friend your just loyal sharisse that all. people are not always like that. what type of world do we live in or maybe i AM JUST DIFFERENT but that is you Netzai thank you so much for the sign joey said maybe he is telling you to visit him more often.
Love sharisse I love you Netzai and I do not care what anybody think about me going to see you or that I write to you but i JUST am SOOOOOO IN LOVE WITH YOU AND i DONT CARE AND MY FEELING FOR YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THE SAME AND i LOVE YOU Unconditionally The way I feel is how its going to be forever and ever
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, July 11, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I miss you and love always. I hope you, are well and I hope your safe and happy. I am sorry for not writing. I been busy but I have not forgot to write you. I miss you so much and I think about you everyday all the time! I know that love can do that to a person. I am in love with you always. You are always my heart and the love of my life and my best friend. You will always be that forever and ever and many more lifetime. I know I said I will fill you in on my horror salon story. I grew my hair to mid back length Netzai. I kept my hair in braids or twist and its usually pinned up. I take very good care of my hair to make a long story short. The lady that does my hair went on vacation. I decided to try another hair salon while she was gone. On my behalf not the smartest thing to do. I went to this hair salon met a women who says she does natural hair. my hair is natural and I have curly hair that thick. Something told me to run out of that salon but I did not listen. long story short she completely damage my hair Netzai like burned it I had heat damage hair my hair did not curl back or revert back it stayed straight. She lied to me and said she use a heat protector in my hair Netzai she did not my hair smell like burned hair and something kept telling me sharisse ask that women if that is a heat protector I did not listen once again even though she said it was Netzai it did not look like it and I went home to wash my hair out using no shampoo or conditioner and my hair started falling out in the shower clumps of it in my hand. i was shocked because I worked hard to care for my hair and now its ruined i was thinking of completely cutting it off and starting over but my grandma said no just treat it so I did half of my curls came back I do have some straight pieces in my hair that did not curl back. I was upset but it was a lesson learned no more hair salon for me that it so I am waiting until my hair is recovers. I am not bold I still have hair its just that I have some short pieces in my hair but it will grow back. As for internship its over finally and I am happy to get out of there Ellen was something else but people are who they are can't change that at all. I just learn that you have to handle yourself with respect and not let minor things get to you. I also learned that people with try to break you and take you down with them but never follow where they have fallen. always look ahead and be ahead. I also learned to breath just breath breathing just takes you to a place where you are just human breath just breath and let go find your inner peace I fill that Netzai. I am still writing I find my joy in that I really do I will let you know how the writing contest goes does not end until September 30 2015. I have a whole bunch of craft stuff so I can't wait to use it and make you more birthday card and holiday cards now I can make them better since I have better supply I can't wait. mostly I hand draw them sometime joey help me but now I can do it with other supplies. more cards for you and your family soooo excited!!!!!!! Oh and thank you for the sign me and joey met a man who lives an hour from where you are located he told me how to get to you I thought it was odd cause he started talking to us out of the blue and he going to Mexico next week well for two weeks he said. He was thinking that me and joey was going to cancun I told him no he was wondering why we was going to real Mexico I told him we was visiting my best friend he look shocked he ask if my friend had move to Mexico this made me feel uneasy to me it was too personal Joey said no he is in Heaven. the man said to us you are going to visit your friend down there wow wow that is far. I told him i do not mind the trip. to make long story short Netzai the man told us how to get there we never ask he just gave direction the funny thing is he said that he live an hour away from you Netzai when he said that it had reminded me that the place he was talking about where he live I was planing on buying a house in that area so I can visit you Netzai weird to say but I have decided to see if I can buy a house that is I think 18 minutes away if not that that hour one will have to do another weird story. I ask joey why do people seem shocked when you tell them you are going visiting someone. Joey said maybe he is surprised that you are going all the way down there for your best friend your just loyal sharisse that all. people are not always like that. what type of world do we live in or maybe i AM JUST DIFFERENT but that is you Netzai thank you so much for the sign joey said maybe he is telling you to visit him more often.
Love sharisse I love you Netzai and I do not care what anybody think about me going to see you or that I write to you but i JUST am SOOOOOO IN LOVE WITH YOU AND i DONT CARE AND MY FEELING FOR YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THE SAME AND i LOVE YOU Unconditionally The way I feel is how its going to be forever and ever
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, July 4, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I miss you and love you always!!!!!!!!! I wanted to wish you a happy 4th of July!!!!!!
I hope you see many fireworks in Heaven and please tell my uncle happy 4th of July as well and that I love you both.
LOVE Sharisse I love you Netzai for eternity and forever. You will always be my heart
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Tuesday, June 30, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I just wanted to tell you that I miss and love you always.
love Sharisse
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, June 26, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I love and miss you always. I hope all is well and that you are happy and safe.
I miss you, so much and I always think about you. I know your okay and I know one day I will see you again even though I see you when I dream. I know your around me and will always be around. I am still writing I decided to enter into a writer contest its ends on June 30 2015 lol. I have to write a 40 page paper I will be done soon. i AM GLAD I write it make me feel better. Guess what Netzai my grandma came up from south Carolina. I missed her so much she is 60 years old and look great and beautiful as she is and remain that way her name is ellen not my superviser ellen. my grandma Ellen. I read her a few pages of my book that I am working on she says it different and that she like it. She says one day Netzai I will be with the big writers. I believe her I know one day I will be on New york times Best seller list someday and I hope when I do you will be there to celebrate it will me because I know you will be proud of me you always was and still is . My grandma says she proud of me and always have been and she supports me in anything I do she is like my angel from Heaven she full of wisdom and knowledge she says I have a good heart and that God protects people with Good hearts she says he protects everyone but I have a good heart. I saw my Good friend Donna yesterday lol so funny we talk a bit because she had to catch her bus but she is well still waiting on a job I did help her out gave her a lot of job listing that she would like I hope God bless her soon. As for internship I have nothing good to say about Ellen my internship superviser she just do not like me anymore for what reason I cannot say I just can't I feel like she is trying to get into my skin and i do not know why she just don't like me anymore I told my grandma what is happening and grandma told me to talk to ellen about it she says if that do not work to hold my tongue and smile she says people are just like that she has issues she need to work out. I have never disrespected ellen and I feel she is trying to bring out a negative side to me. why can't never tell you. I keep my distance from her she try to poke at me to get a reaction but I do not give her one just a waste of time to do so. she insulted my clothes even though I dress super nice she trying to pick a fight with me i don't give her one I am glad to say next week is my last day. Joey have invited me to his parents annniversay party again I know his parents don't like me and I do not care at all. They still have not change at all its been years so many years and they remain fake, shady racist,judgmental and ignorant and the list goes on and on they are not good people I don't like them I do not come over to see them and greet them. HOW MANY YEARS I CAANOT EVEN COUNT. I do not trust them. his mother she tried to be slick she wanted joey to put his nursing money in a bank in the Philippines for a condo can you believe she ask him that joey told her no but my guess is she feel that if joey marries me she is not getting any money and her racist behind don't want that. They keep telling him that he does not know what type of women I am and that I just want money are you kidding me how do i want money when joey do not have a job. damn shame I am good person and I do not ask them for anything not one damn thing because I am not like that But if they had gotten to know me they would see that. but I don't care cause the mom is not getting what she wants and I am okay with that. she tries to invite me out and I turn them down all the time. joey is not a nurse yet he pass nursing school Netzai but he need to take another test to get is nursing license. his mother feel that she want half of his money but his money is for our future to buy a house and pay bill and she want half no no no I told him no and he told her no She is not getting half of nothing. Joey family think its funny to joke around about my food allergies and say oh that might have something your allergic to in it. and think its funny I do not think its funny I dislike them so much. Just nothing good from them at all I do not consider them to be my family. and if the mother thinks and she can think that when me and joey have a child of our own that her name is getting picked she can think again our baby name is still and will always be Netzai Nex so she can put those hope rest lolololol
I had a bad hair salon experience Netazi I will tell you another time
Love sharisse I love you Netzai from my heart and always forever I am still coming to Mexico to visit you I am still planning
my grandma says keep learning and always learn so I will be using the Rosetta Stone I got from my uncle to learn to Spanish
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, June 21, 2015
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Hi Netzai I love and miss you always!!!!!! but I guess you already know that by now. I just wanted to wish all the father in the world, living or in spirit Happy beautiful father day from the heart. I also wanted to say Happy Father Day to your dad and my uncle I hope you all have an awesome father day with love, joy and peace.
love sharisse I love you Netzai
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Monday, June 15, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I just wanted to say that I love and miss you. I decided to come and visit you on Thursday.
Love sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, June 13, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I miss and love you always. I had promised that I was going to fill you in on life stuff so here it goes. I deeply miss you everyday all the time and I think about you a lot mostly happy thoughts sometime between thoughts. Life is okay its funny how society views women. You know this guy approached me in Brooklyn and ask me if he could be my friend and to make matters worse try to give me his number. I looked at him like he had to fall 20 feet from a building and hit his head on the floor. I told him no no no no no I do not know how many no can be in the word no buts it was no. First off I told him I have a boyfriend and this clueless man had the nerve to still ask me out. I told him I am not that kind of girl. He said but I did not think that you were and then said never mind and walked away. I looked at him like I do not get down like that I have respect for my self as a women and for men not all men to think that a women can be a all around the way type of girl especially when she not its dumb just dumb and stupid and know this Netzai it was more than one man that approached me Im not having it get out of my face with that BS and move on or out of my way it blows my mind that men can be like that I don't get down like that I don't play that way. I took a little break from writing my book not a long break maybe I need it for a while I been depress lately and I almost did something I regret and I know you know what I done and I don't mean too it just happened my depression almost got the best of me and could have taken my life. I just woke up one morning and decided to try to kill myself I know it was stupid and dumb I almost gave up and and I know that I am stronger than that I just fell short somehow and I am so sorry Netzai and I know you would have been so disappointed in me for even thinking that I know you would have been and I do not want to disappoint you and i KNOW YOU ARE AROUND me. It was weird that day I got up to kill myself the TV was on and this movie was playing and old movie and I remember sitting on the ground crying and writing a letter for my family and I kept on getting distracted by the TV and it keep saying you can do this you can do this don't give up and I thought that was odd and weird but that is what stopped me from doing what I was going to do. I THOUGHT God is around and did not want me to do what I was about to do. maybe I have a purpose here and I have to find it on maybe I am closer than I think for some reason I do I keep getting theses sign to finish writing my book I have to keep going sometime its hard but I have to do it some how. I told Joey I almost did it he was not not happy he watches me now make sure I am alright and talks to me I can't complain what I almost did was not so smart anyway.
I just have to say I am only human yes I can do this and yes I make mistakes but I can get back up I am sorry I really am. I told my sister about it and she had a long long talk with me and than I realized that there is so much more to life that will be happy and bad but you have to make it apart of who you are in order to find yourself and to grow it makes you a stronger person and I am strong I am strong inside and as well as out. I feel better that I had got that out writing to you always makes me feel better inside because I feel like you read my letters and you help Netzai and I am so happy and grateful your around me but for lighter news I almost had an out of body experience and another epic fail. I was on my bed and laying down but I had notice that my mind was awake but my body was asleep and I told myself to get up and I felt my soul turning around and just when I thought that It was working I feel asleep for the most part lol still trying I been doing 30 minutes of yoga i FELT SO GROUNDED SO happy I never felt like that before i felt like I release pained that I carried for a long time not all my pain is not gone completely but its getting there. I had to remind myself that life is worth living I had to remind myself to never feel down I had to remind myself that there is hope and that God is around just talk to him I feel so detached but I beyond 100 percent believe in him but I am detached not from the lord but myself. i had to remind myself that I am happy and humble as I always am and still be. I had to remind my self that I am human and have a good heart. i had to remind self that I CAN DO THIS and not give up. But I feel better I am better I am good. Donna my good friend came over and I missed her she is depressed as well she trying to find a job I had to be strong for her and encourage her that things will be alright so I will help her find a Job and my mom is helping too. but we had a good girls day and I enjoy it lol she is coming to see me on Tuesday we are going shopping together . I was coming to visit you Tuesday Netzai but if not Tuesday than Wednesday I will have to see but I will come by to visit you. what else oh I am still at internship almost over Ellen had seem to change her attitude please don't get me wrong I do like her as a person but I get a weird feeling around her and I trust my feeling when it come to people. She is sneaky and deceptive and I just can't bring myself to trust her fully she changed she is no longer nice ellen more mean got to watch your back ellen. she did things to me that I did not like i am not sure if she thinks I am stuck up but when she ask me about my life or whats new I keep my answer short very short and keep my face straight I don't trust her Hmmmmmmmmm
Love Sharisse I love you Netzai I always have and always will
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Tuesday, June 9, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I love and miss you always. I just wanted to tell you that I always love you from my heart and that you will always be the love of my life and best friend. Sorry for not writing life has gotten in the way but I have not forgot to write to you . I will fill you in I promise
Love sharisse
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Sharisse lit a candle
Tuesday, June 9, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I love and miss you always. I just wanted to tell you that I always love you from my heart and that you will always be the love of my life and my best friend.
Love sharisse
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, May 30, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I love and miss you always. I just wanted to to tell you that I love you
Love Sharisse
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sharisse lit a candle
Saturday, May 30, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I love and miss you always, This is new light a candle so cute
I just wanted to to tell you that I love you
Love Sharisse
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Wednesday, May 27, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I love and miss you always. I wanted to thank you for coming to visit me in a dream. You know what is funny is that I felt someone sitting in my bed yesterday and than I saw you in a dream. God you look so handsome and healthy. I am glad you are okay and well. I always been so in love with you and still is. Thank you and tell my uncle I said thank you as well. yes there was things I was behind in and pay no attention to and things I have forgotten about. When you came in a dream to me you said that your dad was not talking to your brother at all. I did not understand at all. I told joey my dream about you and Joey said maybe you were trying to tell me about realization of something. At first it did not click than I understood what you were trying to tell me. Even though we come from different situation I realized you were telling me not to make my relationship between my mom and me bad or have her not talk to me. I understood from than on what you were saying. you were telling me Sharisse realize what you are doing to your mom. now do not get me wrong me and my mom have a good relationship and I want to keep it that way. I realized that I needed to stop spending my money even though she support me. I know she would be mad at me and stop talking to me if she knew that I was spending too much money and I don't want to make her sad or angry at me at all. I love my mom to death and I like her to be happy. Thank you so much because I will stop spending yes I did spend on things that I did not need and because of my depression. so Yes Netzai I will stop spending money lol I see that you and my uncle are watching over me and I love you both very much so much. i am grateful to have such wonderful men in my life.
love sharisse oh yes lol guess what I got an A- on my internship lol and I did good on my other classes as well. guess what I did not pass my math test or class even though I study. Don't worry Netzai I have not given up I will pass and try again.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, Netzai and tell my uncle I love him too.
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, May 23, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I love and miss you always. I just wanted to tell you that I love you so much. I wanted to ask where you in my room yesterday and the day before? Did you come by to visit me. I felt someone sitting on my bed like getting in the bed then getting off and back in when i was sleeping. They kept moving around but when I got up no one was there but I felt someone was there was that you Netzai or was it my uncle did you guys come by to visit me. My heart rate was beating fast you want to know something Netzai i sense one of you I believe sitting beside me on the bed I felt you moving around. lol I guess you was trying to get comfortable sorry for too much stuff on my bed.
PS. I am still waiting on a letter here and have not recieved one lol my mailbox is empty lol. Please tell the Heavenly post office I am sorry for so much letters.
love sharisse By the way I am still working on my book I wrote today in it
I love you Netzai always and forever I hope your well and happy
write to me soon
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, May 17, 2015
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hiiii Netzai, my love, I love and miss you as always. I am sorry for not writing I been busy but I have not forgotten about you. I really miss you Netzai but you probably know that by now. I think about you a lot everyday all the time. I can not help it maybe its because I love you so much. I always think about how do I go on from this and are there any ways around it.The answer to that is time maybe time will tell. I know your with me in spirit. If i let myself I can feel you around me even when I sleep I know your there. I guess I'm scared i do not think i am living out my full potiental please do not get mad at me for that. i am a little stuck for now. I am still learning as I grow. you know what I want to become someone who is not only successful but is spiritual balance. I have not mediated for a while i need to. I think I am spiritual empty and I know God is there and he around but I FEEL LOST now I FEEL LIKE I AM never happy with things that I buy or want they seem to drain me. I THINK i am going to read the bible today.
tomorrow I have a math test my mom got me a tutor for math I saw him today he was a really nice gentlemen he took his time to explain to me about the math even when i got the answer wrong he did not get mad at me. I am grateful for my mom lol she is something else but i love her
guess what Netzai Ellen gave me 150 hours now look i did not complete all 150 hours but she sign the sheets anyway. she told me to come back and complete the hour i AM TRULY GRATEFUL FOR Her. guess what if I did not complete my 150 hours I would have to take it in the summer course and not graduate but she gave me the hours anyway. I was shocked and appreciative. I will come back to do my hours i been doing that now God is truly amazing isn't that great. I have a math test please be with me on that day to calm my nerves and guild me Netzai and bring my uncle too. tell him I said thank you for visiting me in a dream lol and that I love you both very much tell him he is still dressing sharp lolololol
Love sharisse I love you soooooooooo much Netzai I hope your fine, well and safe a nd happy and healthy.
love you for all eternity
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, May 10, 2015
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Hi Netzai my love I love you and miss you as always. I am sorry to have to vent like this but I am so unset. I went to your store on Tuesday to give flowers to your dad for you and your mom okay but your dad was not their. So the younger lady that was there told me he will be back on Sunday a part of me knew she was lying but I did not say anything. so the flower got old so I bought new ones on Sunday and I went to visit the store again. and there was an older lady and the younger lady the older lady was so rude and not nice I ask for your dad and she told no NO in a nasty tone so I ask the younger lady I saw Saturday and she said no try Monday and she had a smirk on her face like she found it to be funny that I came there twice with flowers I felt so humililated because she knew she knew your dad was not going to be there she knew, they were very rude people. I got so mad I gave the flowers to them to give to your dad I felt crying. I DO NOT WANT TO GO BACK THERE AGAIN. I am sorry Netzai you had to hear this. for not on I will give flower to joey to give to your dad to give at the store for you. just mean I would not be surprised if they gave your father the flowers and tore or damage them up or never gave it at all
love sharisse
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, May 10, 2015
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Hi Netzai my love I love you and miss you as always. I am sorry to have to vent like this but I am so unset. I went to your store on Saturday to give flowers to your dad for you and your mom okay but your dad was not their. So the younger lady that was there told me he will be back on Sunday a part of me knew she was lying but I did not say anything. so the flower got old so I bought new ones on Sunday and I went to visit the store again. and there was an older lady and the younger lady the older lady was so rude and not nice I ask for your dad and she told no NO in a nasty tone so I ask the younger lady I saw Saturday and she said no try Monday and she had a smirk on her face like she found it to be funny that I came there twice with flowers I felt so humililated because she knew she knew your dad was not going to be there she knew, they were very rude people. I got so mad I gave the flowers to them to give to your dad I felt crying. I DO NOT WANT TO GO BACK THERE AGAIN. I am sorry Netzai you had to hear this. for not on I will give flower to joey to give to your dad to give at the store for you. just mean
love sharisse
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Wednesday, May 6, 2015
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Happy Anniversary Netzai, I love you always and forever. I could say a lot of wonderful things about you that I got to know and loved. I want to keep it short and simply if there is such a thing. You were the most amazing, smart, intelligent and optimistic man I have ever met. I could say so much about you. you are truly a gift as well as blessing to this world. When you return to Heaven I am sure that God was truly proud of you and your accomplishments. You left everyone with a smile, love, thank you and a warm hug. You always spoke well and showed others to do the right thing.
you changed me when I met you and you showed me unconditional love and taught me how to love when I did not love myself. I fell so in love with you as you was with me. You was the best things that happened to me and I was truly blessed to have met you.
Happy Anniversary I wish you well and lots and comfort with God and Heavens and his eternal grace and home be filled.
Love sharisse I love you Netzai, I always have and always will
I got you flowers I hope you get them in Heaven
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, May 3, 2015
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There is still hope if you keep your eyes and heart open to the signs around you.
love sharisse
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, May 3, 2015
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Hi Netzai, my love, I miss and love you always. omg guess what I had to write this. I will keep it short and belief lol due to my excessive letters. Guess what my brother surprising brought me a Mexican t shirt it says Mexcio. I was so surprised, he told me it was the last one he seen at the store. He said to him self I know sharisse would love this. I love the shirt so much and again I want to thank you for another Mexcan coin i have 12 now. I believe this is a sign from you and I am in love. I been looking at houses in Mexico I see probably 4 places that are close to where you are located. I am looking at San Miguel Amatitlán, Oax., Mexico but it is two hour drive to where you are located but I found Izúcar de Matamoros, Puebla, Mexico hour drive. I actually like the houses in Tehuitzingo, Pue., Mexico it takes 33 minutes to get to you. I found others cites that are closer to you but I will see. I am putting out positive affirmation into the universe. I believe I will be in see you Mexico in 3 years or less I believe this is sign that I will be in Mexico
Love sharisse I love you Netzai always and forever in mind, spirit, soul and in Gods love as well as mine, you will always be apart of me as you are spiritual already
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, May 2, 2015
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Hi Netzai, my love I love and miss you aways. I hope your fine and happy and safe. I know Heaven must be really spiritually embody. I miss you and of course you probably know that. I am stressed a bit, but who is not theses days. I am studying math, I remember how good you were at math Netzai, you were teaching me. I am thankful for those moments we shared together, they make me smile all the time. I know your with me and around and thank you for the Mexican quarter I have 11 in total lol. I believe you hear me complaining in Heaven lololol. I found out where Vanessa move to she move to the Bronx. Thank God she not far she got her own apartment Netzai. I have to get her a house warming gift I am happy for her. she deserved it. I am still at internship I have 2 weeks left but I am still going to continue to come even though my internship will be over. I love spending time with Ellen and she love spending time with me. I guess I would not change it for anything in the world. I have not worked on writing my book. I know Netzai get to it sharisse you would say. I been studying math is hell but I am getting better. I will work the book later. I am coming to visit you on the 5 of may or the 4 of may. but the way have a lot of stories to tell you but later I love you Netzai aways
Love sharisse by the way thank you for the dream yes get back into work mode. I love you from my heart
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, April 23, 2015
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Hi Netzai, I miss you and love you always, I hope all is well, and that you are having a good time in Heaven. I bet you see a breath taking view of God world. Please write to me and let me know that your fine. My mail come regularly and I still have not received a letter yet. Please write soon, I miss seeing your hand writing. As for me I been busy with studying and letting go of bad habits. I been at internship for about 8 weeks now, its almost ending soon, somewhere in May. Ellen is wonderful she had to go to Georgia for a week she said her aunt had pass away. Ellen had to go to the funeral she said her aunt had so many kids I believe ten in total. Ellen returned next week she did call to see how things were going. Ellen than invited me to an event with another intern name Anthony, Denice could not make it by the way she Mexican Netzai me and her get along very well. The event was nice and warm there was so many people. I did get to take pictures there and enjoy myself. There was one problem an older lady name Mattie, did not want me to take her picture even though they were all for the event. When Mattie first met me she gave me a pound lmaooooooooo. Then when she got to know me she hugged and shook my hand. Anyway she did allow me to take her photo after I kindly explained to her that they were for the event. she told me stories about how someone she knew took her photo without her knowledge of knowing and send it to her through email. I met another lady ahem Toya, which I love Toya is miss things over there, but we got along well like we knew each other for years. Ellen told me not to bother with Neia, she always like that. There was another lady name Mattie, she rub me the wrong way she decided to promote her retirement party at the event I did not like that. Guess what Netzai, Mattie was charging 48 dollar donation at the door for her part and than wanted to charge 10 dollars for kids. She had ask me if she should charged 10 dollars for kids. I told her no they are kids a parents is not going to pay no 10 dollars for there kids for a party, to me that is money that have to feed their families or pay bills. When she told me that I found it to be absurd. I enjoy myself though. My picture taking skill need a bit improvement I had good picture taking skill and bad. I will improve over time of trial and error. I started working on writing my book Netzai, Hopefully when I am done I will be on NewYork Times Best Seller List. I lets hope a publishing company would like it I wrote it differently so lets see. I been studying a lot lately. The weather is getting warmer. I did explore more of Brooklyn I went to different stores and walk around. I am still planning on going to Mexico to visit you. I need to learn more Spanish or better improve. I got the Rosette Stone for Spanish, from my Uncle who you probably see in Heaven. I have not use it yet but I will. I can not go to Mexico and not speck Spanish.
I remember when you tried to teach me Spanish Netzai, I remember you saying what do you want to learn. I should have spoken more with you. I have to draw a picture soon hopefully it come out good.
Love sharisse, Netzai, please write soon to me. I believe letter in Heaven must take years to be deliver to human world. Tell the post office in Heaven I am sorry for sending so much letters , they probably know who I am by now lmaooooooo.
I love you so much Netzai
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, April 18, 2015
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Hey Netzai, I miss you and love you as always. I wanted to tell you if you remember Best friend nessa she had moved, I have to find out where. I hope not far she remembers you Netzai and she has not forgotten about you. I remember when you and her talked on he phone. She liked you too thought you we were a perfect fit for each other . I remember she used to call you zingbing lmaoooo cause she could not remember your name. She and I met your dad in the store once but that was back in 2013 when she still was living in yonkers. I feel sad I always had thought that when nessa had left I would leave too. I wanted to move to Atlanta than Los Angeles. Now I am not sure anymore . I am not sure if I want too. I am not sure if I want to move in with Joey cause I don't even if we became stable in life. I like my own space. I miss you Netzai I miss all the things that we were suppose to do and all the things that We will never get to do with each other. I miss everything I miss you holding my hand when crossing the street. I miss our little arguments even though there was nothing to argue about. I miss you sucking your teeth at me when you get mad.i miss you smiling at me when you see me. I miss you saying I miss you sharisse. I miss you saying I love you or talking about kids and marriage or our future together. I miss you holding me and looking at me and smiling. I miss our conversation and I miss coming to visit you and you would be outside.
I miss your pinky promises and handshakes. I miss you dancing with me. I miss our corny jokes.
I miss you looking nervous when you did not know what to say to me. I miss you rubbing your nose on mine. I miss your notes we past in class. I miss writing letter to you I hope you have them. I miss you touching my hair and pulling me close to you.. I miss you laying your head on my shoulder and let me brush your hair with my hands. I miss us being protective of another. I miss you saying to me sharisse you miss me. I miss you you standing by me and never complaining even though I did other things. I miss our talks and how you stare I miss your hand writing the most I wish I could see your hand again. I wish I could see the notes we past to each other in class. I miss the little movies I would give you to watch and the book to read. I hope you read the last apprentice book I gave you and never got back loll loll, I miss giving you drawing I hope you have the drawing that I gave you with your name in graffiti writing I hope you still have that . I miss the smell of you. I miss you always trying to make things better between us.
You know what is strange speaking of smell Netzai did you come by to visit me? For some odd reason I ask you to give me a sign that your around me. I woke one morning to a Cologne smell in my room. I know that Joey cologne do not smell like that, it smell like you Netzai but I could not tell. I kept smelling it all in my room. Than Joey came by and I said to him can you smell that he said smell what I said that cologne can smell. Joey started sniffing he said yeah I said that smell.I told him I smell it in the morning when I woke up. He said it's not me, I said no you do not where that type of cologne. The smell lingered by my bed Netzai like you were standing right next to me. I said Joey do you smell that he said yeah it smell sweet a man cologne. Yeah I though at first it was my uncle who past but I know my uncle cologne smell and he do come by to visit me cause his cologne scent I could smell. But this cologne I smelled it smell like you Netzai it's smelled like you even Joey said that could be you letting me know you came by to visit me. I could not help but smile awww I know you love me still
Love sharisse I love you Netzai see you in May
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, April 18, 2015
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Hey Netzai, I miss you and love you as always. I wanted to tell you if you remember Best friend nessa she had moved, I have to find out where. I hope not far she remembers you Netzai and she has not forgotten about it. I remember when you and her talked on he phone. She liked you too thought you were a perfect fit for each other . I remember she used to call you zingbing lmaoooo cause she could not remember you name. She and I met your dad in the store once but that was back in 2013 when she still lived in yonkers. I feel sad I always had thought that when nessa had left I would leave too. I wanted to move to Atlanta than Los Angeles. Now I am not sure anymore . I am not sure if I want too. I am not sure if I want to move in with Joey cause I don't even if we became stable in life. I like my own space. I miss you Netzai I miss all the things that we were suppose to do and all the things that We will never get to do with each other. I miss everything I miss you holding my hand when crossing the street. I miss our little arguments even though they were oohing to argue about. I miss you sucking your teeth at me when you get mad.i miss you smiling at me when you see me. I miss you saying I miss you sharisse. I miss you saying I love you or talking about kids and marriage or our future together. I miss you holding me and looking at me and smiling. I miss our conversation and I miss coming to visit you and you would be outside.
I miss your pinky promises and handshakes. I miss you dancing with me. I miss our corny jokes.
I miss you looking nervous when you did not know what to say to me. I miss you rubbing your nose on mine. I miss your notes we past in class. I miss writing letter to you I hope you have them. I miss you touching my hair and pulling me close to you.. I miss you laying your head on my shoulder and let me brush your hair with my hands. I miss us being protective of another. I miss you saying to me sharisse you miss me. I miss you you standing by me and never complaining even though I did other things. I miss our talks and how you stare I miss your hand writing the most I wish I could see your hand again. I wish I could see the notes we past to each other in class. I miss the little movies I would give you to watch and the book to read. I hope you read the last apprentice book I gave you and never got back loll loll, I miss giving you drawing I hope you have the drawing that I gave you with your name in graffiti writing I hope you still have that . I miss the smell of you.
You know what is strange speaking of smell Netzai did you come by to visit me? For some odd reason I ask you to give me a sign that your around me. I woke one morning to a Cologne smell in my room. I know that Joey cologne do not smell like that, it smell like you Netzai but I could not tell. I kept smelling it all in my room. Than Joey came by and I said to him can you smell that he said smell what I said that cologne can smell. Joey started sniffing he said yeah I said that smell.I told him I smell it in the morning when I woke up. He said it's not me, I said no you do not where that type of cologne. The smell lingered by my bed Netzai like you were standing right next to me. I said Joey do you smell that he said yeah it smell sweet a man cologne. Yeah I though at first it was my uncle who past but I know my uncle cologne smell and he do come by to visit me cause his cologne scent I could smell. But this cologne I smelled it smell like you Netzai it's smelled like you even Joey said that could be you letting me know you came by to visit me. I could not help but smile awww I know you love me still
Love sharisse I love you Netzai see you in May
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, April 16, 2015
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Hi Netzai , I miss and love you always. I hope all is fine and well in Heaven. I hope your happy and smiling a lot. I miss you so much and I still love you as I always do. I do enjoy your lovely visit in my dreams. I am sorry if I can not respond to you, sometimes I am just shocked to see you. god you are so handsome. I miss you. I been studying in school for math I actually like it. I guess because I study and I understand it. I had a hard time with fraction but today I finally got it. I am so proud of myself Netzai. I know you would have been proud of me too. Guess what I know how to get to Mexico to where you are located my bother best friend Jose is from Mexico. He goes there every now and again. I don't know if you remember Jose my brother best friend but he told me how to get to where you are. I need to take a plan there he said that if I drive it would take me days to get to you more like 3 to 5 days. He told me to take a plan and guess what he always said that I could buy a house down there too. I am happy about that I am looking forward to that .
I love you always Netzai
Oh yeah I saw some of our old friends from high school well acquaintances lol
Love sharisse I love you Netzai see you in May
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, April 9, 2015
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Hi Netzai, my love, I love and miss you always. I am sorry for not writing you , I have not forgot. I hope all is well and that your safe and okay. I hope you are happy and healthy in Heaven. I misss you all the time. Thank you for visiting me in a dream again I saw that you were smiling at me you always smile at me. I am glad you got my letter in Heaven you look very handsome Netzai, you always do. I got my mom her mother day gift early I pretty sure she will love it. I got it for a good buy. I am still on spring vacation and studying for math. I still go to my internship I love it. Netzai Ellen is so sweet and funny. I got to meet her brother who is a twin of another twin. Her brother that is a twin is funny and down to earth. Did you know Ellen and her brother go to boot camp for fitness I thought that was cute and funny. You know the drill Sgt. Ask the brother what taste sweet and apple or a banana her twin replied an apple and the Sgt. Said you never had a banana hey get down and give five push up. Lmaoooooooo then Ellen ask me the same question which is sweeter apple or banana . I replied an Apple Ellen said omg you would have had us do 50 push-ups in fitness Boot Camp lmaoooo Ellen said oh I would have been looking at both of you referring to me and her brother she said that laughing. Ellen is real fun Netzai did I tell you she has the same name as my grandma's who name is Ellen she's from the south as well as my grandma lol. Internship supervisor Who would go Unnamed assistant had the nerve to email me again. Looks like My old supervisor had deleted all of my emails that had her template inside and wants me to resend her the file. Does she think I'm that stupid. No you're going to go and work hard as I did and do those files over yourself. I'm not giving them to her because I deleted them I do have them on my tablet but I'm not doing it she has the original template and she will sit there with her other three interns and work on them and fix them herself. She realized that she needs my work my work that I did to work hard on I throw the message In the trash because I have no time to deal with her, sorry I'm not doing it she treat people bad you with deal with her own consequences and maybe this is God way of letting her learn Glad that she deleted all of my work because now you're asking for my work back nice you're not getting it do it on your own bye. I hope I'm not being too negative right now I just venting I don't feel bad Netzai, I am a good women. Other than that all is well I am thinking about writing a book I want to get a published someday other then that all is well
Love sharisse I always love you Netzai and always will my iPad dying I just wanted to tell you that I am thinking of you
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, April 2, 2015
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Hi Netzai, my love, I love and miss you always. I hope your fine and well Netzai . I hope you are smiling and having a good time in Heaven. I wanted to thank you for visiting me in a dream. I know you hear me and I wanted to thank you for coming I did not expect that or the little surprise from school. yes it did remind me of you! I always think your busy in Heaven but I am glad to know you still spend time in spirit with me and that I appreciate from my heart. I am okay I am on spring break now for a week. I should be relaxing but I can't I need to study and to be honest I been a bit lazy. I been at my internship for three weeks and still enjoy it. My supervisor is like a mom to me. She is so nice, loving, and warm. She is in her 50 Netzai she does not even look like it. I hope to grow up like her someday she a strong women. I hope to be like that very strong and daring like she is to me. I got mad on Friday my internship supervisor was not there yet we had to hand in the term paper. I was not mad more like annoyed. I decided to email her 8 times the term paper so she would not say it was late. She emailed me back saying Sharisse I got your 6 plus emails. I laugh about this well she should have been there Friday. I explored Brooklyn for a short bit its really big and nice. I am looking forward to going to the thrift shop and salvation army good buy good find lol. I decided not to go to the 14 churches with joey family. I do not want to go his family they make me feel uncomfortable and unwanted. I notice joey want me to be around his family but I cannot. They are mean people who say they are good.I prefer to keep my distance for my emotional welling being sake. I am thinking of getting a yellow snake they are called a ball python they do not bite. I love reptiles so that my present to me when I graduate. I am still going to visit you in Mexico Netzai hopefully in 3 to 4 years I am planning on going. I want to buy a house down there so I can visit more often. I remember asking you Netzai, if we could get a snake? and if you were afraid of snakes? I remember you telling me yes we could get one and no you were not afraid of snakes. I laugh cause I thought you were. I was like we will see.
love sharisse I love you Netzai and will always love you!
ps please write soon my mailbox is pretty full but I do not see mail from you still looking.I am started to think your mailbox in Heaven might be over filled from my letters, hopefully the post office in Heaven is not complaining.
I love you will visit in may
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, March 27, 2015
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Hi Netzai, my love, I miss you and love you always. I am sorry for writing late the time is 12:04 pm. I am doing my term paper I was telling you about. I waited to the last minute to to do it. i got back up again and honestly specking a little lazy. I am almost finish with the paper. I got two more things to write about. I am overall happy with my paper it sound great. Guess what? my old supervisor emailed me. Remember the lady I was telling you about, the one I was interning for. She email me I did not even take the time to look at her message and throw it in the trash file in my gmail account. Just a waste of time trying to explain to someone who clearly do not get the memo. if I left and your other intern left before me, what does that mean? Clearly intern are not the problem so to speck. I am sorry for being negative a little. anyway I just wanted to tell you how much I love and miss you. I hopes its nice where you are and that your safe.
love sharisse
ps I guess the heart fill more with love maybe its contagous or maybe its God way of saying grow just grow
love you see you in may
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Tuesday, March 24, 2015
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Hiiiiiiiiii Netzai, my love I love you and miss you as always, I hope all is well and I hope your laughing and smiling. I hope your having a good time with God and my uncle and my pet rats. School almost over I can't believe it. Brooklyn is so nice and not as bad as some people mighty think it is, an experience I will never forget. Netzai my supervisor so wonder and sweet and funny and down to earth. I am glad I choose this internship and did not pass it up. I learned a lot about community and cultures and people. It amazed me on how much the world do not know a lot of knowledge about there own culture or others and to learn that made me what to do something to help the Community and empower people and women to be productive with their lives and make a difference and make a change even if it's a one person life it still helps. I found that the Brooklyn support people will try to do positive things for the community and I found that to be amazing because not many people are for good causes believe it or not people you know be too involved with their own lives to worry about what goes on in the community. people forget is that if your community is bad then everything is bad I mean not everything but the majority of stuff will go wrong. Anyway it inspired me to write again I also brought two drawing books that I have not drawn in I'm slacking I will get to it someday anyway I just found out that a lot of students do not like my intern professor both of them both and one is a guy and one is a women none of the student s do not have nothing good to say about both of them one is just exactly as worse as the other one. Like like none of them help any of the students they both have mean attitude and is so inconsiderate to other student situation. And I know things in life can happen and everybody is not a perfect book , but for you to sit there and try to belittle another student I just I find that to be so unprofessional just because you're in a higher position you must treat others bad it's ridiculous I don't know where to begin I really don't I have experience some of their rudeness in my opinion the world is corrupt by money and the world is corrupt by nasty ass higher position people did I mention politics too.I just can't do it anyway sorry for being a little negative I needed to vent a little Netzai,
So I end this with a memory I remember when we got spiritually married. I remember I asked you if you were going to marry me and you reply yes. I said then how are you going to propose to me and I remember you got down on one knee. And even though the floor was dirty and you had clean pants on you still got down on one knee. And you said Sharisse will you marry me. And I do not know I do not know jokingly And I was like okay yes I would marry you Netzai. and you got up and you held my hand and I was like okay we are going to get married. And I remember you gave me this weird look like you did not have what I was talking about . So I was like I would be the preacher and Bride. That's like a weird combination by the way and I started to recite the lines of marriage I was forgetting some of them. But you still stayed and held my hand and then I asked you Netzai do you take me to be your wife and you said yes not even I do it was yes and I said I take you to be my husband and I said I do and then we kissed I laugh because you was with me and you never left my Side I am and will always be grateful and happy you was with me and even though I would have love to married such a wonderful man. I want you to know I still would marry you. I just remember me saying to you Netzai I want to have both our families at the wedding and I was like are you going to marry me in front of a preacher with both our families there and you said yes Sharisse yes I do. I find it funny because I propose to you first who says a woman can't propose to a man. I cannot believe I summed up the courage to propose to you first I laugh about it to this day.
Love sharisse I always love you no matter how far you are I will still love you unconditionally from my heart and soul and my entire being. I still love you and I know you love me too.
Ps I am still waiting on my letfer from you Netzai, I hope it get here soon. I guess there is one post office in Heaven. Please send me one soon
See you in may I love you
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Wednesday, March 18, 2015
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Hi Netzai, my love , I miss and love you always. I hope your well Netzai and I hope your happy and safe. I hope your smiling and laughing and enjoying yourself up in Heaven. I miss you so much Netzai. I left my internship and found a new one. Guess where Netzai? in Brooklyn. It's my first time traveling there it's Also my first time taking the A train. I like it it's cheap down there I guess in certain parts. I love my internship in Brooklyn. The people there is so nice and friendly not mean. My internship supervisor is so wonderful and so peaceful so positive so spiritual. She even like the color purple. I like the color lavender. We have a lot in common she shares things about stuff she likes and I share things about stuff I like. My new supervisor is calm she asks me how I'm doing and she is very collective and laid-back not like my old supervisor. I prayed for God to give me a sign if this was the right internship I should have stayed at. Netzai my new internship supervisor is very positive and that's a good quality I look for. She also has a sense of humor and she's funny and she's weird like me. I don't even feel out of place I feel like I feel like I connect and fit in. Netzai guess what? I got a new Guadalupe Statue it's huge. and even lights up and than received another small statue of a man giving her flowers she's so pretty. Now I have three statues a large medium and a small. Leaving my internship taught me to grow up and move around not every company, place, people is going to be the one . So the point of moving around is to find what works. I am having a good time Netzai. Thank you
Love sharisse I love you Netzai I will write more. Thank you for visiting me I know your around me and that you still love me
I will come by to visit you in may I love you Netzai
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, March 14, 2015
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Hi Netzai, my love I love and miss you as always as always. I hope your well and having a good time. Sorry for writing late I been busy. I change my mind about my internship Netzai, I hate it I really do. My internship supervisor is a nightmare. She is very rude and do not know how to talk to me people specially her interns. By the way she have received a negative email from volunteers that have work for her. Saying they will never work with her again. Indesign is a program that does many thing from logo to designing your own template. This woman when I first met her knew that I did not know Indesign well enough, yes I have the experience using indesign the program myself but not well enough to know how the program worked. And I don't mind learning how to operate a program but don't try to make me look like I'm dumb because I'm not. She made me redo her template logo over so many times that it wasn't funny and she tried to make up stuff and say that my work was sloppy when it really wasn't. Because one time she called me and congratulated me on doing a good job on the templates and then five minutes later she called me again and says my work was sloppy how do you go from congratulating me to saying that my work was sloppy. Then she made me redo her logos over I can't even say how many times.I made sure that they were the same exact size and that I took out the white background because her logo had a white background and I took it out and copied and paste which makes them the same size.I send it to her through email and she returns my email back talking about oh are you sure out of 28 slides you know she picks 11 and 25 as one of the best logos and what's funny about that is because they are all the the same size and she basically said to me are you sure rest of the template is the same size. So I emailed her back and said I don't see any problems with the template all of them are basically the same size because I copied and paste all of the logos in the same location. I felt like she was trying to nitpick on things that didn't make sense because there's nothing wrong with the slides so I told her I will take your PDF to my internship professor and have her take a look at it. And I'll let you know if something is wrong with it after that she never emailed me anything back about the templates. I knew that she was like trying to run some type of game on me or I don't know what was wrong with her but she seriously had some severe problems internal problems anyway I showed my internship professor the template and she said that they all look the same size so what is she complaining about. I don't know why I can't tell you I'm leaving the internship I knew when I walked in and met her that I had this weird feeling and it bothered me and then I did not know why. I felt uncomfortable in her presence because she is been total BS. She says that she's a positive person and ever since I've been at the internship she been nothing but negative and I felt like she tried to make me turn negative because she was negative I'm not a negative person and I feel like she was trying to escalate an argument towards me becoming one. I feel like she try to lower down my self-esteem and make me look like I was less of a person. I got an interview on Tuesday and this internship is in Brooklyn I'm pretty excited about that because after I got my second internship I got like other ones and I'm pretty happy. I'm leaving the internship I take back my words saying that I would stay you know what's funny she had 12 interns and out of 12 she's only left with five and now she's about to be left with four. yep Netzai, seven left cause of how she treated her interns that is just messed up I feel like this internship was a total joke and a waste of time. Not to mention she lied to me she's going to sit there and tell me that if I cannot do the indesign program work that Deanna can do the work because Deanna is good at indesign come to find out Deanna shows up on Wednesday and don't know how to do in design and is asking me the person who supposedly don't know in design how do you do in design. I am teaching Deanna to do indesign when she supposed to know. And you know what's funny while some of the girls gave up doing the assignment she ask them to do because it was too hard I on the other hand stuck with the entity assignment and never gave up. I'm sorry Netzai she's just she's just very Nasty and rude and a lier. She is just a thorn in her own ass like she has two thorns of both her her ass and she needs to take a class on learning how to talk to others and being compassionate towards others because people are not going to want to be around you if your like that an example would be why all seven out of 12 interns had left and the rude emails that she received from volunteers how sad. And here's the funny thing she says that she's going to write a tell on about celebrities that have done something wrong to her well obviously she haven't got the memo that she's a rude woman and nobody's gonna like you or is going to want to do business with you she's 44 years old and is not married due to her attitude toward some men herself and her intern. Did you know that she accused me of changing the picture on her indesign template which I didn't and I tried to explain to her and she said that I did and I was like no I didn't then she tried to say that on page 4 of her templates that it had a signature at the bottom and that I should send her the signature I replied back you never had a signature at the bottom of it I felt like she was trying to pick an argument because she knew she was in the wrong. I'm sorry if it sounds negative Netzai but I just needed to vent. Anyway school is going good and I got my papers handed in on time I have to do a 4 to 7 page essay which I will get to this week and study for my math but everything is fine stressed out what's important is I can manage.
Love sharisse I love you Netzai I hope you come bye again and visit me in a dream we were talking about interracial couples in class and it reminded me of our relationship so that was pretty nice to reflect on. It just reminded me of how much you accepted me even though I wasn't Mexican and how much you still love me even though I was a different race it also reminded me of how much you wasn't ashamed to be seen with me in public when you used to hold hands or used to kiss me and it just goes to show you how much you adore and love me the way that I love you
Sorry if I make mistakes in my writing its because I'm typing on the iPad
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Tuesday, March 10, 2015
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Hi Netzai, my love I love and miss you as always. I miss you so much Netzai and sorry for writing so late again. How are you? I hope all is well! It's a hard job to manage school, internship , life but each part of our own Individual life we learn something which connect with something else. I been at my internship for 4 days now I like it not so much but I like it enough to stay . I am only there for 3 months it's crazy how time goes by fast in including the days. I have not meditated yet I will soon. So guess what Netzai a girl in my English copied my presentation I mean everything I did and said she did the exact thing. I don't know if I should be mad or take it as a complement. I mean she even used my photo that I used. I mean our English presentation was supposed to be creative it was something that we were supposed to make as our own not copied. My professor called my presentation a moving Presentation I guess he really like mines. Netzai my hair you know how sentimental I am about my hair my hair has gotten longer I straightened it in February and it's up to my bra now can you believe it. My goal is to be at waist length by August I put my hair back up and twist again. I remember how you use to touch my hair Netzai so many memories. I have a six page paper to write I have a 4 to 7 page paper to write I also have to write 3 page paper. yeah a whole lot and then on top of of that study for math. I finish my selena book very well written book I recommend that you read it in Heaven Netzai . I thinking about going back into writing and drawing again. It seem to me I put both asides.
By the way Selena movie came on yesterday somehow I believe you were next to me watching it with me
Love Sharisse ps I love you always and forever Netzai Please tell my unable he need to visit me in a dream please Netzai thank you
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sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, February 27, 2015
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Hi Netzai, my love I miss and love you as always. I am sorry for not writing school has taken me for a long ride. I did not forget to write to you. I miss you so much and I know your not here physically but spiritually you are still here. Thank you for visiting me in a dream again. I believe you got my letter in Heaven. yes Netzai you still look handsome. I know what you were trying to tell me. I do need to love myself a bit more than I do. Honestly I forget too I forget a lot things. maybe I need to except things that I cannot change. I constantly look for answers and I constantly asking questions. I guess I am just not trusting myself more. I know I am strong women but their are times I fall. sometimes I feel like I cannot express myself the way I want too and maybe that is what holding me back from trying. I know Netzai I know I will do better next time. I have a oral presentation tomorrow and I do not know how I feel about it. parts of me want to run and scream down the hall and pull my hair out. than another part is just calm and relaxed. I will see how it goes I hope you come and watch me give my little speech. my internship did not go as well as planned. I guess intern themselves can be childish. I do not know what to say I was not excited about it in the first place and look what happened I got to talk to a childish intern again sad. I got another email for internship company this one I feel happy about. I will let you know how it goes. I have so much to tell you Netzai but I know you hear me when I speck to you .
love Sharisse I love you netzai and I hope all is well on the other side thank you for coming again.
by the way the Selena movie came on again and I know for some reason you were there watching it with me.
I always love you from my heart netzai till the end of time and a new beginning of life. my heart will always love and care for you the same way you loved and care for me.
you will always be my one and only true love and my heart
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, February 26, 2015
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Hi Netzai my love, I miss you and love you always. I just wanted to tell you that even though you heard me say it a thousand times. I miss you so much and will always love you forever.
Love sharisse,
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Wednesday, February 18, 2015
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Hi Netzai, my love , how are you? I hope all is well and fine. I love and miss you everyday. Words just cant explain how much I do. I am a bit stressed not a lot I am trying to not let it get to me. I feel trapped sometimes. It's one me of those Trapped feeling where you just wanna dive into the water jumping off a mountain and not think about anything except being free. Am I wrong to say how I feel. I got an email about my internship from a company not sure if I would get it or not. I am trying not to think about it so much but I need an internship. I guess I have to think positive about this one, I hope all goes well. I got my Buddha statue it's a medium size one all white with two small butterfly's so pretty and lovely. I am cleaning my room again as I am writing to you. Joey wants me to spend time with him and his family but I don't want to. Netzai I know they do not like me because I am not filipino . I find them too be negative, shady, judgmental and mean and racist. They never got a chance to know me. I won't spend time with them you know what's funny Netzai, I only see his family two times every year. These two occasion are Christmas and New Years how sad is that.i don't wanna come but Joey says I should cause if it was up to me I rather spend time alone are with my family. I don't like his mom she does not like me but I do not care. Joey can be naïve at times and I cant deal when it come to his family. I tend to keep my distance been doing that for four years, again how sad is that. I have to study for my math and read some chapters. I miss talking to you Netzai, you would be make me feel better all the time. I can't talk to Joey as much he just don't understand me at all. I know I am a good person inside and out and I do not need to be around his negative family to prove that. If we have kids Joey wanted to name our child after his mom I said hell no I don't know how many no can be put in the word no, but it's no. I told him straight up no no no I want to name the baby after you Netzai and that's that. I don't like his mom at all and I do not trust her or his family if worse came to shove I would not trust them holding anything I of mines.
I also got my Selena book by Chris Perez in the mail so excited about it.
I miss you so much Netzai I hope you come back to visit me again in a dream.
Love sharisse big hug and kiss I hope you got the flowers I sent you in Heaven
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, February 14, 2015
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Happy Valentines Day Netzai, I love and miss you as always . I hope you are well and fine. I love you always forever and beyond through soul and flesh. My heart will always love you no matter what, even if your far. I love you and you still mean a lot or me.
Happy Valentines Day
Love sharisse
Ps words just can't are isn't enough to explain a whole lot of why I love you.. Words can't are isn't enoght or explain how much you mean to me. What is enough is that I show you that I love you everyday as if your still here even in spirit. Always love you unconditional in heart and spirit.
I will come by and visit today hopefully in the afternoon after school if not than Joey
Love you always Netzai
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Wednesday, February 11, 2015
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Hey Netzai my love, I love and miss you as always. I hope your fine and happy will update you later on life. You know what I found out some people still write to there love ones even after they pass away. I glad I am not the only one I write to you a lot, and that I am not ashamed of.
I miss you and love you always
Love sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, February 5, 2015
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Hey Netzai my love I love and miss you as always. Where to start does sit hurt to say I love Saturday class. I have the most funniest amazing professor you can ask for. Netzai he looks like Kevin hart lmao. He act like Kevin hart he is too much. He make me want to come to Saturday class everyday all the the time. He is too funny and to think I did not want to take a Saturday class. I am glad I did I love love it. How are you? I hope your fine I miss you and I think about you everyday Netzai. I know can't help it. I had my internship meeting I have to find a internship. But they help you find one too. I have to do a 6 page term paper which I do not mind cause i enjoy writing the same way you love writing Netzai in that black and white notebook poetry. I will visit you by the store yes yes I will come you keep telling me in a dream too. I need to listen more my buying habits is a bit out of control and have too many clothes and stuff. I need to take a long walk I have not done that in a while. I guess I need time for me. When will that come? I don't know I hope it's soon. I have a paper due Saturday looking forward to doing it. Healing is the word for today healing is what I am looking for.
Again still searching will let you know when I find out . I do have something to tell you almost astral projected I know so long right. I don't know I was laying down and I felt my soul lift and went back down another failed attempt lol. I will still try still try yup. My room is still lavender and white still need to do more clearing not that my room is cluttered but I do need to use certain things. I am buying another Buddha statue this time it has a butterfly don't ask why? I still seek spirituality and enlightenment I'm getting there but not there . Again this process start with thin myself this may need clearing and a lot of purify water. Holy time water a lot more than what is needed. Life can be complicated but than again is it really? I feel different but all for the right reason
Love sharisse I love you Netzai and I know your around me and love me too.
Ps I found out that angels are closer ........... You know
I miss you hoping for a letter from somewhere anywhere would nice
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, January 30, 2015
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Hey Netzai my love, I miss you and love as always. Sorry for writing so late at night I was thinking about you. Sorry for not writing I started school again I'm not sure how I feel but it is not negative. I have my internship orientation on Tuesday got cancel cause of the snow. Guess what I have a Saturday class! Don't ask because for internship I am required to have two full days off. I had to drop my class and put it on a Saturday schedule. I miss you a lot and I think about you a lot. I hope you are okay and safe and warm. I hope you have so much smiles and so much laughs In heaven with god and your family, friends and angels. I got a new wallet and yes it's pink but guess what? It has a picture slot so I put your picture and my uncle picture in the slot. I get to see your face everyday even though I have a picture of you on my iPad. I stated talking to God when I eat for pray. It's a slow start but it's helping. I guess I lost touch with myself but not for long. I keep you inside my heart Netzai and that is where you will stay forever as long as my heart still beats even through death I still will love you.and will want you. I got a candle that has a light inside of it it changes color. For some reason I feel like I am growing up into the women ii was meant to be. Again slow process but I feel like I am there just a little push would do.
Love Sharisse I still love you no matter what
Ps I am waiting on a letter I am checking my mailbox. I am checking my bed everything I can not find a letter from you Netzai Heaven must have thousands of letters I hope yours is on the way still waiting.
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, January 25, 2015
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Netzai my love hey I love you and miss you always. Sorry for not writing been busy but I did not forget to write. I miss you everyday all the time, I have my internship orientation coming up this week not sure if I am excited about it. Can you believe it this is my last semester of college? I do not know how I should feel to the most I feel normal. I know Netzai that your proud of me and thank you for visiting me again in a dream. I have to say you look good, you look handsome as you always did, still do. A part of me want to go away a little while by myself to visit a waterfall just to stare at it because water is calm to look at, it's relaxing. I'm just miss you and it hurts so much . I want to see you physical cause I miss you so much and I do not know how to deal.so i write to you because it help me stay and feel close to you. Beside me buying to many Mexican stuff omg I brought this Mexican shampoo called tio nacho omg I love it. I know God taking care of you and you safe. Does it hurt to say that I still love you and is still in love with you. I am still waiting for you .Hey I am still searching yeah for a small spot filled with happiness a place I can hide and go and be alone. You know what I find myself doing a lot of buying, to fill my pain I buy cause I feel depressed I buy because a part of me is down and I am trying to filled that void so I buy and buy because I am unhappy I feel good to admit that cause i know I can get better and writing to you make me happy and I feel much better. But the good thing is a least I am not one of those women who you meet and are unhappy so they make other unhappy because they are unhappy. I am glad I am not those type of women I actually glad to admit I am a very good hearted women with a good heart with an old soul and weird. I just miss you that all I miss you Netzai I am adapting to you spiritually. You will always be my one and only true love and my soulmate and best friend. You were like always the apple of my eye. You know what I remember most Is when you had comfort me when I lost my job. I felt so embarrassed to tell you Netzai but I could not lie to you. I just remembering you holding me and was trying your best to comfort me. I laugh every time I think about that. And I do remember the time you said you love me and I said I love you too Netzai and I meant that cause I really do love you and still do. I do love Joey might he want me to spend time with his family but I won't I can't they never accepted before so why should I now be More open to them. I am trying to find something I do not know what it is though some how I know I am close. I am not saying that I do not appreciate the things I have cause I do I guess God knows god only knows
I only have one life to live so I have to do good not only for myself but for you too Netzai and God and my uncle. I need to deal with my issues from my past and move forward so I start today
Love Sharisse
Ps still waiting on a letter from you Netzai letter from Heaven take longer than expected.
Yes Netzai love you too
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Monday, January 19, 2015
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I love you and miss you so much Netzai, I can say I feel stupid, dum for going to medium for a reading. I would not recommend anyone to get a reading. I believe my grieving had gotten the best of me and I was searching for a why inside of looking inside my self for the answer the answer was always in front of my face. I am sorry for going and that I seem so negative but I do not mean it. I miss you that all it hurts. I'm healing and it's hard for me to move on. Yes I was grateful for the reading but each reading left me drain and unhappy maybe because I am look for you to come back. I am loving and smart and funny but I fell short and it's okay cause I can get back up. I am strong and I will do good for you and me and God and my life. I had to look.inside my self because I knew the answer all along. I did need to go to medium to know that your okay and still around because you visit me in dreams and you show me. I just don't listen I am so stubborn . This is a big learning lesson for me and I needed that I believe God is saying I need to talk more with him. So I will work on communication with The Lord and build more faith and trust within myself that was a big wake up call God said no that not the way to go so I am listening.
I am grateful Netzai for you and I love you so much I know that I have to touch ground again with God and Heaven and start over new. That does not hurt right ? Please forgive me for my silly ways I am still learning i do admit the medium reading was a mistake and I will learn
Love Sharisse
John 1:9 if we confess our sins he who is faithful and just will forgive us for our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.
I must forgive myself
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Wednesday, January 14, 2015
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Netzai my love hey I miss you and love you as always. I am sorry for not writting been busy but did not forget to write to you. I miss you so much and I can not express how much I love you everyday. Lol you probably got so,much letter from me I hope you read them we cannot have them going to the wrong address in heaven can we. You probably have someone yelling I got letter and I do not know a Sharisse You probably be hey those of my letter not yours their from my love Lol I painted my room white and lavender it look really nice and homeie I did two wall by myself until my sister zee came to help than Joey. I just woke up one morning and said I feel like painting lol weird huh. I will update you tomorrow about my psychic medium reading I have on you Netzai and tell you my experience and my like and dislike. I must say a roller coster.
Anyway goodnight my love and I know your in peace and well I love you so much and I miss you
Love Sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Monday, January 5, 2015
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Hebrews 13:2
Do not forget to entertain strangers, for by so doing some people have entertained angels without knowing it.
Love Sharisse Netzai
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Monday, January 5, 2015
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Hi Netzai my love I miss you and love you always. Sorry for not writing Netzai I been busy but I have not forgot. Things have been okay lately I been doing new year cleaning I must have change my room around a lot lately, but all in all it feel a lot better. I hope things are fine with you and that your well and healthy. Than again I know that you are , i do miss you dearly everyday all the time but I know God is taking care of you for that I am not sad about because I do know that life goes on and that we just don't die we relive again but in a different way. I look at it like we are just on a more healthy vacation with the source in which we came from source I mean God. I watch Oprah super Sunday she ask the question about what happen when we die. A lot of the best philosophers even people who right about God gave there views on what happenes when we die. So here is mines my very own I believe we return to the womb in which we came. The womb that protect us and nurture us before we are fully developed the womb is God love in which he made us. We return to the healing and the piece of God soul the eternal gift of life which is at the center of God heart which is pure love and light.i do not believe that we die I believe we relive and we are heal from inside and outside. Do,I believe your gone Netzai no I believe you living I do not look at death as sad anymore It is a new chance at life for a new chapter to began in order for something special to grow. It's chance to give us to live again and not be sad. Your always around and my love for you remain pure as it did when I first met you and fell in love with I believe God had sent us both to each other because deeply down inside my heart believe your alive and well because God show me because I ask for sign and have seen. Heaven must be nice and God made beautiful angel of you
I am still healing and I know your here and yes I love you too Netzai always have and always do
I am living and I know you are too tears of happiness
I love you so much Netzai God knows I do
Love Sharisse I will let you know how the reading went I love you everyday many hugs and kisses
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Wednesday, December 31, 2014
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Hey Netzai my love I miss you and still love you. Happy New Year. I did wish you and my uncle a merry Christmas out loud and In thought, sorry for not writing on Christmas got held up in forgetful moments. But even though I did not write on Christmas I still said it to you. I hope new year in Heaven is just as grand up there in Heaven. I hope you are enjoying yourself. I do miss you everyday and I know your here in spirit. I do not know what the new year would bring but I do hope that if brings me closer to God and closer to you and my uncle. I am sorry for everything even getting upset. And Netzai I do forgive and I know you are sorry and I am sorry too. I am not mad but I do need time to get over it I'm not perfect. I'm sorry I got another reading I guess I'm not sure anymore I do not know how this one will go but I prey it what I am asking for but if it is not than it's surely close. I know your safe and I just miss you and I am so sorry and I will always love you Netzai always I am still working on myself slowly getting better each day dealing with my self. Still human I guess visit me again netzai
And thank Netzai for the mexican coin I know you heard me asking for one and you gave me one when I did not expected if I love you thank you I know you hear me
Love Sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Wednesday, December 24, 2014
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Hi Netzai my love I love always and thinking about you. Merry Christmas Eve I hope you got the lovely flowers i sent you out of love. Hope you got the same extract ones in Heaven. I got my second reading done by Medium name Ronni she was lie your boyfriend is coming through and she say that you are happy and thrilled Netzai she was so on point when she connected to you. I started crying cause I was like that's you Netzai she really connecting to you. Thank you so much for talking to her to connect with me I was put at ease and crying Because I really missed you and love you so much and I love and miss you too and it did not have to tell her anything I am so happy your okay and well and I hope your Christmas is warm and happy and filled with so much laughter and smiles. I did learn something the soul is eternal for life and that death is never ending it's a new chapter of our own beginning. We only retune back to the source we were always connect to and that with God you are with God and that I should not be sad that I should be happy I know I will see you and my uncle again.
But I do want to thank you for telling the other medium about the warning for me it came true and im sorry for not listening I really should think about my health a lot thank you
You will always be the love of my life forever and ever until we see each other in spirit in the hands of God No matter what I love you always Netzai and still do and always have.
Love Sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, December 18, 2014
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Hi Netzai my love. Sorry for not writing soon been a busy week very busy school is done foe me I am happy I could breath and sleep late. Guess what remember that 11 page paper I said I did in one day knowing that it was due the next day and that it was my fault because I ended changing my topic late I got an A on it I thought I failed I was like I failed I saw my my A and was like damn I was because I did it last minute and in one day I'm happy thought see I am determine. I miss you so much anyway I had my reading done and I have another one one the way. The fist lady who is a medium she said your boyfriend came though I believe she was talking about you Netzai a part of me wants to believe. Her that it was you. Talking you know she said that you passed quickly she said a whole lot of things about you coming in my dreams to visit me and that it's not my imagination and that it's really you and that your around me and move thing which is true. Cause you do move things I seen it for myself she said a lot of things I don't know you been my only boyfriend I ever loved and have have not admitted it yett I knew you love me you was not good at showing your emotions alway held them in I am getting another reading done I don't know but thank you for coming through to tell me and I love you too Netzai
I didn't tell her anything about you or me but she she said
I did not tell her the in incident where Joey was talking about you and I got mad and next thing I know was we had a picture on the above the tv been there for a long time and I remember asking Netzai are you here and and I remember with a strong punch you hit the picture of the tv and Joey was not happy I was like yup you better watch your mouth to Joey
I just miss you so much and I still love you as I alway did
Love Sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, December 11, 2014
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Hi Netzai i miss you and always love you from my heart. School is almost over thank God it felt like a life time. I have so much to tell you but first I wanna say thank you for visiting me in my dream. I was so happy and surprise you look like you were glowing and so heathy. I miss you so much and I'm glad your okay and well heaven must be nice. I knew it was a dream visit it felt so real like you were here on earth but I know your in spirit. I love you so much and I'm glad that I heard you say back to me I love you to Shsrisse. So happy your okay and well that was unexpected see I knew you always loved me even on earth. So I finished a 11 page paper in 1 day did not sleep at all but I'm okay about it I'm caught up with school. I also register for my classes for next semester I applied for my internship they told me I am eligible for it. Finger cross I got 100 sound class Okay, and they play the movie selena like more than I can count but I love that movie. I told Joey about it he said he thinks that when that movie comes on you must be sitting by me watching it with me. You knew that was my favorite movie Netzai can't help but smile I wanted to watch that movie with you I am still growing my hair our almost up to bra strap 3 inches away I meet mean people as always I want to get away from them but there to many I got into a small argument with a women who clearly did not like me for what ever reason I don't know and don't care I really don't wanna go Joey Christmas but have to so much so much
I just miss you Netzai I really do God knows I do
Ps hey I'm going to get a reading stop by yeah I love so much
Big hug and kiss
Love Sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, December 5, 2014
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Hi Netzai I miss you and love you always. Sorry for not writing to you i been busy. I been trying to get my self together emotional as well as spiritually. I almost done with school couple more weeks left I really miss you a lot. Guess what I got 100 on my test I thought I failed but I did I not I was surprised cause I was believing in my head that I would get 100 and I did. I got a floating locket with the world faith in it I also brought a Mexican flag charm for it which is to remind me of you. The charm was 5 dollars at first I was not going to buy it but than Joey paid for it . The lady we brought it from kept asking why I choose the Mexican charm above all other charm. I felt uncomfortable but I told her I brought it for remembrance. She looked at me shocked. I also got a Mexican throw pillow for sale which is weird considering it was expensive than I got it for a price that I could afford it. I was happy. It remind of you and I'm glad I got it. I did my Christmas shopping early got a few more thing to buy. I been having dreams lately about you and school I miss you and I love you Netzai
Love Sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, November 27, 2014
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Netzai I love you and miss you very much. I just wanted to say Happy ThanksGiving to you and your family and everyone else in the world weather in spirit or living. I hope all is well and that your at perfect peace. So as I look at my life I realize I have a lot to be thankful for what I am thankful for is living another day and breathing I am also thankful for my sight the fact that I can see hear touch and taste. I am thankful for a good heart I have and my family. I am thankful for you Netzai if I never got to meet you I would have never realize that I can still love someone through death yes it hurts cause your not here. But I know that God is watching over you and my uncle as well. So your in a good place I am proud of myself because I'm building myself to become a better person each day. The world is not evil when you are around the right people. I miss you but someone by meeting you my life changed I become something I never thought I would be and that is loving myself and loving someone else. Trusting me and others I know your watching over and that your fine I really miss you. There are still good perplexing in the world that still care my God hold you close and keep you warm with love light.
I love you Netzai love Sharisse
Happy thanksgiving
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, November 23, 2014
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I miss you and love you Netzai, I been busy with school and others stuff so I am very sorry for not writing. I miss you everyday , school has been great a little behind in school work but I will get it done this week. I been a little better lately I did my Christmas shopping early. I really miss you visit me sometimes huh. Today I am going to the museum with Donna girl night out.
Love Sharisse I love so much Netzai I wish I could see you again. Always know my heart always belong to you.
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, November 16, 2014
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I miss you and will always love you Netzai.
Love Sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Wednesday, November 12, 2014
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Netzai you know you meant a lot to me and you are very special to me. So hear is the baby name Netzai Nex Ivan Ferrer. As much as Joey is against it the name it's staying I always been in love with you and I still am. I miss you and I hope your birthday was a blast. You always meant so much to me and I am grateful for the love you show me. I will always remember you and by naming my baby after you I could never forget.
Love Sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Tuesday, November 11, 2014
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Hi Netzai my love I just wanted to say happy birthday. I hope you are having a big celebration in Heaven, I hope peace and love is always with you. Happy birthday Netzai . I hope you get my present sent from my heart to you or a least a copy.
I love you always from my heart Netzai
Love Sharisse always
I love you from the time we met and I could not imagine what my life would have been like if I did not meet you. You will always have my heart from this life until the next and further on. I hope you do not get to mad at me I cannot find your correct address in heaven. I hope that all my letters I have written are not mailed to someone else. Always remember I adore you and that you are still that intelligent young man Ii met and fell deeply in love with. Please excuse the day that I am mad or the times that I cry I just really miss you. I often wonder what if would be like if we were together again. I believe a lot of laugh and endless conversation. I just find my heart bleeds but not from pain but happiness cause I got to enjoy my time with you as you were with me. I know God is taking care of you and that your fine. I wish I could connect more to you but I know I can't are I'm not trying enough. Like I feel like I can and then doubts it's just me .But I do enjoy you visiting me in dreams and trying to connect with me while you can. I do enjoy the coins you leave or the beautiful butterfly you sent. Mysteriously I often wonder if it was a mistaken or my own self doubts. Maybe I need to connect to God more. Please know that I always Netzai and I hope you see that.
Ps you still owe me a date and a letter waiting. Happy birthday enjoy
Love Sharisse
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Sunday, November 9, 2014
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I miss you and I always love you and will always be in love with you Netzai. I'm sorry
Love Sharisse
Someday I really wish it was just a dream. Where did everything go wrong.
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Wednesday, November 5, 2014
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Hi Netzai I miss you and will always love you. Thank you for visiting me in a dream I felt more at peace when I woke up. My mind was put to ease. I do acknowledge you coming to visit me. I love you so much I hope you still love me. But deep down inside my heart tell me yes you still do. I like when you smile at me in your dream visit. Turn out I'm not behind in class I have another week to hand in my project . I got some new ideas I have. I will see what happens.
Love Sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Tuesday, November 4, 2014
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I'm missing you so much Netzai. It's my fault I am a little behind in class. I will catch up it's just one class. It's my fault again how could I be so lazy and distracted. I will catch up tomorrow early in as early goes. I always love you Netzai God knows I do from my heart. The pain I feel won't go away because I miss you everyday.
Love Sharisse write to me one day send me a letter from heaven. I will always love you and want you. You will always be apart of my heart mind soul forever. I will alway be In love with you nice the day we met.
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, November 2, 2014
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I miss you and always love you. Sorry for not writing been busy for a while with school and others things. For most part happy soul day Netzai and I hope everything is fine and in peace. I got my statue a week ago and I love it. My room is feel more peaceful and I changed it around again. I am doing well in school I got a 94 on my test and a B on my project. I hope for a little higher but I can't change it. Somedays are good other are okay. So turn out I will be graduating in June. I hope for December but I had extra classes to take including internship. Some how a feel a little out of place but at the same time I don't. I miss you a lot Netzai God know I do.
I love you always love Netzai love Sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Monday, October 27, 2014
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Hi Netzai , I'm still trying to find out what my soul is trying to tell me. I been having dreams lately I believe I have a lot to work on. First I have to find my goal still looking feel closer than I think. I learn to heal with my hands they tend to get hot when I focus my energy. It feel like a burning sense but not painful. I get lots of vibrations. I brought my statue can't wait for it to come. I am doing good In school. Math is a problem a bit but I will handle it. I Been having dream about you lately still finding our what they mean. I know there not dream visit but I know I am looking for something. I miss you and love you Netzai always
Love Sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, October 23, 2014
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I miss you and love you always, but I know you know that already Netzai. I am doing well struggling a bit not in a bad way. I need to study math it's really bothering me. I know I am not going to do so well on my midterm for it. It's okay though cause if I don't I have a another chance to do it which I am glad of. But on good note I am doing well in my others classes. Again a few run with nasty women and their nasty attitude. I do not know what to do. There is this women I used to work for in the school as a secretary for my resume. I did everything without complaint. Even things I was not suppose to do. But I had to stop working for her because I felt like she was taking aventags of me and it did not feel right. Now when I see her she get an attitude with me. She does not want to help me. She ignores me just nasty to me and I feel like she has a grudge. I do not care you Connot treat people bad. It's whatever to me and just nasty attitude with women in the bus stop. I do not know Netai i really don't.
I miss you and I love always I hope all is well and your in perfect peace. I needed to vent I wish you could hug and kiss me as you used to do.
Love Sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, October 19, 2014
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Netzai I miss you and love you always. Not much has happened lately I got my blue kyanite crystal I was so happy. I just thought that the size of it was small, I wanted it a little bigger. I am planning on buying a statue for meditation. The blue kyanite is strong my sense are becoming more aware. I also got a lapis crystal as well I like it I think it gives me clear thinking since my mind feels cluttered. I tried astro projecting yesterday Netzai I felt my body grow numb than I felt my my soul was lifting than I fell asleep. Another fail attempt again I do know know. You know the last time I astro projected I felt turbulence and than my soul had sat up. I saw a women staring at me. But I could not see her face just her body. She look like a ghost like she been in a fire her clothes burnt and dirty. Than zap I was back into my body when I open my eyes she was not longer there. But I knew she was still there. I saw her when I was out of my physical body and more in spirit body. I was not scared of her, she seem to not pose a threat to me. Anyway how are you doing Netzai? I know you would tell me your fine and not to worry. I hope all is well and in peace. I also started drawing again. Omg I know it's been a long long time since but I got the hang of it again.
I been busy with school and I know your birthday is coming. I miss you and always love you
Love Sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, October 16, 2014
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I miss you and I will and always love you Netzai . So where do I began a lot has changed I did a lot of cleaning especially in my bedroom. I got rid of so much stuff I feel a lot better then before. I am thinking about turning my room into a small meditation retreat for myself. I feel like I have spiritually grown not full there but I could use some improvement. I am doing my scholarship application. I do need to study my math. I been having nightmare lately and guess what I got a dream catcher I do not think it works. I just wanted to say thank you Netzai for sending me a orange butterfly. I kept asking then waited I can't believe it was the day I had to pick up your photo at the photo store then the butterfly appear out from nowhere after I gotten off the train at my stop. In my heart I knew that was you saying hi and that your always near . And that you can hear me and that you love me. Well I always love you and I do not think that death it's self could stop me from loving you. I show my two year old sister your picture and she said that Netzai I was like yeah that Netzai. She remember you even though she never met you. It was shock that she remember your name. My heart will love you for as long as our soul travel into the next lifetime and more ahead. My love for you Netzai never died it only grew stronger. May love light and peace guid your way always.
Ps I'm still waiting on a letter from you from anywhere. I did not know the cost of Mexico is cheap to live there. As soon as I get everything together I will buy a house down there so I can visit you more often one day I believe I will. And by the way I am still naming my first child after you when Me and Joey have our first child no time soon but when the time is right after you. So we are naming her / him Netzai Nex I do not care what Joey say it's going to be done regardless the name is staying period. It remind me of a time me and you use to be together Netzai I was like Netzai if we have kids let's name the baby Netzai so it will be two Netzai. Looking back I laugh cause I felt like it was true.
Love Sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, October 11, 2014
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My love for you is always pure.
Our souls are tied to the hands of God for eternal
Your sweet kisses have imprinted themselves on my lips
I will never forget you for you were the joy of my shattered heart now renewed
Love is and always will be you and me in soul heart and joy .
Right next to God is were you lay and where he guid you along the way.
Happy thoughts happy thought no tear just happy thoughts
I whisper out I love you I hope hear. I can't live without you
I hope you stay near please stay here. Did I mention your beautiful and your smile is amazing
I know you heard it from me far more than I can share.
I love you everyday everyday night all the time. I missing you stay with me I know your near
I believe
our love lives on God is love. The Bible says that “love never ends”–and “endures all things”
I know you still love me Netzai and i still love you
Love Sharisse I wrote this for you Netzai
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, October 10, 2014
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I miss you and will always love you no matter what. I often wonder how you are ?or what you doing? but I know your fine with God and all is well. I think about you everyday all the time still in love with you. I'm sorry for what I have done sometimes I get mad angry at you , but I do not mean them. I just miss you Netzai that all but I know your around me and that you still care and love me. School is good my grade are good got A and B I wish I could show them to you I know you be proud of me like you always have been. I'm applying for scholarship now and I got a math midterm to study for I hope I pass. Thank you for the dream visit they put me at peace. I hope you are happy and at peace yourself but I know you are
You are one beautiful angel and I'm glad I got to know and spend time with. I'm still working on my spiritual side and healing side too.
I'm missing you I miss you so much and love you always
Love Sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, October 3, 2014
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I miss you and will always love you Netzai. Things are going good have to do some revision for school but I am mostly caught up with everything. Had a few run in with girls who had nasty attitude but what could I do. I am just proud of myself for not being nasty to them as they are to me. My hair is growing healthy Netzai I am about 3 inches from bsl I am happy. My hair is still in twist for now it looks short but when I straighten it out it's very long. I miss you Netzai a lot I think about you everyday and still love you regardless. You will and always be the one man I will always be in love with until the end of time . Thank you for the mexican coins I assume you can hear me asking for them in Heaven . It be weird cause when I do not ask You for a coin Netzai i do not get from you, When I be complaining for a coin to let me know your around I get one. See I know you still love me very much. I know your busy in heaven but I am glad you come by to still see me in spirit.
Love Sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, September 26, 2014
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Forever in love with you . I will always wait for you. . I love you always in love with you.
You will alway be in my heart and soul for eternity.
Love Sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Wednesday, September 24, 2014
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Hi Netzai, so to fill you in I'm off from school for 3 days, I believe due to holiday. Am I happy I do not know but I do know I have to study. I did get everything done for all my other classes except two. One is a project and the other is math so studying is a must. I do have my days I believe I' m getting better each day seeking a bit more peace inside. Thank you for visiting me in a dream it felt real it was good to communicate with your still the same. I wish I got to talk to you more but I know you had to go thank you for telling me about what I needed to get done and how I should be more carefully with my money I know I know. Turn out the guy did not do the project for the pillowcase I gave him to draw on thank you for reminding me. He told me he will do it this week. I kept on putting it off but you told me to do follow up so I did. I know your watching over me and I appreciate that and I know you still love me and that I should not worry cause your okay. I just miss you talking to me and spending time with me. I did have sleep paralysis a few days ago I know I was awake in my mind but my body was unable to move. I tired to do astro projection like last time. I did not achieve it maybe next time I could leave my body and see you . I not scared or anything last I did astro projection it was by accident I felt vibration and zap I was out of my body. Is it weird to say I could not hear any noise I just stared at my body. I was like wow this is how it feels to be invisible I look around the room and I saw another spirit looking out the window Netzai I was not scared. All I remember saying was take me to see you next thing I know I went flying out into the window it happened so fast it was crazy. Let me know the spirit world has not time in or a least I did not know. I know it was not a dream this is real. I tried to see you I went into sometime of black void and then I came upon a Galaxy of bright star. Then I went into a star it was dark inside I thought you was there which I assume that why I had went there. I heard a. Lice talking or me saying let go. I was like let go of what. It repeated what it just said again so I pay no attention. It had say something about being my guardian angel. Next you know I felt someone grab my arm and pull me back info my body. I'm not sure why? I join a form where people like myself had astro projected a lady told me that maybe I had went to a part of the spiritual realm where soul go she said maybe you Netzai were there but to far for me to reach. She said I travel to far and that why my guardian angel pull me back. She also mention a sliver cord she said maybe I would have got trap in the astro world. I know it's not a dream Netzai it was real like real I did leave my body.
Maybe when I leave my body next time I can see you until then I enjoy your dream visits. I'm not as spiritual strong as I use to be when I was with you when we use to be together. Somehow when I left for school I just stop everything.
I still love you I will love you for externality and I still miss you.
Love Sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, September 19, 2014
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I'm sorry for not writing to you sooner I just been busy. I have not forgotten school is okay I manage well and got my homework finished on time. I did fall cleaning I clean my room Netzai I had two big bags of stuff I thrown out. I feel more better that they are gone I felt like I was holding on to past objects or stuff. I miss you everyday I do think about you a lot sometimes I wonder where you are? Other times I hope you are at peace I love you Netzai . I just wish sometimes you would have just said that. Sometimes I sit and wonder if you ever wrote me a letter maybe in heaven you did and one day I will see it. I have three days off from school but I have to study. I have projects to do but I finish one I got two more. I love you netzai always have and always will
Love Sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, September 14, 2014
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I miss you Netzai always love you.
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Tuesday, September 9, 2014
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Hey Netzai I miss you and I love you. I stare at your picture beside my bed. I'm frustrated a bit things are a little heavy on me, but it's nothing' that I cannot handle. Me and Joey we are different because we come from two different cultures it's not that I do not love him we just do not see eye to eye. I think he does not understand me but I think he tries. It's nothing that we cannot work out just a lack of understanding. I'm up doing my homework I have school tomorrow have to write a pitch. I miss you, you always seem to understand me I miss that. Ever since you left to be with God I just ain't never been right. No one could replace you I'm still in love with you and I cannot let go and I won't. One day Netzai I am going to buy a house in Mexico so I could visit you more. Is it bad to say sometime I just want to leave and go somewhere far after I get a good job when I graduate is that selfish to say ? Strong people do work things out and I am strong sometime I just can't, but I can. How are you Netzai? I know you doing good like you would always say I'm good. I know your around I know and I miss you and I always will love you no matter what. You will always be my heart my soul and apart of my mind forever. You will always be the love of my life and the apple of my eye. One day I will see you again. Until then I will live my life and wait for you patiently. Your dad is good seen him Friday with Joey your family is beautiful.
Love Sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Wednesday, September 3, 2014
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Netzai when you come and visit me in dreams they feel real sometimes I'm not sure what they mean. I think you are telling me your still around I think there is a part of me that I need to work on. Sometimes I'm not sure what part of myself that is I'm confuse. I got back into writing again I held that off for a while I never knew how much I missed it. School is fine I have to study more I cannot wait until it's over. I am looking forward to earning my associate degree and getting my bachelor degree. I wish you were here I miss you I'm sorry if my negative thoughts get in the way I guess I'm still upset I hope you forgive me. I need to forgive myself that's something I'm working on. I hope heaven keep you safe and warm and your heart is always filled with love and light like it always was before.
I just miss you and I love you and I'm sorry if I did not Come, to your funeral cause I did not know. and I'm sorry that I found out a year later in 2013 And I'm sorry for not seeing you I just did not know I thought you wanted space from me but I did not know that wasn't the case. Sometime when I think about it I get mad because I told you I told that day back in June2011 not to go. Why did you not listen to me? And I'm sorry for being on the phone helping a non friend In need and always having to go, but I always made sure I spend time with you and told you I love you.
I guess I'm just waiting for you you are always in my heart as I hope I am in yours. I guess I just miss you I miss you laughing at my corny jokes and you smiling at me I miss how we laugh at the same time. I miss us being in class together I miss walking you to math class.I miss our conversation. I miss you hugging me and always trying to comfort me. I miss the quietness between us when I use to get mad at you and you would remain quiet. I miss how we use to not argue but talk about the situation. I miss you even trying to pick small argument with me just to get a reaction but you never did I think I won that round. I miss you throwing paper at me. I miss you saying are you mad at me you don't love me you know I did. I miss you just looking at me and saying sorry. I miss holding your hand I miss you kissing me on the cheek are calling me boo. I just miss everything I miss you calling me beautiful even though you was to shy to say it. I miss you being shy Omg. I miss the way you use to hold in your feelings I miss seeing you in front of the store sitting on a crate on your phone I miss seeing you talking to your boys when I would pass you by. I miss seeing your face light up when you see me. I remember when I first brought you a valentine day present a bear and chocolate I think they were chocolate turtles and I put on your seat in class and you came in and look at your seat and was like teacher someone left this. I was like netzai it's yours and you look shocked omg your facial expression I tried to hold in my laugh. I hope you still have the mexican keychain I gave you of the boy representing Mexico. I told you not to lose it I hope you still have it. I miss you saying you love me I remember asking you why don't you tell me that more often I remember you shrugging your shoulder saying I don't know I could tell you do not like showing your feelings. I miss you sucking your teeth at me cause I would not answer a question. I miss you giving you small bracelet red and blue one and a birthday card which was pink I miss u can't help it.
Please forgive but I cannot help the way I feel Netzai. I love forever lifetime after lifetime
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Monday, September 1, 2014
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Where do I begin Netzai, I think I had it up to here with the salon I go to. The experience was horrible as hell. She tried to comb my hair while it was wet with a brush who does that, not to mention she use a rat tooth comb on my hair and my hair is courses and curly. Should I also mention she made me wait forever she does not know how to do natural hair and she burn my head with the blower dryer on purpose. After me being so kind she told me I needed to put a keratin treatment in my hair to make it straight so I would not have to come back for wash and set. Could you believe that oh by the way I had a feeling she was trying to purposely damage my hair with the rat tooth comb by clearing it out. I mean everyone knows your not suppose to use a rat tooth comb on course hair or any hair that can damage hair. Netzai she never did that to my hair now she does it I had a bad feeling about going that day I did not listen to it now I know. I just feel like she wants my hair to be damage but my hair is fabulous. I had it out for one day and I put it back up in twist hmmmm people. I could say worse day ever not to mention that the product she put in my hair was still in my hair cause it made my hair hard from the blow dryer again done on purpose. Then she had the nerve to charge 40 after she was finish with my hair I'm done women just cannot be friends. Well that my hair story for the day I miss you and I love you thank you for visiting me yesterday even though I could not see you I heard you. I could not sleep I kept on thinking about the picture I saw of you in the store. I could not sleep I kept wondering who those girls were? But you put my mind at ease I guess you must have felt what I felt I was sleeping and I heard I'm not even sure someone say te amo to me in my ear. I thought I was hearing things when I woke up nobody was there. I just felt a comforting feeling around me and I slept peaceful that day. I could not help to think that it was you, it had to be. I remember when we were together you did say te amo to me cause I ask if you love me?and if you was going to write me a letter?and you said yes. As weird as it sound I felt that my wish came true for my birthday all I wanted was to hear your voice again and that I did. I am so grateful and thankful for you and that your still around me in spirit and you have not left. I love you Netzai Always have and always will love u always in my heart. Love Sharisse
By the way I saw your dad he's doing good you and him both still have the same facial expression, I just have a feeling he misses you.
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Saturday, August 30, 2014
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Thank you Netzai for comfort I do not know if it is me or my eyes playing tricks on me. I have come to notice that when I'm thinking about you or happened to cry. I notice when I come on your page as weird as it sound I see sunflowers but is like a quick flash of it and when I come back on it's not there anymore maybe it's my computer. I notice it happened when I'm thinking of you I know your around I love so much I wish I could see you but I know one day I will, until then I will enjoy having you around in spirit and acknowledging your presence. Thank for the butterfly weird as it sound I believe that was you the butterfly look injured but I took care of it and nurse it back to health. When the butterfly got better it flow back to the window.I love you forever love Sharisse
Thomas Moore quoted .the heart that has truly loved never forgets,
But as truly loves on to the close,
As the sunflower turns on her god, when he sets,
The same look which she turned when he rose.
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, August 28, 2014
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Netzai I started school today I could say it went well. I did not have a lot of homework just one could you believe it we have to write about a movie we like. I guess I'm still trying to figure that out. I miss you more than anything but I love you the same way I did when we first met. I miss seeing you and holding your hand. You know what I remember I came visit you on December I surprises you with a gift and I remember you telling Sharisse I didn't get you anything and I said exactly you being my best friend was a gift to me. I could not believe that you dance with me outside and your dad and that young girl you work with at the store was looking at us through the window. That was a fun time but we shared more moment like that so many times. I will always remember that thank you for giving me a another Mexican coin this time Joey found it and gave it to me. Thank you for spending time with me at school I sense you was there You bring so much comfort. I could say I felt. A whole lot better then I did before I remember you keeping the papers we pass to each other in class us passing note to one another God I miss that I miss u. You will always be in my heart forever and I think about you every day. I am still going to Mexico to see you don't you worry I will be there. When I said I love you that for all time I know that I will see you again one sweet day Netzai.
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Monday, August 25, 2014
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QUOTE You know what inspiration is? It's someone who lets you know life will go on and something beautiful can be waiting....waiting when you least expected it.
I miss u
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, August 24, 2014
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Words cannot explain how much I miss you I know your around in spirit. I could say my faith have been a little rocky but I'm still connecting with spirit and God. I guess you could say I'm having a hard time finding balance between both. Sometimes I think I will be fine other days it's impossible but I know that you wouldn't like it if I do so I don't . Your dad is a wonderful man and has a good and calming aura about him the same way you did. I can see where you get your calmness from I cannot help to think that every time I come into the store I can feel your presence around him. I still love you Netzai school start in 4 days hope to see you their in spirit with me yes. Thank you for the dream again I understood . I need to meditate more to reconnect with you and spirit level again.
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Tuesday, August 19, 2014
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I miss you and love you Netzai, I got so much to tell you but I will talk to you in my heart. Thank you for coming to visit me in spirit I know your alive and well with God. I know you were the one who knock down the picture to let me know you was there and you heard what Joey had said . I could not agree more but I laugh it off thats why you knock the picture down. I'm almost finish with school last semester please pray for me if this goes well I will be graduating in fall. I know you proud of me, Joey tells me something about a paper with lines I laugh cause I know you read my book I gave you he tell me not to think about what happen and that it hurts you when I do. I will say that I'm sorry and I hope you can forgive me I cannot help it. I saw your dad he seem to be very happy when talking about you, very happy. He proud of you I could tell you know, the funny thing is you guys share the same facial expression a part of me still think he do not remember me coming to see you. The funny thing was I did not see your dad that much, only the young girl you use to work with. Anyway school start next I hope you come with me to my first day of school. I love you Netzai love Sharisse
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
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Î miss you and will always love you netzai .I stop by the store yesterday and I saw your dad I do not think he remember me but I remember him. Thank you for the mexican coin very odd place to find another beautiful item I can add to my collection love. I'm in my last semester of college I know your around and is proud of me I just wish you was here more but thank you for the wonderful dreams that I see you in.
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Tuesday, August 5, 2014
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I miss u I know your in a better place. I think of you all the time every memory we shared together every kiss we had I will cherish until I see you again. I will always love you.
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Friday, August 1, 2014
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netzai graduation he did it.. I miss u
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Sharisse. posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, August 1, 2014
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I miss you and still love you.
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Wednesday, July 23, 2014
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I miss you and will always love you.
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Friday, July 18, 2014
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Simply beautiful soul.
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Sharisse posted a symbolic gesture
Friday, July 18, 2014
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Hey Netzai I miss you and will always love you. You will always be my best friend and my love. I miss you everyday but I know your that beautiful butterfly that always stop by. I'm coming soon I hope your there when I visit.
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Sharisse posted a condolence
Friday, July 4, 2014
Happy 4th of July. I miss you and love you always. Netzai.
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Sharisse posted a condolence
Wednesday, June 18, 2014
I miss you and will always love you netzai. Yessss I got it we are naming the baby netzai I got my way finally not zenzai
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Sharisse posted a condolence
Monday, June 9, 2014
Look at the stars look how they shine for you and all the things that you do Coldplay . I miss you and will always love you Netzai
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Sharisse posted a condolence
Sunday, June 1, 2014
I miss you and still and always love you . Where do I began is there even a beginning. You say your home I know your not alone you said you need to make amends . I say the same God I miss you and love you show me something please I feel dead inside. Something anything a letter something anything please .
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Sharisse posted a condolence
Wednesday, May 28, 2014
I miss you and love you forever netzai. Coming to Mexico soon to see you i brought you a big mexican flag ahhhhhhhhh so cool and I'm going to buy so many flowers for you soooo many omg so many I love you
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sharisse posted a condolence
Thursday, May 22, 2014
I miss you and still love you. I think about everyday still waiting for you.
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sharisse posted a condolence
Thursday, May 22, 2014
I miss you and still love you. I think about everyday still waiting for you.
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Sharisse posted a condolence
Thursday, May 15, 2014
I miss you and will always love you netzai. I hope to see you again but I know you are around.
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Sharisse posted a condolence
Wednesday, May 7, 2014
I miss you more each day. I will always love you. Netzai we will meet again. Always in my heart my love my friendship remain always unconditional to the end of time for you.
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Sharisse posted a condolence
Friday, May 2, 2014
I miss you and will always love you. I hold on to every memory tears and laughter. It's still hard to say goodbye. I got so much to tell you when I see you again. On other note I had my first out of body experience. No I was not afraid or anything I just saw my own body. I look like I was sleeping peacefully. Anyway I did get to see other spirits but you already know I seen them before. Now I know how it feel to be invisible. I tried to astro travel to you I'm guessing I did something wrong. I ended up in the lower astro plains which was very dark and dark. I will tell you a spirit talk to me but I was trying to see you. I'm guessing it was the wrong spirit cause I end up getting pulled back into my body. I'm guessing it was my guardian angel doing that. I was not suppose to be in the lower astro plains . I will try again netzai . When the spirit was taking to me it refuse to show its self not a good sign.
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Sharisse posted a condolence
Monday, April 21, 2014
I miss you and I still love you. I know you come to visit me at night because I feel you touching my face telling me to go to sleep and I feel you sitting beside me on the bed.
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Sharisse posted a condolence
Thursday, April 17, 2014
I love you always I hopes it's nice where you are . Always in my heart forever your name.
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sharisse posted a condolence
Sunday, April 6, 2014
I miss you and I will always love you. But I know you love me. Tell me now how I got so lucky my dear.We are out of our minds when we do crazy things
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sharisse posted a condolence
Saturday, March 29, 2014
I miss you and will always love you. Just keep thinking it is hard very. I'm coming to mexico soon to see you and I hope your there with me that day. I save up the money ahhhhh I hope I do not break down and cry you know I am such a big baby. I hope you wrote to me maybe one day I will get a letter or something out of the blue from you. I talk to much but I guess you know that already. So I have good news joey and I decided to name our child after you and I had to put up a hell of a fight for it cause he just was not going to say yes and he finally did. So our baby name is Zenzai Nex. I'm trying for netzai but he said zenzai is closer to your name. I love it
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Sharisse posted a condolence
Wednesday, March 12, 2014
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
'Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew?
By pink
I love you netzai and I always will they play our song on the radio and I knew that you were near me cause they never played that song my whole life I work there . I knew you were there
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sharisse posted a condolence
Thursday, March 6, 2014
I miss you and will always love you forever. I can't stop thinking about you. sign please...... you will always be my butterfly.Ƹ̴Ӂ̴Ʒ. ƸӜƷ
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sharisse posted a condolence
Saturday, February 22, 2014
Butterfly's they fly everywhere they carrie you into their arms spreading your sweet love. I miss you and it hurts I just keep wishing you would just pop up one day as I'm just walking. Everything reminds me of you I still love you I always will. I have your picture everywhere I was planning on coming back to you I just had to take time off but I guess you know that. You know I still wear everything Mexican because It makes me feel so close to you. There is not a day that goes by that I do not think of you. You were suppose to marry me we had plans remember laughing. I miss you and love you. Netzai when I see you again in Heaven you owe me a ring remember that and I'm coming for it. I would also like you to please tell me about what you mean in a dream about a phone every time you visit me in a dream you are always showing me a phone I do not know what you mean by that.
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Sharisse posted a condolence
Friday, February 14, 2014
I miss you and will always love you. Happy Valentine's Day netzai thank you for many sign and beautiful dreams. I just want to wake up and see you sitting right next me smiling. I blame myself for not taking that walk that day I just did not know something just kept waking me up at night at 2 then 3 then 4 in the morning and was telling me take a walk and don't come back until 5 and I did not know why and then I look back and I knew why
I miss you so much it hurts me
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sharisse posted a condolence
Wednesday, February 5, 2014
I miss you so much. I will always love you netzai.
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sharisse posted a condolence
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Thank you for coming and visiting me and my family in South Carolina. I know you were there ,I could feel you and thank you for the beautiful butterfly I ask for. I know it was you cause the butterfly kept on tapping me and I was playing with you, and I knew it was you because when I was taking my first driving lesson the butterfly kept on tapping on the glass window and I could not help but look up and see that it was you . I ask you to be with me that day cause I thought that I was going to kill myself, but that was you telling me that your here and I'm good lmao love you.
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sharisse posted a condolence
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Happy New Year Netzai I love you and miss you. You will always be in my heart forever. See you in Mex soon by the way I did not know you could drive there. It's telling me it might be you. I'm coming yayayay.
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Sharisse posted a condolence
Wednesday, December 25, 2013
Merry Christmas Netzai I love you and always in my heart. Happy Christmas
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sharisse posted a condolence
Saturday, December 21, 2013
I miss you, and will always love you.♡Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ♡Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♡Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♡Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ♡Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♡Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♡Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♡Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♡Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♡Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♡Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♡Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♡Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♡Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♡Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♡Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ Ps know that I'm coming to see you in mex=nex I cannot wait lolololol .
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sharisse posted a condolence
Monday, December 2, 2013
I miss you so much, but I know your still around me. I love you netzai
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sharisse posted a condolence
Thursday, November 14, 2013
Just wanted to say I love you, and miss you so much.But the fact I came back to remind you I love ya
Netzai
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sharisse posted a condolence
Monday, November 11, 2013
Happy, happy hold up pause, i'm going to say it real loud birthday Netzai omg your 22 years old . I miss you so much , and I love you more each day. A special memory let me think too many to name. I guess I wanted to say is how proud i'm am i was of you, I always been proud being around you I seen how much grow up and learned how to embrace being yourself it was amazing to be around you. I could say whole a lot of stuff but what I really want to say is you changed my life, and I thank you for that you inspired me to be confident and feel comfortable nobody else could make me feel that way. I wanna thank you for visiting me in my dreams more than once, and spending time with me. I know that was you was on the bus with me when I was coming home from work. Mystery my phone messes up out of nowhere I remember having 4 music download apps on my phone. I remember listening to a song by Salonge Knowles and I know for a fact you turn that song on purpose. Because I never turned the song and two I never went or click onto the second music apps to get the mario song that you played. I remember seeing a notification pop up about one of my games and right there and than in a low but mono tone sound Mario song was playing. I thought I was tripping cause I know I did not leave my first apps which is music dowload app lite to go into my second music download music app to find Mario. The song out from nowhere stop playing when it is on rotation. I was like that you playing with my phone again. Same situation happened when your pictured kept popping up on my phone and the music stopped playing. I know your watching over me I really miss you more each day. I love you Netzai you lived beautifully. Happy birthday I love you
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sharisse posted a condolence
Wednesday, October 30, 2013
We were good friends also lovers.
is your heart still mines I wanna cry sometime I miss you.
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sharisse posted a condolence
Sunday, October 27, 2013
When can I see you again, and when can I breath once again, when can I see you again
miss you always love you.
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sharisse posted a condolence
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
So many memories we shared together. I hold those close to my heart. I still remember the day we talked on Main Street, I remember saying to you when I got enough money I'm going to Rome and build a house down there. I remember telling you if I'm going to Rome you got to come too. I was suppose to call you up out of the blue one day and be like Netzai, you be like what? I would answer Netzai pack your stuff we leaving today to go to Rome, you be like Sharisse you okay lets go. I miss you more and more each day. I know your here it is just hard . I love you so much.
see you again my love
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sharisse posted a condolence
Wednesday, October 16, 2013
I always love you Netzai and thank you for staying with me. I know thats you playing with my electronic once again, and moving my hat. I love you see you soon.
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Sharisse posted a condolence
Sunday, October 6, 2013
Forever in love forever in love with you and only in love with the touch of god hand just as my heart spoke it spoke to you and just as my eyes saw it saw for you I love you netzai see you again
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Sharisse posted a condolence
Wednesday, October 2, 2013
Netzai netzai netzai once again you always seem to amaze me some how lol. Thank you for visiting me today I know you were beside me on the bus because the weirdest thing happened I was listening to music and I have your picture on my phone but when I played music your picture no longer pop up because the music icon is on and I was listening to a specific song as I looked at your picture close it and turned on the music icon I had the song on repeat when it magical stop playing at first I'm thinking it was going to replay but the song never did I look at my phone and your picture pop up I was like wow netzai are you here I went and press played and it turn on to the music icon out from no where again your picture poped up again my phone never does that laugh out loud I knew you came to visit and I wanted to say thank you and I love you and by the way thank you for being there in the office with me at school I knew you was there because I can feel you and beside I knew you were the one who tap my shoulder hard cause my teacher did not touch me when I looked up he was helping another girl in class I was like what just happened and nobody was around I know you just wanted me not to feel sorry for myself and I could feel your hands trying to help me write and my boyfriend told me you said you was in the post office with us I love you netzai and you will always be in my heart a million years now and a million years then I will see you again my love
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Sharisse posted a condolence
Monday, September 23, 2013
My love netzai I have a feeling to write this I did admit you we're and still is a good dancer lmao you surprise me when you dance with me at the end of the school year I remember saying netzai you dancing you was like yeah and we both laughed I remember we danced on mainstreet in front of the store without no care we were just happy and laughing holding hand just being in peace in harmony I remember talking to God in front of you and never judge by the way I remember when we got into a little disagreement but the beautiful part of it was we wasn't yelling at one another we had a calm talk that I believe only twin flames can have we always left on good terms at the end of the day we still loved each other and I remember you purposly bump into me so we can talk don't think I did not see you run into that store and come out lmao I saw okay okay and I remember you asking me are we good and I reply netzai we always been good I was just waiting on you and that day I told you I love you we had a beautifully special relationship that people find once in a lifetime ours just came the day we met by the way thank you for visiting me yesterday I felt you laying next to me and no netzai I do not have a big mouth thank you for telling my boyfriend that okay what ever I know you be with your family but I just want to say to netzai family he always around a lot more than you think he love you guys I'm not crazy for saying this but it's true
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Sharisse posted a condolence
Saturday, September 21, 2013
I miss you more each day. I know you get all my messages even when I'm singing to you the way I used to do never felt silly for it. I just wanna thank you for communicating with me I never thought that it would be you but when you said you remember the wallet and money prank in school I played on you I knew from than it was you and that my boyfriend was not lying to me cause I never told him about that so how would he know I'm glad that your fine my boyfriend told me you come to visit me and I believe him because he said that you said you seen me cry and that you hear me and you called me a punk lmao what ever netzai I'm glad your fine and your okay I love you so much netzai I really do everyday and I will tell you that a million times and my boyfriend told me you said what's good sharisse and that you love me and miss me too those word meant so much until we meet again my love see you soon
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Sharisse posted a condolence
Sunday, September 15, 2013
I miss you so much netzai. I know you know how much I do it's hard for me to let go but I don't want to. Thank so much for the picture you sent I forgot about it a long time ago lol looking back I remember why you gave it to me you said it remind me of you lol how did you know I got and lol you made me remember that I did get to tell you I love you. Lolol I can't believe you that I told you countless number of times looking I can't believe I forgot I love you more each day don't you forget that and I know in my heart you did not you is and always will be beautiful to me and I still see your face when I close my eyes smiling at me one day I will see you again I know you come to visit me I can feel you holding my hand or sitting on my bed I love you netzai thank you for the butterfly's they are beautiful as you I love you so much until next time my love
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sharisse posted a condolence
Thursday, September 5, 2013
I miss you and I love you always. I will see you again my love.
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Sharisse posted a condolence
Tuesday, September 3, 2013
I miss you so much I will see you netzai on the 11 I love you always and a million years I will love you again and again thank you so much for coming to visit me on my birthday it meant so much to me I know you are watching over me I love you so much
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sharisse posted a condolence
Tuesday, August 6, 2013
Hey Netzai it is me again writing to you God knows how many times I already gave you countless numbers of messages from me. I do not know i find this to be a healing process i just believe in my heart that your still around I just know i can feel you feel your presence around and beside you give me many sign to let me know your there. I miss you and I tell you that million times a day there is not a day that goes by that I do not tell you that. I will visit main street and place a candle there every 11 just for you i hope you got the one i sent you before with a letter and chain and i hold your spirit close to my heart i do not ever forget the times of greatness we shared . You changed my life and if there was one thing i left out of high school remembering out of anything else is you i only remember you and nothing else. see on the 11 again i got so much love for you netzai
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sharisse posted a condolence
Thursday, August 1, 2013
My hands shake as I'm writing this to you as if you are near me cause I just can not believe your gone. I never got to tell you how much I love you and that I admired you. We shared such a special bond like we knew what each other was thinking or feeling before we could say it. We shared a soul together and that feeling was unforgettable. Everything about you was so damn amazing everything about you. I could still see you smiling at me in my mind. I could still see you laughing at my corny joke. Hell it was not funny but we laughed anyway . I still remember you passing notes to me back in fourth in class. Man we use to get in trouble for talking so much. everything was a conversation it did not matter what topic we felt so comfortable with each other. I remember I ask you to marry me well I know the answer would have been a ........... Netzai my love my friend you were so amazing and had so much more to give. I will always miss you and I know God knows you are such an awesome cool person and I sure know God has great plans for you in the future. Im not saying goodbye I'm saying I will see you next time. I will always love you always. By the way Thank you for sending me those two butterfly I ask for just to let me know that your still there with me
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resse posted a condolence
Sunday, July 28, 2013
Hey Netzai I want to start out by saying how glad I am that I have met such a beautiful soul like you. You changed my life just by being a good friend to me. You will be missed and I will miss you too, but I will think of all the good times I had with you, and all the smiles with laughter we shared. You are a angel with a good soul may you rest in peace. Forever your friend resse. Ps I never thought that we will be friends the day I walked into the store and saw you, but that all changed when I God blessed me to sit next to you in english class. I can honestly say I was wrong we became good friends and that I will always remember.
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melissa viss posted a condolence
Thursday, May 17, 2012
Netzai i can not believe you are gone :( you were an amazing person to us all ill never forget out st marys days it was never a dull moment with you .. So glad i got to see you recently and catch up on life ... Noe youre in a safer place with God,no more worries . You will be missed dearly my prayers to the family rip netzai much love
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Sheldon Tang posted a condolence
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
My lil brother Nex man...you already know you was always my lil brother, I always respect how genuine you always was and at such a young age. You were younger then us all that was around your brother and its just crazy how your just gone. Im just glad I got to see how old you got and I got to apologize last time I was in N.Y. God knows...R.I.P Nex
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cesar jimenez posted a condolence
Friday, May 11, 2012
Nex was always the best to everyone, one of the funnest people to be around , always looked out for all of us in the neighborhood even those of us who weren't family, I still carry all the memories we all created together in the backyard when we'd play ball late night and break windows and all run and hide lol, playing ps2 with me and david, foos ball, my and my family's prayers are with you ,Rest In Peace Nex
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vicky gonzalez posted a condolence
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Nex u was a wonderful froend those days u would keep me company at work and the talks we had will always be in my heart miss u nex
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Anonymous posted a condolence
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Nick was an angel on earth. His pure face and smile lit up our workplace every day. He will be missed.
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